Fall in love with your enemy

Pick up last time.

"Shishi, let me ask you, where were you when I had a car accident three years ago? Your love for me was just an act, right..."

Gao Xinci suddenly asked me, and I froze in place.

Except for this matter, I can answer anything he asks, even if it is a lie, there are more or less truths contained in the lie, but not this matter.

In my heart, sixteen years have passed since that incident, and I have gradually forgotten it, but I know that Gao Xinci has always been worried about it. No matter it was the previous life or this life, no matter how long it took, he could not forget it. Ten years, Twenty or thirty years, it was the same to him. It was like a thorn that would stick in his heart forever. I was afraid, so I never thought about helping him pull out the thorn, but he suffered from not having it. The evidence can't help me.

But today, why did he suddenly mention it...

I have obviously hidden all those so-called "evidences", and there is no way he can find them...

"You...why did you say that..."

I pretended to be confused, but I have always been a poor actor, and there was no need for Gao Xinci to expose me. I took two steps back with a shudder, and let go of my hand holding him.

Gao Xinci understood what I meant. He turned his back, and I saw him take a deep breath. It was relief after learning the truth, but also disappointment in me.

Sixteen years ago, three years ago, it was the year I just returned to the Fu family. A lot of things really happened that year. Gao Xinci and I had just met. He quickly fell in love with me and was very dependent on me. I, I know, but I don’t like him. I only regard him as a good friend who cares about me. At that time, Brother Shu was not dead yet, so I couldn’t like others, so I pestered Brother Shu every day. Because I can feel that Brother Shu's life is passing by, and I know that Brother Shu has little time to spend with me, so I don't care about Gao Xinci at all, and I don't even care that he almost died in a car accident.

Three ribs were broken, two legs could not move at all, and one finger fell off. He was in coma for eight days and was rescued for eight days. After he woke up, he was not completely out of danger, and he stayed in the intensive care unit for more than a month.

Han Lu said that she was with Gao Xinci at the time. When Gao Xinci fell to the ground covered in blood, she was completely frightened. Gao Xinci still wanted to call me before he fell into coma. He He had no strength, so he begged Han Lu to help him. From that day until Gao Xinci was transferred to the general ward for more than a month, Han Lu called me more than 5,000 times, but I only answered the first one.

I still remember that day, Han Lu cried so hard on the phone that she was out of breath.

"Shishi, come quickly... Something happened to Gao Xinci, we... we are in the hospital..."

"Speak slowly, what happened?" At that time, I slowly took a cup of tea from Brother Shu.

I have never worried about Gao Xinci's safety, because I feel that people like him don't need me to protect or care about him at all. He is much stronger than me, but I was wrong. He is in a high position and wants to Instead, you will experience more.

"He...he was in a car accident and is being rescued now. I...I'm the only one in the hospital. I don't know what to do...Can you come here quickly? I'm afraid..."

When I heard these words, I was really shocked. I wanted to go find him, but when I turned around and saw Brother Shu coughing, there was no place for him in my heart at all.

I already knew at that time that Brother Zhu would live for at least half a year, or at least one month.

Brother Shu has brought me up since I was a child. In my heart, no one can compare to him, not even my biological parents, not even Gao Xinci, so I only replied perfunctorily:

"Then you hurry up and call Gao Xinci's parents. What's the use of telling me." Then I hung up the phone. I was afraid that the next call would make me more irritable, so I turned off the phone directly.

For a month, for a whole month, there was no news from me. Hanlu couldn't find me at all, and Gao Xinci couldn't find me either. But in fact, the hospital we were in was only separated by a road, and I had never visited Gao Xin. Say goodbye.

Later, when Gao Xinci woke up, he asked Han Lu where I was. Han Lu didn't dare to tell him the truth, so he said that I had been here, but because of something at home, I left again. Of course Gao Xinci didn't believe it, and he personally Called me.

"Shishi, where are you?"

"Are you okay? Then I'll go see you."

In two sentences, Han Lu's lie fell apart.

I really went to see him, but he closed the door. Without any guilt, I put down the nutritional supplements I brought and left again. I read, wrote, chatted and walked with Brother Shu.

The matter is not over yet.

