Fall in love with your enemy

Dreams are an emptiness to escape reality, burying hatred, resentment, greed, and despair. When you fall into a dream, you can see the people you want to see and do the impossible.

At first, I often wanted to fall into this paradise, relying on drugs and alcohol to fall asleep. Gradually, I even began to fear the moment when I woke up and the hole broke, as if the whole body was engulfed by flames, and I forgot when I was My brother woke me up. In short, the three years after being separated from Gao Xinci were not very comfortable. Even though he gradually behaved like ordinary people and accepted everything around him, he was just deliberately hiding what was deep in his heart. He only had dreams. Only then can I dare to release him.

When I really got the news that I was going to see him again, I suddenly felt that time was fleeting. It had already been three years.

I was awakened by a sudden touch. I don’t know if it was because we really wanted to meet each other. I didn’t have any dreams last night. I patted my chest and struggled to get up from the bed. I looked out the window. It was all gray. Only then did I remember that the weather forecast said it would be cloudy today and rain at night. Even though it was summer, the rain would still be cold, so I wrapped myself in quilt and wanted to change out of my pajamas. After a while, I went out, but my hands moved to my side. As soon as he touched it, it was a warm body.

Jiang Yinan lay quietly beside me and fell asleep, breathing evenly and smiling slightly in his sleep.

I flipped my hair, and there was a dull pain in my head, so I knocked. I had forgotten that he was always like this. He didn't dare to do it in the first year, but it seemed that he started to treat him better in the second year. At night, he would quietly come to my bed to sleep with his quilt in his arms. He didn’t do anything or disturb me. He just wanted to squeeze in beside me. I used to talk about him, but that’s all now.

Back to reality, especially after seeing Jiang Yinan, it was like a bucket of cold water was poured down on me. I didn’t miss Gao Xinci that much. I knew it was impossible. Both parties were engaged. He wanted to I am responsible for Song Fei, and I am also responsible for Jiang Yinan. Living a good life is the serious thing. In fact, whether you are in love or not, it will be like that after you get married. Just be safe.

Should I persuade myself like this? I'm not sure, but for now, I have to say that everyone's life is quiet.

The air conditioner wasn't on, and it was a bit cold without the quilt. I stopped thinking about it, glanced back at Jiang Yinan, and helped him cover him with the quilt more tightly. As soon as my hand touched him, he smiled and shrank his neck to hide.

"Are you awake?" I smiled helplessly along with him and touched his hair: "You're still pretending to be asleep when you're awake. Why did you come to my bed again? The air conditioner in my house is broken and hasn't been repaired yet. It's not cold. ah?"

"It's cold, so I'm here to warm your bed." Jiang Yinan smiled vaguely, took my hand to his lips and kissed it, feeling extremely aggrieved for a moment: "You don't come back often, and I won't see you for even a month. I just want to sleep with you without even seeing you."

"I'll come back to see you whenever I'm free." I comforted him but felt guilty at the same time.

"Hmph, I don't believe it. Shang Linyuan, Lanshan Garden, Xieyu Shuhe, three places running back and forth. I greet you every day, but I am the least one here. Why? Sensible children don't have candy? "

I bit the tip of my tongue and couldn't make a sound. After thinking for a long time, I managed to make up something I could hear: "Hey, then... my brother always dragged me home over there at Lanshan Garden, and Xieyushu and Chengcheng over there He is waiting for me again, he is very sensible... Oh, and Yangyang, Yangyang is still young. As a sister, I don’t have to visit him often? We are about to live separately, and there are still a few days left before we can return to our parents’ home.”

"Okay, I believe you for now. Then you can sleep with me for a while. It's still early. Why are you going out so early? There's no one in the company."

Jiang Yinan stuck out his tongue, stretched out his arms to hug me and lay down, then slipped out and got into my bed, hugging me tightly with both hands. I shrank my shoulders, and I got used to it after a while, so he could hold me as he pleased. He always checks to see if I can hide first. If I don't resist, he will continue with peace of mind. This time, too, he took a long breath before hugging me tighter.

