Fall in love with your enemy

Continuing from the last time, Gao Xinci was hiding in the locker room waiting for me. He had drunk so much that he looked intoxicated.

I should have thought of it earlier. I sent invitations to the child's full month and hundred day birthday celebrations, but he only accepted the one for the full month celebration. Probably because he didn't want to see me after that day. I went back to Jinhai and broke up with him. Since it was the last time we saw each other, how could I not explore something with him one last time?

He bit the tip of my tongue and wouldn't let go until a trace of blood came out. In the darkness, we looked at each other with our foreheads pressed against each other. His body softened and he fell on my shoulder and sucked. He kissed every part of my dress that was slightly exposed. I gritted my teeth and endured without saying a word. He held my face and bit the corner of my mouth, as if deliberately leaving a gap for me to cry. He pinched my face and wouldn't let go. Sadness slowly spread through my body. I even hummed twice, and then he carried me horizontally inside again.

The outside of the dressing room is for guests, and there is a back door at the innermost part, which leads to a corridor. Behind the corridor is Xie Yushu and the inside. He didn't take me directly to the bedroom from that place. He stopped halfway and turned to the cloakroom that was locked for me at home. He locked the door again. I was gently placed on the small sofa, and he quickly came back with his hands raised high above his head. He was not in a hurry, but continued to kiss me one by one. Through the thin layer of dress, I could clearly feel the heat of every inch of skin, even hot.

I remember that he was like this once after he got drunk in the previous life. I said that he didn't look serious at all. Who could have thought that Mr. Gao, who was polite in front of outsiders, would be like this in front of his wife when he got home? The perfume on his body was gone, and there was only heat, so hot that I was sweating, and only the most primitive wildness and arrogance of a man was left. He bit my ear and told me that the two words were lost.

Now it has also been lost.

He took off his suit jacket and shirt, with his tie still half hanging around his neck. He dragged me up and made me sit astride him, pressing my shoulders down hard. I couldn't help but bounce up when I touched them. I had just given birth to Lingling and Yunyun, and it had been just over a month. I couldn't stand anything he did. He might have been more sober and stopped hitting me, but he couldn't control his hands and kept rubbing and pinching me. This morning, when I was feeding Yunyun, she bit me and it hurt. This made me cry out loud.

I held Gao Xinci's face, wiped it twice with a little force, and asked him to look at me carefully: "Xinci, you've drunk too much."

"You must have drunk too much, otherwise why would you stay here so obediently? Am I dreaming..." He held my waist and back to force me closer, but fortunately his hand did not continue to touch me, but just tapped me gently: "Does it hurt? So should I come back to see you in a hundred days?"

"If you really want it, come back to me in a hundred days." I responded in a muffled voice.

Gao Xinci smiled and bit the flesh on my chin and flicked it.

I stroked Master's face again, sliding along his brows: "You want me to wait for you anytime, but next time, don't drink anymore. I'm breastfeeding and really can't touch any alcohol. I don't want my problems to affect the child. Lingling is fine, but Yunyun really doesn't drink much milk powder. But don't worry, I will pay you back in the end for what I owe you."

"Do you think you are paying off your debt now?"

"Um……"

"Then forget it." Gao Xinci's face was a little gloomy, but fortunately there was no big reaction. He just turned around and pushed me down, lifted my legs and squeezed me in the middle. I guess he didn't embarrass me. He just leaned over and kissed me a few times before talking again, biting my earlobe: "Shishi."

"Hmm?" I woke up a little and responded by putting my arms around his neck.

"I don't want to let you go." Gao Xinci whispered, and I heard a little cry in his voice: "Come with me, don't leave Linjiang, don't hide in a place like this, I'm really fed up, I don't want to wake up every morning without seeing you, why did it become like this..."

I felt a pang of sadness in my heart, and I couldn't bear to watch it without shedding a few tears. I'm not that heartless, but I knew Gao Xinci was just crying while drunk, and it wasn't serious. So I didn't reply, but just hugged his waist and kissed his cheek, rubbing my forehead against his chest. I thought he would stop there, but he still refused.

He pinched my chin again and made me look up at him. All of a sudden, the hatred that had been hidden in my heart for many years came out: "Jiang Yinan is dead! It's my turn now, right? Shishi, I have endured everything I could... Tell me what I did wrong! Can you come back? Just like in the last life, I accept it, I accept everything. I can also treat Lingling and Yunyun as my own children. Can you accept me again?"

