Fall in love with your enemy

Continuing from the last time, William still couldn’t understand me after all. Many of the things he said made me wake up, but in the end he gave in to the most important issue. He could only be like me, not me.

"Living in this home, I have also thought about what we are like. We are rats in the gutter and maggots on rotting meat. We are just not human. What is the scenery like in your eyes, from time to time?"

The winter in Mada is much warmer than that in Linjiang. The breeze blows gently, and William goes from being leisurely to comfortable. He turns sideways and looks at me with a smile.

"Perhaps you will find that not only I, Fu Mingtang and Fu Mingyan have sought the shadow of the boss in you, and we envy and jealousy when we see you and Chengcheng and Yangyang. But you don't know that what we are looking for is always just him at a certain stage, which is out of reach. By the time half of his body is buried in the soil, he has already gone crazy. Suicide is the only way to free himself without hurting others. He loves too many people. It's not weakness, but it will become a soft spot. He is unwilling to do it himself, and all disputes from now on will make you suffer."

"But you, I feel like you've never changed."

I didn't know whether to laugh or cry when facing this evaluation. In fact, no one thinks that I have changed a lot. They only call the subtle changes that can be seen by the naked eye growth. But only I know that this is just that everyone has a tolerance range. The person who raised the question has changed too much and experienced too much, so he will turn a blind eye to everything else. So I am so exhausted. William, who understands me the most, I am afraid that he will only think that I am still like the old master in his impression, gentle, generous, modest and steady.

Old Fu is even worse. He must be thinking, what am I now compared to what he was in the past? When he was 24, he overcame numerous difficulties and dangers to become the head of the family. At 24, I was really useless.

People who are of no use should be sacrificed. The only thing is that they need to be "heartbroken" and "indignant" before being sacrificed.

"Sometimes I really envy you." William said after a while.

I was even more speechless. I just followed him quietly along the road for a long time. The destination had already deviated from the direction. When I came to my senses, it was too late. I didn't care anymore. I just walked forward. Suddenly I turned around and asked a question: "Is he really free?"

William was stunned: "Who?"

"Old Fu."

"Maybe, I don't know, but that's what the old people say." William chuckled, "I believe what a person who has carried a heavy burden all his life says before he dies."

"Who is this old man you are talking about?"

"The first wife, the old man. But when I heard the old man say this, he was still young. He suddenly felt melancholy one day and thought of the first wife, so he asked me to repeat the first wife's words before she died. I asked him what he meant, but he didn't tell me. He wrote it down in a notebook. I didn't understand it until a long time later. Guess how I understood it."

"how?"

"An unfaithful old man finally realized his mistake in his old age after abandoning his wife and children. Unfortunately, it was too late to turn back. He hid in a deserted corner and pretended to be affectionate in order to move himself, and he took that as repayment. But there is no such good thing in the world? People who do bad things will be punished when they are old." William straightened up a little and said with a bit of gloating.

I finally managed to laugh, but I also asked inadvertently, "Can I still be free?"

I don't understand. Logically I should be relieved now, but maybe God was unwilling to let me die without knowing how I died, so he let me be reborn into this world. Unfortunately, I trapped myself again.

William shook his head: "You are still young, and you still have a long time to live. Don't think about those things. Don't cry."

"I can only daydream. I am 24 years old this year. Others may be carefree and reckless, but I have a child. I am reluctant to let go of my burden. Even someone threatens me to live in the name of my child." I wiped away my tears and straightened my clothes. I laughed out loud, stopped and looked at William seriously: "I should consider the business, so if I ask you some questions, will you answer me the truth?"

"Okay, but you have to agree to one condition of mine." William waved his hand.

"what?"

"You can stay at my place during the few days you are in Mada. I am worried about moving to a new place. There will be a welcome dinner for you tomorrow. I will introduce you to the top management here then." William replied.

I looked around and was dazzled by the splendor. "Okay, but where do you live? I don't want to walk too far."

William opened his arms and gestured a distance: "Anywhere you like, as long as you like, it can be anywhere."

"Isn't this a bit too much?" I looked at him with an inexplicable smile: "Will you also give me your enemies? I can't take care of them."