For a long time, he rubbed the spot between my ear and collarbone, biting the soft flesh on my shoulder and licking it. I held on to his arm to hold it in. Maybe he felt it was getting better, so he separated slightly and just kissed me. A soft, hoarse voice fell on my earlobe: "Baby, you smell so good, I like you so much."

I couldn't say a response, so I had to turn to my side and hug him. He pushed away the fine hair from my forehead, put his arms around the back of my neck and wanted to kiss me. I also stayed away, leaning against my shoulders and not daring to look at him. He just smiled softly, caressed his cheek and looked me up and down carefully, as if admiring a trophy, and finally touched my cheek sideways with his lips.

"Kiss me." He gently pinched the flesh on my chin, with expectation overflowing in his eyes and a blazing gaze that seemed to swallow me whole. His thumb fell on my lips, and he flicked them down, forcing I opened.

I raised my head and looked at him longingly, but he didn't change his expression, so I had no choice but to hold his cheek and kiss his cheek seriously as well.

I didn't dare to go back to Shang Linyuan, and that was what I was afraid of. In the past three years, I finally agreed to my relationship with him. The period of filial piety is coming soon, and I have reached the legal age for marriage. My second uncle is urging me to have a child and wait for my father's birth. As soon as the anniversary of the death passed, the first thing that hit me was marriage. It is self-evident what marriage means. He has been waiting for three years to do something between husband and wife. It’s not that I don’t know, but I just can’t let go and can’t do it. arrive.

Thinking about it, I said goodbye to Gao Xin after being together for more than a year. I can’t say whether I should thank Jiang Yinan for waiting for me for three years. It’s normal to refuse to have sex before marriage, but the reason I feel the most regretful about is this. It's not a physical problem. I know that physical contact is an insurmountable barrier. The reason is that I haven't accepted him as a person in my heart.

I tried very hard to fall in love with him. In the past three years, I have heard a lot of stories about his past. He was also very good to me. Almost the whole world revolved around me. But for some reason, I just can’t find the past. It seems that my biggest concession to him is "acceptance", and this acceptance is just that he is called "uncle" outside or at home. In fact, I can't give him anything.

Jiang Yinan was not aggrieved by this. He still held my hand greasyly and moved it to his lips. He held my knuckles in his mouth to warm them for a while, and then rubbed them again and again.

The kitten was rescued in time. Just when he was embarrassed, Rongrong rushed into the room, stretched out his paws and scratched the bed board, and couldn't stop shouting "meow". Jiang Yinan was pleasantly surprised. For a moment, I let go and looked under the bed.

"Where did this kitten come from? Did you buy it?" He smiled and put the kitten on the bed, and turned on the small lamp beside the bed. Under the light, the kitten's hair shone with a golden light. As expected, he liked it. Very quickly, he leaned down and gently rubbed the cat's head.

"Well, didn't you already say you wanted to keep one? You came back early last night, so you passed by the pet store and went in to take a look." I responded.

It was indeed because of him that I entered the pet shop, but when I saw this fat and cute golden tangerine, what came to my mind was the big orange that I raised with Gao Xinci when I got married in my previous life. Unfortunately, I didn't keep it for long. I was crushed to death by a car. I cried for a few days and gradually forgot about it. I suddenly remembered it when I saw this one yesterday.

Feeling lonely again, I sighed quietly and returned to normal before Jiang Yinan looked up at me again. He hugged me and gave me a good hug.

"Thank you, baby. I take every word to heart. You are so kind to me." Jiang Yinan said with a smile, his eyes turning into slits.

I responded with a smile. Fortunately, he never thought that I was clumsy and perfunctory at times. After kissing my forehead, his attention shifted to the kitten. He asked the kitten its name, and then he kept saying "RongRong". "RongRong" shouted.