"Gao Xinci, what do you think of me? Do you really think that I stayed away from you just because of Jiang Yinan? Because I loved him? Now that he's dead, you can come back again, right?" I stared at Gao Xinci in disbelief. These words were like a mountain, uprooting me and throwing me down, overwhelming me so much that I couldn't speak. I patted my chest and said, "But, he's dead, but, but I'm not dead..."

"Then tell me, what am I? Don't you love me too? You vowed to be together forever, but you still walked in front of him! You have made a solemn promise to him that even death cannot separate you. What about me? If you can't forget him, how can you forget me? In the end, I am just a choice you made when you were desperate. You are living a good life now! You have returned to the eldest house, and there is no one above you who can suppress you. You really don't need me anymore!"

"Since you know all this, why did you come to me? Aren't you asking for trouble? Gao Xinci, how can I think of you? I gave you everything I have. Isn't it enough to make up for the mistakes I made? Was it my own will to be with you in my last life? You grab me anytime and anywhere to entertain yourself. What do you think of me?"

I couldn't help yelling either, so I stood up and pushed him away without even raising my head.

"Just think of it as me who has changed, okay? Yes, I am living too well! Businessmen change their faces quickly when they are looking for profits! I am finally going to hold the entire Fu family in my hands, why am I still dragging you along! We agreed to break up at the beginning, and I didn't kick you when you were down. I helped you get back on your feet, how could I be sorry for you! Why do you want to refuse to pay your debts just because you want to? If you must give a reason, it's because you are incompetent and irresponsible! I can't rely on you! Is that ok!"

Gao Xinci's anger was gone, and he finally calmed down and walked forward. He didn't even smell drunk anymore. He squatted in front of me, looked up at me, wiped my tears, and said sincerely to the point of being distressing: "I can do it. Can you trust me again? Let me protect you. I also want to pay back everything I owe you, okay?"

But when I looked at him again, I could only lower my head a little more and more: "No, at least at this moment, I can't leave the Fu family."

"But why? I know it all the time. When the family property was divided, Fu Shuyu took all the shares and you took the cash. You didn't have anything that you fully controlled except Ruiyi. You also took out most of the cash to buy shares for me and to help Fu Shuyu with his connections. Now you have smashed the eldest daughter's sign and thrown all the power to the second wife. Yes, Fu Shuyu returned some of your shares, but your existence is far less important than his. Why do you still want to get yourself deeply involved and hold on to it tightly? If you run away, these things of the Fu family will no longer hinder you."

"But as long as I stand there for one day, I will be a target!" I interrupted Gao Xinci. I couldn't fool him with lies, but I couldn't bear the truth. "As long as I stay in his sight, he won't do anything to my brother and children. You don't understand that my second uncle doesn't want money... Half a year ago, I used all my trump cards on William, but now he's out again. I can't do anything to him. Not only that, but my second uncle has completely relaxed his vigilance against me again. I don't have anything left to fight against my second uncle. Except for myself, you can take me away alone, can you take my whole family away?"

"You know, when I was going through the hardest time, I couldn't even keep my brother's ashes. I couldn't even die cleanly as Jiang Yinan said in his suicide note. In the end, he was a bloody mess, with his entire lower body rotten. It was even in front of you. I was still in the hospital. At that time, I really wanted to end my life with a knife, but when I looked back at Chengcheng and Yangyang, and my slowly growing belly, I still endured it."

"I understand what you want to say. You want to say that Yangyang is an illegitimate child and I don't need to be open-hearted to him. Chengcheng and I are no longer on the same page. You can double the money and power that the Fu family can give me, but have you ever thought that this is all I have left."

"There were problems in our love, and God gave us a rebirth as a reminder. I can't rely on you wholeheartedly. In my last life, I even had the confidence, but now that Master is dead and I have two daughters, I can't trust you wholeheartedly. I can't trust anyone."

"Why?" Gao Xinci took a deep breath and shed pitiful tears. He held my hand and said, "Our relationship was caused by misunderstanding. You still love me, don't you? In the last life, we never thought of giving up. You still have me in your heart. In this life, I watched you and Jiang Yinan go through the whole journey and I accepted it. I also accepted that you had a child. What else can separate us? Why don't you believe me?"

