Fall in love with your enemy

Continuing from the last time, Gao Hansheng's matter was settled, and he went back to be with his wife and children a long time ago. I just went to the second room for a walk but didn't see anyone. I only brought Chengcheng back to eat something. I had a lot of things in my mind but couldn't say them to him when I saw him.

Chengcheng was very happy that I looked for him and cared about him. I also realized that he had been sticking to me for too long this time. As usual, even if he didn't want to go back, the phone calls from the company would have annoyed him to death, and Lulu and Xiangyang would not have failed to come to my birthday party. There were really too many things to do and my mind was confused.

I put some more meat on Chengcheng's plate. He always ate little, and without me watching over him in Linjiang, he became as thin as he was in high school. I felt sorry for him, but I was helpless about his past. After thinking for a long time, I could only learn from Gao Hanentropy's method: "Chengcheng, let me give you a gift."

"You've already sent it." Cheng Cheng looked up and smiled foolishly while eating. Seeing my confusion, he squinted his eyes and bared his teeth, pointing in the direction of the second room: "I really hate her, sister. I like the way you are now. Every time I see you get angry, I feel distressed. Well - although I may also worry about the consequences, I am really very happy now."

"My second uncle hates her too. He clearly framed me before. When the matter failed, he also brought up the fact that he had tried to make peace with me before. But I just didn't accept it. There won't be any consequences. Even if there are, I won't let it affect you." I answered with a wry smile. Suddenly, the lights above my head dimmed. I knew that was when a high-ranking elder in the family passed away. At least half of the lights in the living room of each courtyard would be dimmed to show their grief. But I still felt that it suited my mood. I was silent for a long time before I said the next sentence: "Have you discussed it with Lulu? When do you plan to get married?"

Cheng Cheng's originally good mood suddenly dropped. She used her chopsticks to pick at the rice on the plate in a mess. She looked up and smiled at me again: "Why are you talking about this again? Didn't I say that I can't get used to my work and life now, and Lulu is still dealing with the Xiao family's affairs, so don't worry... I'm only twenty-four now."

I looked at his smile, guilty, sad, everything. I felt more and more sad. I took a bite of the food in my bowl but still chose to smile: "Your sister is only two months older than you. She already has two children. Who else should I push if not you? As the saying goes, marriage is everyone finding their own retribution accurately. Why don't you have it? I'm jealous."

Cheng Cheng laughed out loud, looking better than before. He also understood that my last sentence was because of the joke he made about Yang Yang earlier. When he spoke the next sentence, there was a hint of jealousy in his voice: "Oh - you remember so clearly the little wretch who suffered a little injustice -"

"You have to understand, he is still your brother! Yangyang is getting older now, and he can understand some of the words, so you have to be careful." I rolled my eyes.

Cheng Cheng nodded helplessly: "I know - why don't you just let him know that I don't like him at all? Doesn't the law stipulate that a brother can't dislike his younger brother?"

"Yangyang didn't do anything to provoke you. If you don't like him, just say less and don't be mean to him, okay? I'm really, really tired -"

I lengthened my tone and Chengcheng still nodded. He was not that bad, so I was not that worried about this matter. What I was most afraid of was that the emotion was still deeply buried in someone's heart.

He couldn't eat and was still a little irritable, but he still smiled at me, leaning back in his chair, staring at me.

I understand him. I understand that he doesn't care that Yangyang is his younger brother, nor does he care that I am his sister.

"Are you full?" I asked. Chengcheng nodded, and I stood up and went to the place where the boxes were piled up. "I'd better show you the gift. Otherwise, I won't feel at ease."

"Why should you be uneasy? What's mine is yours, right? You will be happy with my gift, right?"

Cheng Cheng followed me and did what she always did when marriage was mentioned. She hugged me from behind, resting her head on my shoulder and folding her hands in front of my belly. We rubbed our ears together and whispered, loving each other quietly without being discovered by anyone.

"If I never get married, will you blame me?" Cheng Cheng asked.

“I don’t blame you, I hate myself.” The bitter smile that rose from the bottom of my heart to my face was like a stream of burning blood flowing from my fingers into my heart, swelling it terribly. I pushed away his hug, turned around and held up his hand again, pushed the ring on my ring finger up tightly, looked up at him weakly: “Actually, in this life, I’ve known that I’m your sister since I was...sixteen years old. I didn’t tell you because I was worried that one day you would know and the balance between us would be destroyed, but now it seems that the result seems to be even worse.”

