Fall in love with your enemy

Continuing from the last time, Gao Xinci sent me a message, and I realized that it would be both exciting and reassuring to secretly make an appointment with him, but unfortunately it was too late. I was so sleepy waiting for such a long time.

So I asked the small kitchen to serve the food to the boys. After drinking the soup, I planned to go back to the room to accompany the children. Because these little rascals were always clingy at night, at least the three youngest ones had to hold me to sleep. I even specially ordered a big bed! It cost a lot of money to burn that little wood. When I went back, I saw that Zhizhi tried his best but couldn't coax any of them. All of them had their eyes wide open, almost reflecting light in the dark night.

"Which little rascal insists on staying up late! Look at what time it is? The lights outside are off!" I pounced on one of the kids and grabbed it and tickled it. Lingling giggled, and the other two couldn't escape my clutches either. They were each grabbed by one of their ankles and dragged back by me. Yunyun was smarter. She kicked her legs twice and jumped into Zhizhi's arms. She covered her eyes in Zhizhi's arms, pretending that I couldn't see her either.

After Zhou Yi finished making a fuss, he came over and hugged and kissed me: "I want my aunt to hug me!"

"Okay - Auntie held Ang and fell asleep."

"No, I also want my uncle to accompany me!" Yunyun didn't let go. Zhizhi shrugged at me. He was a little used to it.

So I honestly crawled to the innermost, holding Zhouyi in my arms, with Lingling between them, and he held Yunyun and slept on the outermost. I would not go back until the children were drowsy. Fortunately, they exercised a lot every day, so they fell asleep quickly. Except for Zhouyi, Lingling and Yunyun all snored immediately. I covered Zhouyi's eyes manually, but the little rascal was still giggling and his eyelids were slowly trembling.

"Are Yanyan and Yaya the same ones asleep? What about Zhou Zhi? Is he back too?" I asked softly, feeling a little relieved.

Zhizhi smiled bitterly and patted the baby in her arms gently: "The children raised by Hou Xiangyang and Lu Zeyun are very healthy since they were young. They complain of being sleepy at nine o'clock and don't need to be coaxed at all. As for Zhou Zhi, he can't even stay at his father's place for ten minutes. I don't dare to think about what will happen if Chen Yining comes to pick him up in the future and he refuses to leave."

"If you don't want to leave, then don't leave. I'll just raise him. Anyway, most of the descendants of noble families are raised by their relatives and old friends. Chen Yining shouldn't suspect that I stole her child. Besides, Zhou Yi is here too. They are siblings, so it's not good to tell others that they are strangers. It's better to let him spend more time with Zhou Yi."

"Yes, but I wonder if their grandfather will be angry..." Zhizhi said meaningfully and smiled slyly. I quickly threw a doll over and signaled to Zhouyi with my eyes that he was not asleep yet.

Fortunately, the child probably didn't hear it. He was in a daze, and his little mouth made the sound of sucking milk and cricket pupae every night. The sound was not loud and was drowned out by the cries of Wangcai and Kokodo outside.

"It's a bit scary to hear Cocoa Bean calling there in the middle of the night, like a woman laughing. I think I understand why King Zhou liked Daji." Zhizhi turned over. His hands were numb from being pressed by Yunyun. He had to shake them quietly and almost woke up his ancestor. He faced the ceiling and let out a long sigh of relief, feeling dazed.

I found it more and more strange, it seemed like this guy even changed his pajamas?

"Not to mention that your words are not very coherent, could it be that King Zhou likes foxes because they scare people? And you are not going to leave? Why are you still here when the children are asleep?"

"I'm not leaving. I'll rely on you to stay here."

"What?!"

I was stunned for a moment, then quietly put the kid down and ran out on tiptoe. Before leaving, I kicked him with the hem of my skirt. He could stay here if he wanted, I'm going to sleep with Yangyang!