"You also said that people change. It's not you who has changed, it's me. I used to really regard my second uncle as someone I loved more than my father. Since I returned to the Fu family when I was thirteen, he has given me the most abundant love. But now he is the one who has shattered all my fantasies."

I sighed and took out the pills that I always kept in my pocket to remind myself. One was the pill I had taken before, and the other was the pill Zheng Lin picked up from the other side.

"If I crush the pills in my hand and ask a doctor, I'll find that they contain trace amounts of toxins that can weaken my body. Since I returned home, no matter how carefully I received treatment, my body would deteriorate day by day. I accidentally discovered this a few years ago and told Xiangyang about it. Later, he could only give me a less toxic medicine and told me that the medicine he gave me could be used to treat the later stages. I can't get better before I find out the truth, otherwise the people behind the scenes will notice and alert the enemy. Do you know who is the person who is closest to me and changed my medicine?"

Gao Xinci was extremely shocked and held my hand tighter. He wanted to take me to the hospital for a check-up immediately, but he held back and waited for me to finish speaking.

I smiled bitterly, "I know that idea is almost right, but I have no evidence, and I can't confront him face to face. Do you know that the medicine Zheng Lin pretended to take was also adulterated? She was not that crazy at first...but later she could no longer control her emotions until she died..."

"A normal person took twice as much psychiatric medication as a mentally ill person. She didn't tell me about it when she died, and I didn't dare to check because I was afraid of seeing my own future. But I know in my heart that he killed my mother in front of me. I don't understand why, but I'm sure he hates me... He will never let me go, even if I go to the ends of the earth."

"Besides the second uncle, I am also a balance for the eldest house. Did you know that Yangyang's legs were broken by Chengcheng who bribed the nurse when he was born? So it's really no wonder that the elders miss us. Yangyang is the weak and helpless uncle, and Chengcheng is a replica of the second uncle, even more cruel. He is also despised and reviled. After all, the second uncle's mother is still at home enjoying wealth and glory, while Chengcheng's mother is in prison. Sooner or later, she will die when she gets out. He has endured more betrayal. A group of blood relatives have deceived him together, trapped him in this place without sunlight, and given him responsibilities that he has to accept."

"I don't want to leave, at most I just can't bear to leave Chengcheng. Now I can still make him understand. I think as long as I care about him a little more, he won't become uncontrollable. I don't want him to be as cruel as my second uncle, and I don't want him to suffer like my second uncle. I think since I have come to this point, I shouldn't let Chengcheng and Yangyang go any further, right? Jiang Yinan's matter was not caused by him, but it has been a haze in his life. If he really kills his own brother one day, he will regret it..."

Gao Xinci stood up and sat next to me. He hugged me and patted me. He calmed down before speaking, and advised me earnestly: "But what about Fu Shuyu's feelings for you? Everyone saw what happened today. He deliberately got drunk to give you a chance and to give the outside world the impression that you are the one who makes the decisions in the eldest house. What if he kissed you? This is not a question of taking advantage. When you return to the eldest house, you will most likely rely on him in the future. Can he stop here for the rest of his life? Or will he push for more? What should he do, what should you do, and what should Lulu do?"

I held my breath. This was indeed the most important issue at the moment. Chengcheng was not a child anymore. He had shown some behavior when he was not drunk. He was not someone who could agree to "rules", but I hoped he was not my enemy. If I were to show more care and love as I just said, it would be difficult not to be misunderstood by him. The deeper I got into this trap, he would really "press further" as Gao Xinci said.

It is wrong to hate too deeply, and it is also wrong to love too deeply. Chengcheng is not someone else, he is my own brother.

"I'll find a way..."

"Can I solve it with you? Even if it's just for Fu Shuyu's problem." Gao Xinci squeezed my palm. He was sober now. Seeing that I didn't object, he came over and touched my nose. "I know you can't accept me for a while, but Fu Shuyu can't live without someone to suppress his feelings and make him give up his thoughts. It would be better for me, right?"

I was really a little shaken. If it was a reason for Chengcheng, how could it not be for me? I was really about to agree to him, but at this moment, Yangyang's crying came from outside the door.

I was startled, and quickly put on my clothes and ran out. At the stairs not far away, Chengcheng was standing there staring down blankly, and down the stairs was Yangyang, lying in a mess, crying heartbreakingly...