The news about Gao Xinci's car accident spread after he was transferred to the general ward. It had been kept secret before. Her mother-in-law was afraid that someone had deliberately caused the car accident, and she was afraid that someone would tamper with others in the ward. What she wanted was not to be impatient. To catch the murderer, she first saved Gao Xinci's life. Only when Gao Xinci's condition stabilized did she dare to let the news out, hoping to catch the murderer.

I don't care whether the murderer is caught or not. As a friend, I just want to know that Gao Xinci has recovered. After Brother Wan's condition got better, I also mentioned going to see him, but he refused every time. , I stopped being "sentimental" and concentrated on watching Brother Shu, but I didn't understand why both Lao Fu and my second uncle rushed to see Gao Xinci, and they had to take me with them.

I was reluctant, but I vaguely felt that my marriage to Gao Xinci had become inevitable, because the previous marriage between the Gao family and the Fu family was ruined, and Lao Fu and his second uncle wanted to use me as a To compensate, it just so happens that Gao Xinci also likes me. The Gao family has a much higher status in the business world than the Fu family. As long as the Gao family is willing to marry, there is no reason why our Fu family should not accept it.

I didn’t want to, but I didn’t seem to have any room to refuse. Old Fu and my second uncle never considered asking for my opinion. I talked to Brother Zha. I didn’t ask Brother Zha to help me, but just asked for some comfort. But I didn't expect that Brother Shu actually persuaded me to go and even brought me to the door in person. His conversation with Gao Xinci showed that the relationship between us was just an ordinary brother and sister.

"I don't like him, but everyone seems to want me to like him." I wrote this sentence in my diary.

Why the marriage between Gao Xinci and I failed is a story for another day, and it was not a good thing in the eyes of the Gao family and the Fu family.

Because of my indifference, Gao Xinci did not choose to forgive me. It was useless for Brother Shu to explain to him, but I still didn't care. I just wanted to hug Brother Shu tightly. I didn't want him to leave me. He persuaded me and told me that he couldn't stay with me for much longer, and hoped that I could find someone who could take care of me like him, but I firmly didn't believe it. Brother Zhi couldn't win over me, so he had to let me go.

It was only after Brother Shu left that Gao Xinci spoke to me in a good voice again. I was not in a good mental state and had suicidal tendencies. I also tried to commit suicide. Only then did he get scared and put aside his past grievances temporarily and look back. Comfort me, but I know in my heart that he has never truly forgiven me.

That is a thorn, which penetrates the entire heart. If it is suddenly pulled out, the flesh and blood will definitely be blurred.

How did he know? As soon as I raised this doubt, Gao Xinci turned around and handed a shabby notebook into my hand. I saw his eyes were red and tears were flowing like a torrent. His fingertips holding the notebook were trembling slightly. He glanced at He glanced at me and noticed that I was looking at him, but he avoided me again, feeling angry.

I recognized that the notebook was the diary I had hidden in the Lin family's bungalow. It was absolutely impossible for it to appear in the old house out of thin air! This is a conspiracy!

I suddenly thought of Shang Mingyu, and I knew that this old guy had no good intentions! There is Lu Chengcheng on one side and Gao Xinci on the other. He is trying to separate everyone around me who can help me!

I opened the notebook and saw that all other irrelevant content had been torn out or stapled up, leaving only the content about Gao Xinci's car accident, and the most obvious sentence: I don't like him, but everyone Everyone seems to want me to like him.

It couldn't be more obvious.

"Why? If you don't like me, you can reject me. I've never forced you, right? Why do you say...everyone wants you to like me? Shishi, what are you after? Money? Power? Or are you just a person? A marriage that can free you from the control of the Fu family..."

Gao Xinci stepped forward. He was clearly so pitiful, but I still felt the pressure.

"If you really need me, I will help you even if you don't love me... I don't need you to pretend to flatter me..." Gao Xinci held my hands, he said Every word is like a knife stabbing my heart.

"I didn't lie to you!" I yelled, but after the strong rebuttal, I suddenly burst into tears like him. My voice dropped, but I definitely didn't tell a lie: "Xin Ci, listen I said, I... I'm sorry that I really didn't like you at that time, but I'm not pretending to you now and I didn't lie to you! I don't need any money, I really want to be with you. ...I really couldn't be distracted at that time. Brother Shu and I grew up together, and I knew he wouldn't live for more than half a year. I just wanted to...want to spend more time with him. Can you understand me?"