"You bastard, you're trying to take advantage of me!" I tried to run away with my slippers in my pocket. Zhizhi never argued with me, but this time he got the upper hand! He ran a few steps and held my waist from behind, almost giving me a heart attack. After that, he tickled me. I quickly grabbed his hand to signal the boys.

Lingling and Yunyun were sleeping soundly. Zhouyi laughed twice and slowly fell asleep too. I tiptoed back to check on them. I was so lucky. If they woke up, I would be back to the critical period of breastfeeding. Although they don't drink breast milk now, making milk powder is much more troublesome than drinking breast milk. The most important thing is that sometimes the milk powder is so fragrant that I want to drink it too. After drinking it, I will gain weight, and if I gain weight, I will be in tears.

"Eh? Are you angry?" Zhizhi walked towards me with a smile. Even though I rolled my eyes at her, she didn't back down and said, "I'm just teasing you. You've been bored all day and I haven't seen you smile."

"Nonsense! You clearly laughed at Gao Xinci with me." I felt very uncomfortable and mentioned it deliberately when I spoke.

I don't know how to reject someone's love, but I do know how to make someone give up. Lulu told me that he was trapped by the rigid rules of the Fu family. With me around him every day, how could he have room for someone else? It would be better to separate for a while. People will not fall in love with only one person in their lifetime. We are not stubborn creatures.

I considered where to let him go, but in the end it seemed that the only option was for me to leave. But I was destined to be trapped in this house. Even if Gao Xinci took the key and opened the cage to let me go, I couldn't leave.

Zhizhi wasn't angry, and there wasn't even a strange expression on her face: "He didn't contact you again?"

"I found it. Let me go down the mountain. I won't go because it's too late."

"So he didn't ask you?"

"Just ask, just say how can I be away from home to take care of the child? Just remember each other in your heart, I can't delay my own child for him..."

Zhizhi didn't ask any more questions and patted my shoulder to signal him to go back to sleep. At this moment, several dogs barked in the yard, leaving us alone. We looked at each other and looked out the window together. Wangcai never barked like this when he was playing. After a while, someone knocked on the door again. Lanlan hurriedly wanted to pull me out, saying that something had happened.

I looked around and saw that the children were all fast asleep, so I hurried downstairs. The yard was filled with silence and noise, and everyone's face was filled with anxiety, fear, or disgust. Cocoa Bean shrank into the corner, and Wangcai was also a little scared, and cried when he saw me.

I followed the gazes of the people and walked out of the yard. Chengcheng and Yangyang had just returned today. The children were crying loudly and Chengcheng held one in each of their arms. Chengcheng was also frightened and dazed, and looked at me pitifully. His brother was here. He probably wanted to tell me something before he came, but he couldn't say it now.

Zhou Linsong was crashed to death at the gate of my yard, his skin torn and bloody, but he was still hanging on to his breath. His bloody hands kept reaching out to me, calling "Auntie" and "Auntie".

I couldn't lower myself, I fell down. I couldn't cry at first. Zhou Linsong grabbed my hand with tears in his eyes. After he called me, I kept saying sorry. Finally, I shed a few tears.

He died in my arms just like Yun Jin did.

I will never forgive a person who repays my kindness with hatred, but why must he die in front of me? How interesting is this scene? I immediately understood that this was not to vent my anger, but to deliberately make things difficult for me, using a dead person to threaten and intimidate me.

Several stewards who were escorting him came over. They were all strong young men. They couldn't catch a thin civilian steward, so they let him break in from outside the old house and die in front of my door. He was still alive and could call me.

"Miss Xishi?" The leading steward bowed and said, "Miss Xishi, don't be sad. It's not worth it for such a lowly person."

"He is lowly, and you are nothing." I said in a hollow voice. Zhizhi wiped my hands with a wet towel. He was also startled when he heard this. He looked up at the stewards and exhaled, "The stewards failed in their duties, lost the prisoners, and caused a big disaster. I think it's unlucky. Lanlan, go to Wen Xianqin to report it early tomorrow morning. I will let these people serve swill in the South Courtyard. From now on, they should either get out of the house or suffer in misery and make up for it."

