Fall in love with your enemy

Continuing from last time, I handed the soft knife to Jiang Yinan and held it against my lower abdomen.

He didn't want to kill me, but the slightest touch of the fabric frightened him so much that he trembled. He hastily put the knife back. I don't know what made him think that one of us had to die. After a brief moment of shock, he raised the knife and put it on his neck. A bloody mark was left because he used too much force. He blocked my hand that was trying to take the knife away. There was nothing to be afraid of at the moment of death, and he let out all his tears and complaints.

"You want to kill me?" He stared at me and said, "Why do you treat me like this? What did I do wrong..."

"You clearly said that I was harmed by William and I was one of the victims, but what are you doing now? Why did you kill Nanxing? He did nothing wrong just like me. We both just want to live a normal life. Why can't you satisfy me... let me watch with my own eyes and force me to commit suicide?"

"I really thought you were here to save me, but you turned out to be here to seek revenge on me. If that's the case, you don't need me, so why didn't you let me die from the beginning? Is it because you can't bear to part with the Lin Modu in your memory? Three years to repay all my love for you. But I'm not him, I'm just Jiang Yinan, Lin Modu is fictional, there is no such person in this world! This is who I am. I haven't done anything bad since I've been with you, why don't you just accept me..."

I saw that he looked disheartened, but there was also a glimmer of hope in his expression. He hoped that I could say something, whether it was life or death, at least the love and hate were all out in the open, and he would know what was going on. But I remained silent and said nothing.

Jiang Yinan had waited too long. Just like William said, he only had three happy and easy years with me in his life. The rest of the days were like a layer of fog in front of his face. I understand the feeling of not being able to see the road ahead clearly. He was even worse than me. He didn't want to go back to the old days. So he held the soft knife tighter, gave a bitter smile, and then felt hopeless and couldn't cry anymore. He raised his head and said "I'm sorry" finally, and he was about to be killed.

I quickly reached out and knocked his knife away. The bloody blade fell under the table with two clangs, leaving scarlet marks on the floor. I hated him so much. He lied to me and I didn't know where he lied to me. But I couldn't tell him for the sake of living in the future. I didn't want to hear his answer. I didn't want to know how he felt when he killed a peer who was equally weak. I would remember those words for the rest of my life. Why should I torture myself? Grief-stricken and helpless, I slapped him in anger, leaving a red mark on his cheek.

"If you dare to die, I will commit suicide even if you don't kill me with my own hands. I just ask you for a choice. If you insist on pushing me to a dead end, then I can only tie you up here forever. Just bear with it!"

"Choice? What choice? Either we die together or we get married, right?" Jiang Yinan bit his lips to suppress his tears: "But Shishi, can we go back to the past? Do you know that I haven't slept for the past two days? As soon as I close my eyes, my mind is full of the scene of Nanxing being poisoned to death... You would rather die than give him an easy way. He struggled for a long time before he died, and you didn't even allow me to go over to see him..."

"If I hadn't completely given you his identity, do you think you would still be sitting here now?"

"But I stayed with William for so long just to keep him alive! Otherwise I would have left long ago! I just want him and Nian Nian to be alive..."

Jiang Yinan burst into tears and was almost on the verge of collapse, but I had to make that choice no matter what he thought.

"I don't care what you say. I just want to ask you one thing, do you want to live together or die together? Nanxing drank the poison voluntarily. His death was for you. If you want him to die in vain, that's fine with me." I sighed, leaned back and sat on the ground, planning to wait like this. Jiang Yinan had no choice but to nod.

"What else can I do? I can never do anything to you."

I breathed a sigh of relief, holding my chest for a long time, then I got up and went to his side again, touched the palm print and wiped away his tears. I didn't have any anger when I spoke again, but I couldn't help but feel a little cold: "If you want to live, don't act like this to me, don't show me a single bit of it to the outside world, otherwise, I will choose for you."

"What do you want me to do?"

I couldn't say anything to him. I choked up and could only get up and go out. I shouted at the door: "Someone come! Bring food to my son-in-law, and then wash him and change the medicine. I will come over in the evening."

Then I went back to Chengcheng's room. I hadn't seen him for another afternoon. I didn't know what to say after the quarrel. Besides, I also needed some time to prepare myself mentally. The bottle of medicine felt like it was hot in my hand.

By this time, everything except the medicine should have arrived at the hot spring hall. I don't know what his expression would be when he saw it, shock or disappointment, or maybe the same as me. We were just completing the task. I thought about it over and over again but still couldn't decide who would take the medicine. I didn't want to make myself too embarrassed, and I was also afraid that he wouldn't be able to bear it after two days of suffering. In the end, I threw it into the trash can out of annoyance.