William laughed dryly, feeling a little guilty: "Do you believe that I have always been a humble and elegant person before returning to China? Apart from my rival Chen Changrui, I have no enemies."

"Really?"

"Really? Otherwise, how could that Noser trust me so much? I looked so bad, but he still stood in front of me stupidly." William waved his hand: "Of course, don't blame me for the Chen Changrui incident. Shishi, he later retired from the underworld, but when he was in power, he lost his conscience. I don't object to you dating Chen Yining or raising his grandson, but the premise of dating the Chen family must be that Chen Changrui is gone, otherwise the Chen family will surely fail. If Fu Shuchen had really married into his family at that time, the Fu family would not be where it is today."

I laughed: "So you were doing it for the Fu family at that time?"

William shrugged. "It's true that he's not that righteous. I just simply don't like him, but he definitely deserves to die. Even if it wasn't me, it would definitely be someone else. Look at his face, he's much more brutal than me."

When I think about it, it seems to be true. William has a kind of aura of majesty without being angry, but judging from his appearance, he is just a rather Western-style old man with prominent European double eyelids. He looks quite kind when he smiles, but compared to Uncle Chen... I have only seen him two or three times after he returned to China, and they were all at a banquet organized by Old Fu. I remember that he was quite funny and liked to tease children, but he looked really fierce, with a big bald head and a scar on the top of his head extending to his neck. He was a little fat, and even a large suit could not cover his beer belly. The most important thing was that he had no front teeth. Later, when many people talked about it, he even wasted a day's precious time to get a gold one inserted.

I nodded and pointed to a castle at the end of the street: "I like it there."

"Then live there. Yuanyuan also likes castles. She said living there is like being a little princess in a fairy tale." William looked in the direction of my finger, lowered his head and made a phone call. Soon four or five cars followed behind us, but they were not disturbing. Before I could finish my question, he raised his head to signal me to speak.

I thought for a moment and said, "I want to know if you did anything with those boats in the second room? What did you put on the boats?"

William sneered and glanced at a desolate area not far away: "You don't know, there are two seasons of beautiful flowers blooming there every year. Ma Da is very chaotic. A small half of the economy is brought by flowers, and the remaining half is from me and Chen Changrui. In this case, I took advantage of my position and gave him some special products."

I roughly knew what it was, and although I sighed tiredly, I didn't react much, and said calmly, "It will be very troublesome."

"Don't worry, it's just a delaying tactic. I won't hurt him to death. A family prospers together and suffers together. I'm also a member of the Fu family, I understand." William paused, his Adam's apple rolling up and down: "You brought me back."

I lowered my head: "I didn't expect you would admit it."

"I just hope you admit it." William didn't know why he was embarrassed. He looked at the wasteland and explained, "I didn't do what those guys did for Mada. This is the first and last time. I have given you a heads-up. The search and rescue team will check very strictly. Who knows, you may do good things for many people. These flowers are too prosperous. They block the road and hurt people. Maybe they will all disappear next year, saving many families and ending other people's suffering. You will get better slowly. It's a pity that I can't bring you to see it next year. Mada has to go to war."

I became a little curious: "Recently?"

William patted his legs again and smiled: "I won't let you come over recently. I asked the higher-ups and they said it will take about three or four months. So I don't recommend you to cooperate with Ma Da. Although there is a chance to get close to the upper echelons, when lives are threatened, human nature will become terrible. Go home, your brother will take good care of you."

I nodded. While we were talking, we had already reached the overpass. There was nothing private to say, so William called the people behind him to settle down and rest. Zhizhi came back to my side, and we looked up at the castle towering into the clouds under the starry sky. He held my hand tightly with a hint of uneasiness.

Fortunately, nothing happened that night. I came to the room William arranged for me. It was very beautiful, about 300 to 500 square meters, with a terrace. The door was raised very high, almost the same as the entrance to the mansion. It looked like a giant's room, wrapping up the tiny person. When I looked up, I saw the vast starry sky, except that the pink color scheme made it look a little childish.

I didn't turn on the lights. The moonlight coming in from the terrace was enough to illuminate the house. Sitting on the soft bed, I suddenly thought that among all the uncles I have, no matter if they wanted to harm me or not, none of them had ever treated me badly materially. It was quite interesting.