Zhizhi wiped my hand with another heavy hand. Maybe he had been enduring for too long, and he was surprised to see me resisting. Lanlan and the others also felt that it was too heavy. We all knew that he was my second uncle, but in name they were still my youngest uncle's people.

I didn't change my words. My uncle wouldn't treat me like this, and he wouldn't refute my choice. Lanlan had no choice but to do as she asked. Several managers argued, but were kicked by Xuan Ze and You You and made them kneel down. Tinglin quickly stuffed their mouths. Zhizhi saw that Zhou Linsong's body was stiff and he couldn't let go of my wrist, so he broke his fingers one by one in front of them and threw them away.

No one spoke.

I stood up and asked the other strong men in the room to deal with the corpse and wash the ground. I asked Xuan Ze and the others to deal with these people. Then I pretended nothing had happened and went back to the room to continue sleeping. Cheng Cheng ran up to me and hugged me, stuffing the children into my arms, and I took them away. My brother knew that I was unhappy, but he still held me back.

I couldn't help myself. It wasn't his fault, so I shook his hand off: "Go away!"

"Listen to your brother, it's not like that. It's very likely that Zhou Linsong is deliberately disgusting you. It's not necessarily with my dad..."

"I don't want to hear it!" I held him back, tears starting to burst out: "Brother, do you believe what you said? Why were you angry with me this afternoon? What were you angry about? You might as well just respect his choice. I'm just your cousin. We're even older than that! I know he hates Grandpa, Master Fu, and me. He can deal with me, he can do anything, why should he let the child see it? Chengcheng was also treated harshly and didn't have a good day for a few days. I carefully raised Yangyang to this age, and didn't let him see any bad things. Can I let them go? Can I let my brother go and let my daughter go?"

After that, I carried Yangyang and Jinjin back. I didn’t know what happened to my brother, but I only knew that the children cried for a long time. Finally, Yangyang sobbed and helped me wipe my tears. She held Jinjin in her arms and said, “Don’t worry, sister. I will protect Jinjin! I am a man!”

Cheng Cheng hugged me from behind, resting his head on my shoulder. Hearing this, he couldn't help but pat Yang Yang's head, and put his cheek close to me. I pinched his palm and asked, "Why are you still taking Yang Yang out so late?"

"His ball fell into the yard, so he asked me to go with him to find it. When I came back, I ran into my brother." Cheng Cheng said weakly. He was also very tired.

"If it's lost in the future, it's lost. There are plenty of warehouses. The old house is very gloomy. It's not safe to go out with the lights off." I choked.

Cheng Cheng nodded and said "hmm".

"Go to sleep." I covered Yangyang and Jinjin with a blanket.

Children are scared when something like this happens, and they always need an adult to accompany them. I let Chengcheng sleep here as well, and coaxed the three children to close their eyes before I left quietly. Zhizhi was waiting for me at the door. I thought about how I have lived for so many years and been reborn, but to be honest, I don’t feel like I have grown up. Maybe Mr. Fu and the others have been used to this kind of thing a long time ago. I still wanted to cry when I saw a support. Zhizhi opened his arms and hugged me. I didn’t think much and went in. My chest was burning, and I could feel his breath on my forehead.

"I feel like I can't hold on any longer..."

"And I'm here, and I'm here."

Zhizhi stroked my hair gently and said, he treated me like a child and I coaxed Chengcheng because I was his sister, at least an older sister. Zhizhi was a little older than me, so he also treated me like a child. But a crying child hiding in his arms didn't dare to shout loudly, for fear of waking up more poor souls, innocent children and wandering ghosts.

I asked him if he was not afraid. He said that the students in the old house had seen too much blood and gore and were used to it. He wanted to protect me with his tough body that had been through so many setbacks.

