Fall in love with your enemy

The next time, Gao Xinci called me and asked me what "I won't marry her" meant. I didn't know much about it. When I saw the invitation, I hoped it was a joke. But at night, it was still... What a joke.

I don’t know why, but I burst out laughing suddenly, but it wasn’t out of gloating or any other emotion. Laughing was just an action. After laughing, I realized that everything became more ridiculous.

"Oh." I didn't know what to say back, so I just threw it back with this modal word.

Gao Xinci said reluctantly: "There is no affection between us at all times. I will never do anything that will make you unhappy, but I need this wedding. I have no other alternative. I don't want to do it." I don’t know whether I should send you that invitation, but I’m afraid you’ll be sad about it, but I think you’ll know sooner or later, so I think I’d better tell you personally that I hope you can come. I’ll tell you when it’s over. After explaining everything clearly, I will separate from Song Fei. There has always been an equal exchange of interests between me and her."

"Do you want to see if I will look back?" I replied after listening carefully.

The speed of chopping vegetables in my hand slowed down. When I was most upset, I simply put down the kitchen knife and straightened my mood. During this process, Gao Xinci remained silent. All I could hear from the other end of the phone was his choked voice. Breathing is still very weak.

I found that I was even more afraid that he still loved me.

But I can't do it anymore. I didn't have the heart to leave back then, and now I can't even abandon everything for him.

So he sighed and said more seriously: "You won't marry her, but I'm getting married Xin Ci. I'm sorry that I did something to make you unhappy. From the moment I accepted his proposal, I never regarded this marriage as a Child's play or exchange of interests, I know that in your position, you have to do many things, and this is what I ask you to do, because I hope that you can obtain as much happiness as possible while ensuring the integrity of your life. "

"But as I said back then, happiness does not only include love, nor does one have to love only one person in a lifetime. In terms of love, I think I have completely lost because I have lost too much. I have no backing, so I don’t dare to take risks anymore. Life is very stable for me now. Reading silently is good, and I’m fine. If you call me and need me to accept or reject, I’ve already said it. I hope you can come to our wedding, and I will send you an invitation then.”

Gao Xinci was silent for a long time, so long that I thought he had hung up the phone and the steak was cooked. I turned off the fire and found a plate to put it on, and then he asked: "When is the wedding date?"

"It's probably October or November. The season is not very good and it's a bit cold. However, the Fu family's important ceremonies have always been Chinese-style. Chinese-style wedding clothes are not cold, and the winter in Jinhai is not cold either."

"If it is your decision, then I wish you the best. I hope you are really happy." Gao Xinci took a deep breath and said.

happy? Maybe, now that I have reached this point, I am much less happy, but all my weaknesses are gone, and I do feel the freedom of life for the first time.

I smiled: "I don't want to say anything that breaks the bottom line, but I hope you can understand that I really hope that both of us can be happy. If there is nothing else, I will hang up first. If there is anything else at work, , let’s say good night when we meet in two days.”

"Good night."

It was an almost calm conversation, but my heart was in turmoil. What do I mean by what I described as crossing the bottom line? Is it to cover up the fact of "mental cheating" in the current love? I might have been able to accept it with peace of mind just now, but when I turned around and saw my lover soaking in the rising mist with warm water and holding the red thread tightly, at that moment a pile of emotions poured into my heart. What is it?

Guilty? remorse? Still guilty.

"Baby, do you see that all the wounds on my body are healed? You can't see them at all."

He stood at the door with a smile. Only the lower part of his waist was loosely wrapped in a thin bath towel. Almost every part, even the covered and curved curves, were exposed and were specially shown to me.

Yes, all his old injuries have been removed, and mine have all healed. We are two people who share the same illness and work together to get out of the nightmare.

My eyelids twitched twice, I smiled, turned around, and returned my attention to the fried steak. I was stunned for a while, thinking that he still needed a glass of juice.

"No more, it's good." I replied, but was suddenly interrupted by him again.

"Why are you crying?" He asked, and then walked over quickly, held my face and wiped it. Then, he understood something in an instant: "Who were you calling just now? Did I, listen? "What shouldn't you hear?" He asked me with an unclear expression, "Is this why you're crying? Can you show me?"

He pointed at the phone. I had no reason to refuse. I was afraid of destroying the balance in my heart, but I still gave it to him. I was very tired. I took another orange from the refrigerator and cut it: "The doctor said, you Need to supplement vitamins..."

"If I force you, will you forgive me?" He suddenly said, which sounded confusing at first, but soon became clear: "If you never accept me, will we live like this for the rest of our lives?" , I really need you to give me, I have nothing, I only have you. Sometimes, I am also afraid of being abandoned. If you love me, then I can bet for you. No matter how you look at me from the outside, I will admit it. , but do you love me? You never seemed to say it. If he didn't show up, I might have been able to wait a few more years, but I can't do it now. "

With tears in my eyes, I didn't dare to speak out, and I couldn't speak out. I couldn't lie. Should I say that I didn't love him or that I would never forgive him? I can't bear the consequences of his impulsiveness. But it seems that he didn't need my consent in the first place.

There was a sudden chill on my back, and before I had time to react, he had already pushed me onto the table. His coat was torn off, leaving only a black suspender nightgown. I stretched out my hands and lay on that piece, and he gave me My results are really, really cold...

I can't make any resistance anymore. I'm sorry, it's you, Du Du, or Jiang Yinan. Maybe I didn't make the right choice from the beginning. I don't know what the right choice is for me. I escaped all the known answers in a twists and turns, and ran into a direction where I couldn't see the future at all. I didn't get an honor that truly belongs to me, and I didn't deserve any emotion in my life. I'm so sorry, I can only cry. , all I can do is cry.

At that moment, the silence was heartbreaking.

How does it feel to punish me? His lips and teeth gently rubbed against the skin on his back bit by bit, opening the innermost layer and chewing on the silk. After a moment of pain, he suddenly let go, and his fingers touched every part of his body. The parts wandered around, finally staying in one place, teasing and teasing me, then turning me around, leaning against his arms, my breath bounced back against his neck, and the skin on my face was warm. He bit the flesh on my shoulder, sucking until it was numb. He held my face and looked at him.

"Baby, please taste me, please taste me, please?"

"I'm sorry." I looked into his eyes: "I can't do it..."

He sneered, helpless, sighed deeply, picked me up and walked towards the room again. The bite wound ached faintly, and I waited blankly. When he laid me down, he touched my hair. He comforted me at all, then climbed up and continued, holding my hand, biting the knuckle of my index finger, sucking and licking it. He didn't think this was the perfect result, or that he was letting me go. Suddenly he lay down next to him.