After I felt annoyed, I turned around and went to take a shower. Suddenly, I had a strange feeling. I was the roast duck chosen by others. The first step was to pluck the feathers, the second step was to wash it clean, and the third step was to hollow it out. Finally, the cooked rice went into their mouth. Thinking about it, I made myself laugh. I even felt hungry.

Damn it, it's such a shame, why do I have to be a roast duck? Why do I have to think so badly of myself? Jiang Yinan is the roast duck, and now he is in my hands, I can steam him or boil him whenever I want, just peel him and stuff him into my mouth, it's impossible for him to not taste good, I have seen a little bit from the side, the speed and durability are really impressive... Ugh, what am I thinking...

I was soaking in a bathtub full of water, with steam rising. I didn't know whether I was red from the bath or from shame, I just looked like a persimmon. I slapped my face to wake myself up, lowered my head to look at my body, it was the first time I examined it so carefully, and suddenly I felt that I was not bad. Although I was a little thinner, I was still fat in some places. My skin was glowing white under the light, and the red marks caused by the tight clothes were even more obvious. I wiped them off, but they didn't go away.

When Li Xi came in to bring me some clothes to change, I almost stood up out of fright. The water splashed and blinded me. I took this as a good excuse to cover my face. I put away my strange expression for a while and glanced back at Li Xi who was looking at me in bewilderment: "Do you have anything else to do?"

"Oh, I just want to tell you that my brother-in-law has already entered the hot spring. It is not suitable to soak in it for too long in summer as it is easy to get dizzy. If you want to say something to him, you'd better go as soon as possible." Li Xi said calmly.

He seemed relaxed, but I felt uncomfortable. He took a deep breath and pulled Li Xi to his side. He mumbled for a long time before letting her hear a complete sentence: "What was his expression before he came in? Or did he have any...special behavior?"

"Special behavior?" Li Xi pondered for a while, his facial features wrinkled into a ball, and then suddenly it dawned on him: "Oh, he said he was worried that he would be thirsty if he couldn't get out soon, so he asked us to put more drinking water."

What do you mean he can't get out!!! Is he really planning to stay there?!

I couldn't say anything else, so I had to let Li Xi go. I stared at my body in the mirror for a long time, gritted my teeth, put on my bathrobe, and went downstairs.

The hot spring hall is on the first underground floor. It is an arc-shaped room, about three to five hundred square meters. The pool in the middle is steaming, and there is a huge glass dome above it. It is a good choice to soak in the hot spring here at night. You can see the starry sky when you look up, and you can't see inside from the outside, so it is not impossible to do something here according to Jiang Yinan's idea. I saw him from a distance in the mist, and my heart was already trembling with panic, but I still pretended to be calm and undressed. Unfortunately, this bathrobe stayed on me for less than five minutes.

His back was facing me, so when I pushed aside the pool water and walked to his side, I hugged his warm body from behind. I thought it would feel better if I didn't touch him right away, but the actual situation was quite different from what I expected. He was simply steaming hot, and his whole body was limp and he had no strength at all.

I really put myself in the shoes of the roast duck. I haven't even started eating it, but he's already started crying.

I reached out and turned him around. He lowered his head and didn't look at me. The spring water covered my chest and stopped at his waist and abdomen. The only active step he took with gritted teeth was to hold my hand.

How about driving a baby bus? How to play like this?

Probably seeing that I didn't react and knowing that I was not satisfied, he leaned down gently and kissed me lightly on the lips. This time I didn't let him go. I hugged his waist and bit the corner of his lip hard. Immediately, the taste of blood filled my mouth, and there was an inexplicable sweetness. I rubbed his arm and told him to be less nervous and not to keep pressing against me. After a while, he let go, but his tears also fell into my mouth, mixed between my lips and teeth, which brought a bit of other meaning.

"Fu Xishi, you are really good at torturing people." He hugged me and whispered in my ear.

"I have many more ways to torture people. Do you want to try them all?"

My fingertips slid down along his solid chest. Even such a light force would leave red marks when penetrating his skin, which was very irritating in contrast to the whiteness of his other skin. When I reached the right spot, I put my hands around him. No matter how aggrieved he looked on his face, his body was more honest than his. I held his hand with my other hand and let him touch me, and another layer of blush appeared on his face.

"Is it people outside who want to see you do this, or is it you who want to do this?" he asked again.

