Fall in love with your enemy

Continuing from the last time, the scenery in front of my eyes is always the same. No matter how people’s hearts are turbulent, it will not change anyone’s mood. Gradually, even I have become silent.

Feng Shizhi was still holding me. I had nothing to be sad about, nor did I feel happy. It was not until the wind got a little bit cold that it woke me up from my dream.

The second time I resisted, a little force was enough to push him away. Obviously, he wouldn't really push me to the point of jumping off from here, but I didn't have such an idea. I wanted to know, how far he would go for me?

I was really curious, so I unbuttoned my coat, put my hands on the collar and turned it down. I was only wearing a thin vest inside. I was in a hurry when I came to pick up Lulu. Most of the clothes that Gao Xinci's family prepared for me were weird, so I only wore this one, which had a little white lace on the edge. Gao Xinci said it looked good in me, and it looked even better when I smiled.

I tilted my head and looked at Feng Shizhi with the same expression, and said, "Then make your mistake."

But he refused. Strangely enough, he had difficulty breathing. He shook his head and took two steps back, a layer of cold sweat on his forehead.

So why? It's not that I didn't give him a chance. I am a person who is imprisoned by my body and responsibilities. He should know that, right? But he didn't want to. Is it that I am the only one who makes mistakes? Right, I have made too many mistakes, not just this one. He doesn't dare to do it. People who make mistakes at first will feel guilty and afraid, but I am no longer afraid.

He swallowed hard before he could walk over to me as calmly as possible, and helped me put my coat back on and covered me tightly. He didn't know where to put his hands, and finally put them on my shoulders and rubbed them gently: "Go home, it's cold outside."

"Will I make a mistake if I go back?" I asked.

He stuttered a little when he spoke again. I could tell he said "no", but he just wanted to pretend that he didn't understand. I would rather not understand everything anyone said, so that most of the time I wouldn't be so tired. But just at this moment when I wanted to empty myself, I turned around and saw Liang Sen not far away, parked next to the car, quietly watching our farce.

I was afraid that he would be impulsive like before and run over to hit Zhizhi, so I quickly stretched out my hands to protect him. Fortunately, Liang Sen snorted and didn't say anything. He just motioned for me to go over. I looked back at Zhizhi and told him to go home directly. Then I breathed a sigh of relief and walked over slowly. Liang Sen glared at Zhizhi and stuffed me into the passenger seat of his car. It took him a long time to calm down, then he got in the driver's seat and drove away.

After driving for dozens of meters, I looked in the rearview mirror and noticed that there was a girl in the back seat. I was startled. She was pretty and looked to be in her early twenties, but timid. She startled me and trembled even more severely than I did. When I was about to ask her something, she almost retracted her head into her neck. Liang Sen grabbed me and held me in the seat.

"Don't block my rearview mirror, just sit still."

"Brother, this is..."

"This is a girl from the Lu family. She's about twenty or twenty-three years old. She should be Fu Shuyu's cousin. She's preparing for the postgraduate entrance exam and will be getting married by the end of the year. Her family hasn't gotten into trouble with the other idiots in the Lu family. They had a quarrel before, but it ended long ago, so you probably haven't seen them. I know you're worried about the Lu family recently. Those people will have to be cleaned up sooner or later so that there won't be any trouble in the future. But don't kill them all. It's not only for Fu Shuyu's face, but also for the reputation of the outside world. The whole family will either die or be disabled. No matter how connected they are, the government can't pretend to be blind. What's more, Fu Shuyu is so ostentatious and eye-catching. No matter how low-key you are, there will always be people who want to target him, right? You have to leave someone behind."

Looking back, I had thought about this before, but I was afraid that Chengcheng would be suspicious, and I couldn't let it go. Now that it's delivered to my door, I just let it go. I sighed.

"For postgraduate study, I can recommend a school in Jinhai. You don't mind going a little far from home, do you? You can choose your own tutor, and the Fu family will pay for the tuition. If you find a job you like, feel free to tell me. As for marriage, call me sister when we meet in the future. I will give you a dowry according to the share of a cousin. If you are wronged in the future, you can also come to me and tell me. By the way, what's your name?"

The little girl trembled and nodded politely: "Lu Yilin..."