Zhizhi was still busy. He didn't dare to leave me in a place like this. William disliked him for some reason and didn't allow him to live in my room. He could only fend for himself. He dragged a mattress from the underground warehouse and pulled a screen in between. He took a pillow from my bed and stubbornly lay down on his own mattress: "Good night!"

I had no choice but to reply, and I drew the curtains and lay down in the small space of the bed. Just as I was about to relax, my second uncle called again. I picked up the phone and immediately heard his anxious voice: "Shishi, did you go to Mada?"

I was stunned for a moment, and then I calmed down and replied: "Yes."

"How could you go to a place like that? Do you know how dangerous it is? And you went there without telling me! I didn't keep an eye on you for a day!" Second Uncle was immediately angry and helpless. After a while, he took a deep breath and said, "Okay, let's not talk about it anymore. How are you doing over there now? Have you met General Nata? Did he make things difficult for you? How many people did you bring with you? Are they enough?"

So many questions came up in an instant that my nose felt a little sore. It was too different from the recent situation. I didn't know whether I should be moved or pour cold water on him. I had no choice but to comfort him regardless of good intentions: "Uncle, I'm fine, don't worry, we have enough people and weapons, Li Zi has a way, we are all safe, and General Nata can't say anything now..."

The second uncle seemed to be relieved. "Okay, don't worry about what's going on over there. I'll ask your brother to contact the higher-ups to handle it. Regardless of whether the discussion is over or not, you should go home first. I'll ask someone to pick you up tomorrow morning."

I didn't reply for a long time. I watched Zhizhi pull open the curtain and sit quietly on the bed. She patted me gently before I breathed a sigh of relief.

Second uncle was still confused: "Shishi? Speak up, Qingyun will pick you up at Mada Airport tomorrow."

I gritted my teeth and said, "Uncle, that's really not necessary. I don't have any problems here. I will be back the day after tomorrow. I have already negotiated the matter."

The second uncle was even more worried. "Nonsense, it's not your turn to go. I'll make the arrangements. Just listen to me. You're still young. You don't understand how low the lower limit of the powerful class can be in such a rotten place. That General Nata had bad intentions from the beginning. If you delay any longer, how could he easily let you leave Ma Da? You underestimated the enemy."

I smiled bitterly: "He is no longer a general since this afternoon. He is just a screaming chicken with a cane piercing his foot."

The second uncle was confused: "What? What do you mean? Did you do it? Or is it that Ma Da is fighting among the people? If it is a internal fight, it will be even worse."

"It's William. He's here. I'm also living in his castle now." I said softly. My second uncle was instantly quiet. I paused and continued, "He helped me and told the corporals present not to bully me anymore. He will take me to a formal occasion to introduce me to everyone tomorrow. After that, I will go home. I'm fine, don't worry."

I didn't count the time with a watch, but I felt that my second uncle was really silent for a very long time, so long that Zhizhi couldn't help yawning. I didn't know what he was thinking, and finally he returned to indifference: "Oh, is that so? That's fine. If you have anything, ask me again, or call your brother. I'm a little busy recently..."

"Thank you for your hard work, uncle. I just don't quite understand what you are busy with..." My voice became lower and lower. Zhizhi didn't know what to do, so he had to go out and pour me a glass of water.

The second uncle only smiled indifferently after Zhizhi came back: "Of course it's about Ke Lin. I'm going back to Huangyang. You're always sick. Don't run around when you get home this time. Okay, I have a meeting. Let's talk about it when I'm free."

After my second uncle finished speaking, he hung up the phone. I couldn't tell whether he was feeling lost or disappointed, and I didn't want to tell the difference. It was all the same to me, incomprehensible yet trapped. Zhizhi helped me lie down and covered me with the quilt. Then I smiled and looked at his eyes, the only ones flashing a little light in the darkness. He was frowning at such a young age, and his brows were almost wrinkled. I reached out to smooth them out for him.

"Do I feel like I've traveled through time for a moment? I was also shocked, but it also seemed... expected." I muttered to myself sadly, as if I was accusing someone. I slowly turned my head, leaned on the pillow and closed my eyes: "He doesn't allow others to hurt me, but he will. I don't know what to do."