Cheng Cheng understood what I was talking about. After a moment of silence, he pretended to be confused: "What's wrong? Isn't it good now?"

"I'll be happier if you hurry up and get married and settle everything."

"So why bring up the issue of marriage again? What does it matter if I get married or not? It won't change the fact that everyone knows we are together. Our child will be the heir of the Han family. We agreed not to have a wedding. Getting married is just an extra piece of paper. Does it really matter? What are you worried about?"

Chengcheng couldn't hold it in any longer, his annoyance almost overflowed, he hugged me even tighter and looked down at me, but what was actually happening? He couldn't bear to hear his own words.

"Fu Xishi, I don't want anything. I think I have done my best to achieve this. You always have so many excuses. Why don't you consider me? This is not my fault. Why do you have to tear it apart and collapse it in front of me?"

He softened his tone in the end, but I still felt that this was all terrible.

I pushed him away and turned my back: "Let's take a look at the gifts first."

Xuan Ze knocked on the door, and after getting a response, he and Tinglin carried the box in. They cleaned the box as well, and a long stream of water leaked out from the gaps. The person in the box woke up, and he clapped on the wooden board and shouted. The box suddenly became like a coffin.

When Cheng Cheng heard the word "coffin" for the first time, his face turned pale.

Xuan Ze and Ting Lin put down their things and went out, but Cheng Cheng waited for a long time before coming forward and slowly opening the box. No one blocked Lu Xuqiang's mouth, so the first moment he saw the light again and his eyes were fixed, he urgently shouted Cheng Cheng's name, asking him for help, shouting that someone wanted to kill him, the uncle who was the head of the Fu family, and trampled on the bottom line madly. Cheng Cheng just looked back at me, without any doubt or answer.

The next second, he punched forward with his clenched fist without any restraint, making a "bang" sound.

The man was not dead, but blood was splattered and several teeth were broken. Lu Xuqiang was speechless and just stared at Cheng Cheng with those eyes, watching how much he hated him and how he punched him to death.

I was counting, still hoping to save the person before he died, but who would have thought that Chengcheng couldn't continue fighting anymore. Perhaps the blood splashed into his eyes, blurring his vision and making him sober. He fell backwards to the ground, and when he came to his senses, he stumbled into my arms.

"Sister! Sister, he came to see you? When? I was wrong... I was wrong, I'm sorry! I will definitely sort these things out in the future. I won't let them disturb you and won't let you remember what I was like before! I..."

"Chengcheng, think about it again. Is it me he is looking for? Do I care about these things of yours?" I stroked his back gently. I felt even weaker and dizzy. I might fall down soon. Holding my breath, I helped Chengcheng up: "I am not the one you should apologize to, and I will not be with you for the rest of your life. I am your sister, the only person in this world who is closest to you."

"But I don't want her to see that side of me. I feel disgusted! Sister, don't you think it's an insult to make such a decision for me privately? Facing such people, what can Lulu give them?"

Chengcheng suddenly smiled, tears still falling.

"There's a room full of gold, silver, and jewelry, countless splendor and wealth, but they didn't tell me, why? I want to ask why? Are they afraid that I'll be embarrassed when they see me? But have you ever thought that when I really see them, they're spending my wife's money! Bragging about how ostentatious my mother was and how hard she tried to break up other people's families to give birth to me! Singing praises to my success, and 'praising' my wife's virtues in a vulgar tone, that's not flattering me! That's disgusting! They want to destroy me! I trust Hanlu so much, I tell her everything I have, and confide in her, but what about her? She still speaks to these people, gives them respect, and tells me that it's charity, but it's not charity to them, it's pitying me!"

Cheng Cheng overturned the table with great force, and the things on the table fell to the ground with a crackling sound. She was originally furious, but at a certain moment she saw everything clearly, and her anger turned into grievance.

"What else? What can you do? Kill them all?" I endured the extremely heavy blood and anger, covered my chest and took a deep breath: "I checked Lu Xuqiang's file. He was released from prison at the end of last year, right? Counting the things he and the others prepared to meet you, he should have appeared in front of you this spring at the latest. Such a long time has passed, and you didn't tell me, Chengcheng. Have you ever thought that even if you want revenge or vent your anger, you have to find a way out for yourself, right? Have you ever thought about what if something goes wrong? Why do you have to hold on alone? It's not Lulu and I who hate you, it's you!"