"I always know that Lin Mo is very important to you, but I... I am not bad to you either... Why didn't you come to see me once during the month when I was in coma! I have been waiting for you! A month! Not even once! I won’t even answer the phone! I ask you all the time...if you were asked to choose again, would you consider me? When you chose Lin Mo to write, even if you hesitated for a minute... "Gao Xinci choked with sobs and came closer to me. I felt his breath was extremely hot on my forehead.

I didn't have time to talk about those old things with Gao Xinci. I was afraid that Shang Mingyu would have a bigger plan waiting for us later. I wanted to explain it to Gao Xinci! but……

"Xin Ci, what are you doing! Uh..."

I was suddenly pushed into the corner by him, and he was like crazy! While my bedroom door was still open, he started kissing my lips, biting my ears, and even tearing my clothes off.

"You...don't be like this, don't be like this Xin Ci...I'm scared, I'm really scared..." I clenched my fists and kept pushing him with my hands.

I'm not talking nonsense. Even if we have been married for many years, I am really afraid of him being like this.

To know why I married him in the first place.

I don’t even dare to think about what happened that night...

But he doesn't remember it. He hasn't experienced that yet, so I am the only one who bears the burden. He won't have any burden.

I didn't allow him to bite my lip, and turned my head to the side desperately. I covered my mouth, but he didn't force me, so he changed his target. A second later, he bit my neck, and the warm, wet and hot pain made me scream. I made a sound and bit my knuckles.

I'm afraid, now I'm not only afraid of him, I'm even more afraid that Lu Chengcheng and Han Lu downstairs will come up when they hear the noise, but Gao Xinci has probably lost his mind, and he doesn't care about anything.

"He is already a dead man! Do you still care about it..." I growled out of nowhere.

Gao Xinci really stopped. He was stunned. I took this opportunity to run away, but he quickly reacted. When he attacked again, it was even more violent. He grabbed both my hands and pulled them off. The belt just tied me up. There was an absolute disparity in strength between me and him. I had no chance to resist. I could only watch helplessly as he tied me up with a cold face, then pushed me against the wall with his hands. He tore my thin skirt apart with all his strength, but he did not touch the light pink one underneath for the time being. It became the last barrier between us, but I felt even more ironic, as everything about me was still exposed.

He pressed against me, his tongue was soft, and somehow I suddenly gave in.

He didn't cry or make trouble, he just stared at me coldly, and no longer used any force on his hands, letting him hug me tightly, almost strangling me to death.

I think, this is how I should be, right?

I owe him, no matter which life it is, I will never be able to repay what he gave me. What's wrong with him if he wants to go too far? As I said, I have ruined myself like this. I can't be more useless. So what about my son? I just have to muddle along and think on the bright side, he is really good to me, isn't he...

But as I said, what Gao Xinci dislikes the most is my unconditional obedience. When I do this, he loses his "interest".

He pushed me away, no longer as violent as before, but more panicked.

I had no strength, and my legs fell to the ground. I unconsciously tried to tighten my clothes with my hands, but I couldn't even lift them up. They were so limp. I didn't expect that he would help me cover them with my clothes. .

"Shishi... I'm sorry... I'm sorry..."

He was trembling all over and could hardly breathe, but he still had to help me pull up my messy clothes. When the clothes were torn, he quickly took off his coat and covered me.

I never spoke, just looked at him blankly, I was afraid that he would suddenly change his face again...

"I...I panicked for a moment. I'm not afraid of anyone in this world. I'm just afraid of you...I'm afraid that you don't have me in your heart. I...I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

Gao Xinci burst into tears. When he fell down, his whole body was buried in my arms.

I don't know what to do anymore. It doesn't matter if I hug him or not. I can only stay in a daze, waiting for the judgment he will give me.

"I was wrong, I will never do it again, I just don't want you to leave me, I just... want my place in your heart to be more..."

I was shocked when I heard this sentence, and I suddenly woke up. I knew this was the end. I was so familiar with this sentence!

I took a deep breath, even my breathing was vibrating.

In my last life, he gave me the same reason. I have never forgotten this sentence for seven years!

The reason why you love me and hurt me is because you love me too much! Is love just possessiveness at all costs? This is not love...I know what love is like, it's not like this...Brother wrote that it's not like this. He said that he loves me because he hopes that I can live happily and freely.

There was a lump in my throat.

"He is dead, and my whole heart belongs to you. You have taken over it. Are you satisfied?" I said quietly.