I sighed and put my other hand around his waist, tightening my grip around him. Suddenly he was speechless and I didn't want to answer either, so he finally took the initiative and hugged me for a deep kiss.

The person steamed by the hot spring water was almost unconscious, and my body was covered with red patches. He let go of the kiss in a daze, pointed at the skin in front of me, and finally laughed after choking for a long time.

"It looks like it has bloomed," he commented, gently touching the scalded area. The moisture had completely penetrated into the area, making it difficult to pick the petals off.

I put my arms around his neck, I couldn't bear to see him liking it but not wanting it, so I immediately kissed his body and gave him a bright crabapple petal in an instant.

The spring water was too hot to hold on any longer, so he pulled me out of the water, carried me around the waist and took me to the bedroom in the back hall. I don't know if it was the cold wind that sobered him up, but the sweet and loving man in the last second suddenly changed his expression and became silent. He kissed me gently, and while I was still waiting for him, he got into the bed, covered himself with the quilt and turned his head away.

"What's wrong?" I asked, hugging him sideways.

"Didn't you smell the incense by the pool?" He glanced back at me. Seeing that I wasn't surprised even if I understood, his eyes widened for only a moment before he understood what I meant. He drooped his eyebrows in disappointment and said, "It was the people outside who wanted you to do this, not you."

"What's the difference? For us, it's just a necessary part of life. We are all happy and haven't suffered any harm. Isn't that enough?" I said a little irritably.

Jiang Yinan ignored me and turned his back to me, sulking. I thought about it and felt that it was really unfair to him, so I slowly took a step back and took the initiative to hug him, putting my palms on his chest, biting his collarbone and sucking it, but he still remained unmoved. I tried everything I could, but no one can really force a person who is not interested in it, and no one else would really stare at our bed curtains anyway, so I let it go and lay down on the other side.

"If you don't want to, I won't force you. Just go to sleep." I lay on my side with my back to him.

I really didn't think about what to do next, but he turned over again and pinched my ankles, as if he was gritting his teeth in hatred and didn't want to see me really give up, so he forced himself to get something.

He took out a tissue and carefully wiped two fingers on his right hand.

"Do you love me?" he asked. I couldn't say a word because of something stuck in my throat. He smiled bitterly and stopped bothering with words. He reached down and wiped the sweat-soaked hair on my forehead with his left hand: "Don't be afraid."

I bit my knuckles without making any sound. He couldn't tell whether he loved me or hated me. His flesh bitten through my fingers and almost made me faint. My head felt like it was exploding. He let me go before the main event even started and I couldn't stop crying. I hugged my knees and huddled against the head of the bed. I looked up and saw my wrists were bruised and pinched. They were even more creepy than when he had been tied up for two days.

"See, it's not that I don't want to, it's that you don't want to." He sat there and said quietly, "I can feel it from time to time. Every time we get close, as long as you don't take the initiative, you are very scared. But you are not afraid of me. What are you afraid of?"

"Nothing, I'm just nervous..." I was scared by his words, but fortunately Jiang Yinan didn't seem to plan to take the next step, and since it wasn't the first time, he wasn't so pretentious. I wiped away a few tears and lay down to sleep again, but at this moment he was dragged back by the ankle.

He quickly took the handcuffs from the bag I sent and trapped me, but just when I begged for mercy, he passed through from another place, with a thick slippery hand next to my fatal weakness, leaned down, and bit the soft flesh on my shoulder.

"I said I would wait for you until the wedding is over."

I held his waist in silence, unable to move forward or backward, stuck in the middle. I think he must be feeling bad, and he tolerated me to this point. I had nothing to say. If he wanted to use another method, he could do it. I didn’t regret it until I woke up at twelve o’clock the next day...

It is common to miss breakfast perfectly, but it was the first time I missed lunch. To be precise, it was not that I missed it, but that I opened my eyes at a very late moment. Jiang Yinan was really quick. I was awakened by the smell of rice. I smelled the smell not in the west courtyard but in the room. I looked up and saw that Jiang Yinan was almost putting together a plate on the table in the room.

"Awake?" His expression was very calm, as if nothing had happened: "I saw you were sleeping soundly, so I didn't wake you up. I told my second uncle and the others that you were too sleepy, so you didn't eat with us. My second uncle asked me to bring it to you. You can sleep but you can't skip meals."

"You said that in front of the whole family?" I was completely shocked.

However, Jiang Yinan still looked innocent and shrugged: "I just said you were sleepy, I didn't say anything else."

Oh my god, why didn't he think about why I could be so sleepy that I couldn't get up after a day of rest at home...

What a shame!