Fall in love with your enemy

Continuing from the last time, when I said those words to Gao Xinci, you can tell how ugly his face looked, and his eyes were red with anger, as if there was something stuck in his throat. He caught a glimpse of something out of the corner of his eye, and his eyes were full of disbelief, and his fingers unconsciously reached out. I quickly put on my clothes and turned my gaze to the window.

"You're not planning to do this right here..." I took a deep breath and held back my tears: "Director Gao, are you insulting yourself or me?"

"You slept with him?"

"So what!"

Then I realized he was referring to the kiss marks on my body. Fortunately, my mouth was faster than my brain and I blocked his next words.

He swallowed hard and put his hands back on the steering wheel. "Let's not argue, okay? I only have a few questions for you, and then I'll leave."

"You were the one who started the quarrel. I'm just here to look for someone." I turned my head away, not wanting him to see me quietly wiping away my tears.

Gao Xinci didn't waste any more words. He stepped on the accelerator and left the front mountain. He took a small path and went outside the area designated by Feng Shizhi. There was no one behind him at night. Halfway up the mountain there was a small manor where my family would stay when they came down to check the accounts. It was only two or three acres in size and there was a small parking lot outside. The car was parked there with the lights off. Only the starry sky outside the window was left to illuminate the car. It was not conspicuous in the woods. The dark world in front of us seemed more suitable for heart-to-heart talks. We could hear each other's gradually accelerating heartbeats.

"Shishi, I just want to hear the truth." He sighed deeply and said, "As long as you say it, I will believe it. If you are tired, I will let you go."

"What truth do you want?" I suppressed myself and calmed down. When I sobered up, I didn't feel like quarreling anymore. To be precise, I didn't want to quarrel in the first place. Cheating is indeed a very serious mistake. I also felt guilty about him before. I can't get angry just because the other person is unwilling to let go. He should be the one who should be angry.

"I want to hug you," he said.

Suddenly I overlapped with someone, just like a bolt of lightning struck me right in the heart. I was choking and couldn't breathe, and my emotions were collapsing. I used to persuade and comfort myself that there was nothing wrong with revenge and I didn't care about the means. I was really obsessed, but until it was over, I realized that I had let no one down. What's the point of owing a debt for a lifetime?

"I want to hug you, can I?" he repeated again, unbuckled his seat belt and reached out his hand.

I tried my best to lean towards the door. Even though there was no one in the woods, I still felt embarrassed. I didn't dare to go down. I gritted my teeth and swallowed. I turned my head away and pushed his hand away: "Xin Ci, don't do this..."

He felt lost, and slowly withdrew his mind, leaning limply against the seat as if all his strength had been drained. He paused, and the first thing he did was to unbuckle my seat belt so that it wouldn't strangle me.

"We don't even have a reason to divorce..." He said with a wry smile after a long time, and his smile was weak.

"Not being able to live together is the reason." I wiped my tears and responded, "We are all very tired, Xinci. In the last life, we ignored each other for at least half a year, right? Did you tell me the reason? Even when I thought about it later, I felt that there was no need for a reason. Not many people can truly love each other for a lifetime. You can't stand my weakness and I can't stand your strength. Just like that, everyone's freshness of love has been exhausted. We are together not because of love, but habit."

"It's the same when you want to remarry me. You don't want to spend time and energy looking for someone who can live with you, but you are not willing to live a dull life, so you quarrel with me and dig up old scores. How long have many people died at that time? Can it be used as a reason for quarreling? It was only when I cried quietly at night that I realized that the more fiercely you quarreled during the day, the more excited you were when we had sex at night. I was really going crazy because of you. Do you really like to see me go crazy? Do you really think that crying or laughing is better than my depressed face every day."

"What you want is a passionate love, everything that's passionate, but I'm different from you. I just want to live a quiet life. We are not in the same world, and I am not worthy of you. So as long as you step into my life, I am destined to be restless. You are standing too high, I can't catch up..."

"When two people are together, no one is unworthy of the other. You have seen my sad side, and you have also seen my inferior side. Do you think we are not in the same world?" Gao Xinci said in a deep voice, full of unwillingness and resentment: "Why are you unworthy of me? Why am I not unworthy of you? Shishi, why do you always think of yourself like this? I love you, I love everything about you, even your pain. I have watched you walk step by step to today, you have done your best. If I had to endure everything you have, I would have collapsed long ago, so let me help you. If you can't hold on, leave the rest to me, okay?"

I looked at him, and at that moment I almost laughed at myself for going crazy.

"Come here." I waved my hand, Gao Xinci leaned over, I embraced him, touched his lips and kissed him gently before separating, looking straight into his eyes: "How does it feel?"

Gao Xin didn't understand the meaning and couldn't express it.

I kissed him deeply again, but this time he didn't let me go easily. He pressed on the back of my neck and kissed me passionately. He barely paused for two seconds until I was almost out of breath. Then he kissed me again, and his fingers moved down gradually. When he reached the critical point, I almost collapsed. I pushed him away, pulled the hem of my long skirt back from his hand, wrapped myself up in a mess, and shrank into a corner for a long time before I came to my senses.

"Do you feel it? Xin Ci, I'm already like this. I can do whatever I want. I can only use this shameless way to get ahead, including to you, Jiang Yinan, Liang Sen, and William. I can pretend to be anything and use any means. I can endure my disgusting things flashing in front of me every day. I can deceive the people closest to me and make them have nothing. I can fabricate love and let a person who can be used stay by my side forever. I can also give my body. Just like you said, you are not my husband, you are the party A that I need to please. You need my body and can help me achieve something, and I am willing to do it. I am not the person you like. I can't hold on. I have been broken."

Gao Xin was so anxious that tears welled up in the corners of his eyes: "But..."

"No buts! This is the fact, Xin Ci. When we just separated, before Second Master Gao passed away, I had the honor of hearing his last sincere words before he died. In your family struggle, at least until the last moment, they all truly recognized your abilities and methods, and truly believed that only you could be the leader of the Gao family. What about me? I can't climb up at all. I don't have enough abilities and my methods are not ruthless. I rely on Cheng Cheng, and Cheng Cheng also relies on me."

"When you are facing strangers, any kind of killing is justified and reasonable, but when I am facing my closest relatives, my enemies are never outsiders, they are my own uncle! He has really loved and cared for me. Even now, if I cry and beg him for anything, he will try his best to give it to me. He doesn't want me to live a bad life, but he doesn't want me to live too well either. When he is happy, he can give me an island. When he is unhappy, he can break me down from the bottom until I cry and beg for mercy, but he always looks calm..."

"He adopted me as his daughter, gave me property, and asked my brother to protect me, but he didn't give me freedom. I chose where to live, what to eat, which hospital to go to, who the attending doctor was, my university major, the people around me, my reputation outside, and my family foundation. He even picked a husband for me. That's it. Tell me, can I do something to him? Do I dare to do something to him? And can I bear to do it myself?"