"Sister! That's your idea! That's Lulu's opinion! You can't empathize with my feelings! That's my heart knot, my stain, I want to hide it, no matter how hard it is, I want to bear it myself, I don't want it to appear in the eyes of more people, I don't want to accept your contemptuous or pitying eyes, am I wrong! I like Lulu, I love you, one is my wife and the other is my closest person, you also claim so, then I just hope that I can bear everything I should have, even if it is a sin, why don't you support me!"

I stopped, speechless for a moment in the face of Chengcheng's thorough confession, and realized that I might really be wrong, and the only thing that was right was that I couldn't empathize with her.

"When they reappeared in my life, I didn't treat them well, nor did I abuse them or kill them. I just watched them drink and talk happily, and I sat beside them, watching their distorted faces and listening to their shameless words. I did nothing. Many ideas came to my mind. I also thought about telling you, Lulu, or Shen Qilin, so that at least I would have a friend to talk to and give me advice, but in the end I couldn't make up my mind."

"I think I am still very lonely. I have been deprived of the right to love. I have never had the right to hate anyone. I cannot hate my parents, I cannot hate my elders, I cannot hate you, and I cannot love you. I am very conflicted. I do not belong to myself at all. I just want to make a decision for myself, even if this decision will be long and painful, and may lead to irreversible consequences. But I just want to untie the knot in my heart. I just want to take back a little bit of what belongs to me."

"You are different from me. You will never understand me. I won't force you, so I kept it a secret. Later, I was tired and wanted to find you, but I felt it was too late. Lulu suddenly showed up and intervened. I don't know how many times Lu Xuqiang and his people went to find her. At that moment, I really felt angry, ashamed and sorry, but now..." Cheng Cheng smiled bitterly as he looked at Lu Xuqiang, who was folded beyond recognition in the small box, and smiled bitterly: "That's it. I will find the easiest way to solve it. At worst, I will spend money to do what they want."

"You don't hate them anymore?" I asked.

Cheng Cheng shook her head: "I hate you, but I don't want you to hate me even more, sister, I admit that I was wrong, I stand by you, I don't hate you."

"Can you even let them go so easily for my sake? It will be something I regret in the future..."

Cheng Cheng was stunned for a moment, and it was very difficult to pull the corners of her mouth: "It doesn't matter, I said, I don't want anything, what else can I regret."

I walked up to him and hugged him, gently squeezing his palm with one hand: "I understand, you don't want Lulu to get involved in these things, you're not afraid that she'll pity you, you're afraid that she'll look down on you. The Han family has had tinted glasses from the beginning, you're afraid that if you go back to the way you were before, they'll think you're marrying above your station. But now it's different, Chengcheng, take a good look at yourself, if you really haven't changed, Aunt Han would have lost her patience a long time ago, you're no less than others, as for your so-called origin... as long as I'm on your side, no one in this world can say a word about you. I don't have anyone closer than you, since Old Fu passed away, in all the days in the past or in the future, you've been my hope."

Chengcheng seemed relieved. He wiped his tears and was about to hug me. I dodged at the right time. I had to avoid him even if there was a little bit of different emotions in his eyes. His hand stayed in the air for a long time before he let go. I also relaxed for a while.

"People who make mistakes shouldn't be lifted up and then put down easily. I won't let them bully you. If you really feel embarrassed, I will go and tell Lulu, but before that, there is a question that I should ask clearly." I raised my head and looked straight into Chengcheng's eyes: "Chengcheng, can I handle your household affairs?"

He knew that I was referring specifically to the Lu family. Although I was not a member of the Lu family, I brought him into the Fu family. Our two lives overlapped, and he didn't mind showing me his as well, so he nodded.

"Of course, we are a family..."

I lowered my head and breathed a sigh of relief: "Okay, then I know what to do. You won't see them again."

I called Xuan Ze who was outside the door to drag Lu Xuqiang out again. It was so late, and it would be really bad if the children came back and saw it. Unfortunately, after dealing with all this, just as I was about to turn around and leave, Cheng Cheng grabbed my wrist again.

The colchicum outside the yard seemed to be in bloom. I don't remember who bought it and planted it specially, but it bloomed the most beautifully that night. I can't tell whether it will wither the next day.

Cheng Cheng smiled and wiped away the tears from the corner of her eyes with her other hand: "One last thing. I can control my emotions and I won't affect you, sister. You can push me, but I can't get these thoughts out of my head. I'm sorry."