"That's a nice name. Here's my business card." I took one out of my bag and handed it over, pointing to the phone number on it. "Here are two numbers. The top one is mine, and the bottom one is Feng Shizhi's. I'll tell him about your situation. You can also tell him if you can't contact me."

Lu Yilin nodded, with a hint of happiness, but she was too burdened by the Lu family. Liang Sen didn't bother to pay attention to her as soon as I settled these things. He stopped at the side of the road casually and said without turning his head: "Can I take you here? Can you go home by yourself?"

The little girl nodded, probably because she was scared by the "imprisonment of the whole family" and the "extermination of three clans" behavior. As soon as Liang Sen finished speaking, she jumped out of the car immediately. The car started again, and Liang Sen looked at me through the rearview mirror. I was also a little embarrassed and sad, and he patted my head.

"Busy lately?"

I nodded, and even said "hmm" slightly because he was driving and couldn't see.

"Have you gone to see Gao Xinci?" Liang Sen said this as if he took it seriously, or as if he was just bored. He glanced at me, and I just nodded with a clear conscience. He sighed, and his expression became heavier: "Forget it, he's okay, but Feng Shizhi is unreliable."

"He, he's okay..." I got anxious and retorted hastily, but when Liang Sen looked at me, my voice became lower and lower.

Liang Sen was so angry that he laughed. He stretched out his hand and pinched my face like he used to do: "You're still speaking for him? Are you so mean?"

Although I regretted it very quickly, first my mood disappeared without a trace, and finally there was only a hand suspended in the air. He coughed and put it back on the steering wheel, but the little bit of warmth left in my heart was unforgettable. I felt wronged and couldn't help but shed two tears, which I wiped against the car window.

Actually, I used to be clingy, irresponsible and ignorant. I was spoiled too much by my family, so I always felt dependent. But that was when I was a child. Even if I was reborn in my twenties, I have lived for more than a few years. I have really fallen into depravity now. Why am I acting like a child again after encountering a few things? Liang Sen is still lucky to come to see me, and what I should seize most is the opportunity, not the brotherly love he may still have for me.

It would be difficult for me to resolve the matter of General Madamata peacefully without the help of Gao Xinci. It will take at least half a year to process the order and complete the sea shipment, and I can't really accompany him for that long. The vomiting incident at the old house also reminded me that I can accompany Gao Xinci in making love, but I can't have children. Once I get pregnant, I really can't run away. Gao Xinci will not let me go, and my second uncle will not let me go even more. So I can only take one or two months to solve the problem. As long as everything in the contract is running, it will be time for me to leave.

Gao Xinci will be angry with me, but he was the one who plotted against me, so he has no reason to break up with me, and I should also save some face for our relationship. He has taken care of the financial matters for me, but I don't want him to get involved in the political affairs which are too sharp. I will go to Mawa in person, and no matter what the reason is for General Nata to look down on me, I will resolve it. Of course, I will not completely disregard my own life.

I turned around and squeezed the remaining sadness into fake tears: "Brother, I want to ask you a question."

Liang Sen said without even turning his head: "Don't blame yourself for Hanlu and Fu Shuyu's affairs. Blame Song Chuanyang, Han Yunshuang, Xiaoze, or just blame them for not having feelings for each other. It has nothing to do with you. I've been in Linjiang for a long time, and I've seen Hanlu and Song Chuanyang flirting with each other. In fact, they are a good match. If you can't persuade them, forget it. Song Chuanyang is not a good person. I don't need you to remind him. People can learn from experience instead of from people. They will learn it in one go."

"Brother, I don't care about these. I have endured enough resentment, and I am not afraid of one more. I just want to..." I paused, and I knew from the corner of my eye that Liang Sen was looking at me, which made it even more embarrassing to say: "Could Ma Da's matter be related to William?"

Liang Sen's eyes widened, and it seemed that he took a long time to digest this question. He even slowed down the car and took a deep breath: "It doesn't matter."

"Are you sure?"

"I can guarantee that, Shishi, do you know to what extent a withered cash cow will be abandoned? Even if he really wants to, will Ma Da obey him without any benefits?" Liang Sen turned his head and looked straight at me, sneering inexplicably: "Besides, he has long lost that intention."

I kept silent, half believing and half doubting what he said. I could see that William had changed since Old Fu left, but in this world, everyone could forgive him and love him, but I couldn't.

