God vs. Lone Star, you and I are a pair

"Sister Li Lan, my name is Zhou Jingyan, and I am not a policeman." Zhou Jingyan was not good at words and did not have many social skills, but his eyes looked at Li Lan sincerely, and Li Lan felt her sincerity.

"The one you came with Officer Qin yesterday was his girlfriend." Li Lan asked.

"No, I am, how should I put it, a special adviser." This is an identity that Qin Fang arranged for her.

"Oh, I wonder what Miss Zhou is responsible for?" Li Lan asked perfunctorily.

"Well, how should I put it? I can sense some emotions in people's hearts, such as fear, anger, despair, etc." This is also what Qin Fang taught her. For ordinary people, it is a little more mysterious, but it is more real than Zhou Jingyan. The ability makes people more accepting.

"Oh, a psychologist or something like that?" Li Lan works in a hospital and is not unfamiliar with psychological counselors. What's more, she has also seen many psychologists over the years, but this girl is nothing like the psychologist she has seen. The difference with the doctor is that she doesn't speak in a deliberately soft tone full of routine.

"So, why did you come to me alone today?" Li Lan didn't quite understand.

"You need my help, and I need yours."

"What should I say?" Li Lan dismissed the girl's words. In fact, Li Lan believed that the only person who could really help him would be the disappearance of the source of hatred.

"I know you hate him, and you hate yourself even more." Zhou Jingyan looked into Li Lan's eyes, unblinking, and said firmly.

"Who? Who do I hate?" Li Lan didn't react.

"Xingyong's father, the one who raped you." Zhou Jingyan still looked at her.

"That's enough. Please go out, Miss Zhou, please." Li Lanteng stood up from the sofa, folded his arms in front of his chest, and made a defensive posture and a farewell gesture.

Zhou Jingyan didn't move, but still spoke.

"You want to kill him, but you know you can't do it, and you don't want your parents to know. You can only bury this pain in your heart, and you will only hide and cry at night or when no one is around. See that My child, you will be soft-hearted when you are sick. After all, no mother can bear to see her child injured. But I understand you. After everything you have experienced, you cannot face him. His father is a beast and a scumbag. , something worse than a pig or a dog.”

Li Lan squatted down and leaned his back on the sofa.

Zhou Jingyan also squatted down, hugging his knees with his hands like Li Lan had cried countless times late at night, showing a typical self-protective posture after injury.

"People who have not experienced all this have no reason to blame you. You are a victim. It is the scum that is to be hated, not you. It's not that you don't want to be a good mother, but that you can't and have not experienced it. No one has any reason to judge you for what you have been through." Zhou Jingyan did not comfort her with gentle words like those psychiatrists, but told her firmly and firmly in a declarative tone.

you are right! You are the victim! You are a good mother! She just can't be a good mother to his son!

Li Lan's shoulders began to shake slightly, which must be Li Lan sobbing silently.

When Zhou Jingyan fell asleep now, she could not only observe what happened, but also accurately perceive the emotions at that time. She gently stroked the top of Li Lan's head.

"You want to love him, but you really can't. The world is too bad, but no one can blame you."

Li Lan suddenly hugged Zhou Jingyan and buried his head on her shoulder.

"I tried, I tried to be his mother, but I really couldn't."

After a few minutes, Li Lan calmed down and said while wiping tears.

"Your police are still very powerful. You have found out everything that happened over the years."

"Don't worry, this is personal privacy and will be kept confidential for you."

Li Lan wiped his eyes. "His adoptive parents were both teachers, educated people, and well-educated in their speech and behavior. However, when the child reached adolescence, he had headaches, could not control himself, and got into trouble. Later, he could only be sent to the army, hoping to change him. As a result, while they were in the army, their father divorced and the children belonged to the woman. I have told you all this."

"Later, after he was discharged from the army, he came to City C. I could feel that he still liked me. I also tried my best to be his mother, cooking for him, washing clothes, and introducing him to jobs. Who knows, one day, probably around the time During the two years of cracking down on crime and investigating the Huang brothers, he returned to Yunyang County and got a tattoo on his hand, which was the word "good"."

Speaking of this, Li Lan gritted her teeth tightly and made a slight trembling sound.

"He said that brothers Huang Wende and Huang Wenshan, a lifelong hero, were his idols."