It took me a long time to figure it out. The sobbing sound slowly faded away, but I hadn't left his arms yet. I thought I regretted being angry with my brother. I wanted to apologize to my second uncle and ask him if he could stop hating me. I thought I regretted not pleading with Lin Song and the others. I thought I should have met Yun Jin earlier. I thought it would be great if Yun Jin was alive. Finally, I wanted to strangle all these disgusting thoughts to death.

You are so despicable. Why do you think about others when you are dying?

I did nothing wrong, why can't I make the same mistake once?

Oh, actually I was wrong now, because I was crying without caring about the person I had decided to give up on. Zhizhi was so sympathetic that she took advantage of my trance and held my cheek and kissed me.

At first, he just rubbed my lips to test me. When he saw that I didn't react, he quickly raised his lips and tongue and licked the corner of my mouth. He gently rubbed my cheek, one hand pressed on the back of my neck, and the other moved to my waist. He touched me all over to comfort me, with ambiguity and guilt, facing Chengcheng and my child across the wall.

My head was buzzing and my whole body went limp from his kiss. I was more scared than if I had pressed Zhou Linsong's head to death. I trembled with my eyes wide open. At this moment, I really didn't think this was an intimate act. He was killing people and I wished I were dead.

I finally had the strength to push him away. I almost slapped him with my right hand, but it stopped at his cheek. I was wrong too. I put my hands down, turned my back and tried to leave, but he grabbed me back. This time it was a deep kiss with lips and tongue involved. I pressed the tip of my tongue hard and put my hands on his shoulders. He refused to let me go. I don't know how he got in, and his soft tongue stirred around in his mouth.

He interrupted in the middle and said he loved me, loved me very, very much, and asked me not to push him away.

I bit him hard, and a spot of blood fell on my lower lip, but I still pushed him away. Looking at him, I couldn't get angry, and I didn't have the strength to cry.

"I can forget it. I will forget it after tonight." I covered my chest and felt extremely uncomfortable, looking at him almost pitifully.

Zhizhi's tears flashed on his cheeks. He took a step closer and scared me again. I tried to escape madly but was caught by him. He didn't kiss me again, but just hugged me and coaxed me: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Go to my room and sleep."

"I do not want!"

"I won't mess with you anymore. Go to my room and sleep. I'll go take care of the kids. I swear I won't go in without your permission!"

I breathed a sigh of relief, but then I felt absurd and terrified. Why did I end up like this? He didn't hurt me anymore. Should I thank him for believing in him and be thankful for my good fortune? I was still willing to forgive him and didn't blame him at all, although I didn't respond to his two apologies.

I went to his room in silence. It was a tidy apricot-colored little room. The bed had a faint mint scent. Many of the decorations on the table were things I bought for him. There were photos of the two of us in the frames, every one of them except for the larger one hanging on the wall, which was a group photo with Lanlan and the others, but it was still the two of us standing together.

I don't know when he started to have this idea, and I don't know why he did it when I was crying, but I think I still want to teach him a lesson. I want to let him know that I am very sad and I don't like this. If he really admits his mistake, he will never think about me again. So I found a palm-length and three-finger-wide military knife in his drawer. It was very sharp and he wiped it very clean. He should cherish it very much because it was also a gift from me.

I used this thing to gesture with my wrists. I was not afraid of pain or death. I even relied on the relaxed feeling when I was almost dead. I imagined that I was about to float into the sky and nothing in the world had anything to do with me anymore. I missed the people I loved who were buried in the ground, but unfortunately they were rescued in the end.

I can't stand it anymore. I want to go find them again. I think everyone is sad tonight and no one will find me, so I can succeed.

But when I was about to do it, I got scared again. The dagger and I fell to the ground, and I hugged my cold body and burst into tears.

I found that I didn't dare to do it anymore, but I was still not afraid of pain or death.

I remembered that I had children and younger siblings, and I had no one to rely on, but I was their only support.