Liang Sen was also a person who easily criticized himself. He soon sighed and said, "I'm sorry. I know I shouldn't say this to you."

"Brother, I don't mean anything else. I'm just scared. I'm afraid that one day I really can't hold on anymore, and I won't be alone anymore. You can just think that I'm just trying to survive, and my behavior will make others more sad." I said with a wry smile. Now I was crying again. I cried when it was useless. I was very cowardly.

Maybe I forgot that I was born a coward, how can I change my nature? Now it is just the unpredictable world that forced me, an incompetent person, to be in the front.

I don't know whether Liang Sen regretted coming to see me or not. He just kept sighing until the car drove into Shanglinyuan. I was a little surprised. When I moved back to Linjiang, Chengcheng took me directly back to Xieyu Shuhe. The children were also there, but he brought me here. The explanation came up quickly.

"Have a good rest tonight. Just think of it as me forcing you to take a day off, okay? I've called Li Xi to take care of you. No one else is here. Shishi, actually you're right. You should plan for yourself, but I don't want you to live for the first purpose of giving to others instead of loving yourself. There are too many things in this world that 'need' you to give. You can't handle it even if you die of exhaustion." Liang Sen lowered his head and smiled gently after a while. I don't know if he thought he said too much or too little. He hesitated for a while and squeezed my palm: "Think about it yourself."

My heart was filled with sorrow and sadness. I stood on the steps, watching him turn his back and leave. I didn't know when we would meet next time. I wanted to talk to him, but I couldn't open my mouth. Tears welled up in my eyes and I couldn't help but call him. As soon as he turned around, I rushed over and hugged him tightly, crying and trembling.

"Brother, I miss you so much. Can you come to see me more often..." After I said this, I looked up at him pitifully, but sneered, thinking that this request was too harsh for him. I covered my face and apologized: "I'm sorry... I'm sorry..."

Liang Sen was stunned and could only instinctively wipe my tears with the back of his hand.

He didn't answer in the end. He left after I had cried enough. I watched him drive out before going upstairs. I knew without looking in the mirror that I must be terribly stupid. Fortunately, crying is a way to vent emotions. I felt much more relaxed. When Zhizhi caught up with me and grabbed me, I didn't feel any emotion, but he looked very nervous.

"What did Liang Sen say to you? You cried for a long time, was it because of me?" He paused and said with great self-blame: "I'm sorry."

"Cry?" I smiled, held his hand, and thought for a while while looking up: "Crying... Of course, it will help."

Zhizhi raised his head and looked at me in disbelief. The element of taking advantage was indeed something he only thought of later, but in my current situation, once I see any life-saving straw, I will grab it tightly in my hand and engrave it in my heart. Why would I care about what comes first?

He didn't respond, but sighed for a long time, then nodded helplessly: "Okay, it's too late, you should go to bed early, I'll go back first."

I laughed again, and had some "bad thoughts" to amuse myself. I wanted to see his embarrassment and hoped that he would never show such an expression again. So I didn't let go of his hand, but held it tighter: "It's so late, stay, you don't need a room."

He looked at me, and my eyes could see everything from his initial surprise to his disappointment after a slight association. He didn’t want to become what I called “something useful”. His eyes turned red and he felt heartbroken. He trembled and let go of my hand, but still managed to smile at me: “No, Yunyun is already feeling unwell. If she wakes up at night and can’t find me, she’ll cry again…”

I laughed: "My child, you have worked so hard to take care of me."

"Because you told me that what's yours is mine and what's mine is yours. No matter what others do, we will be family members for life, right?" Feng Shizhi refuted me stubbornly. It was probably his last expectation.

I feel a little regretful. I forgot that when I rely on others, they will also have some dependencies. Not everyone in this world is strong except me. He is also fragile. What's wrong with liking someone? I only have the right to refuse. Why should I make fun of him?

I let go of him and walked home, feeling groggy, and fell into a deep sleep on the bed, extremely tired. The short-lived happiness ended with Gao Xinci's seventh call at 8:56 the next morning.

Oh my god - is he trying to kill me? Why do I have to get up so early? I don't have to go to work! I've finally got the luck to be born into a wealthy family, why can't I sleep a little longer...