Fall in love with your enemy

Continuing from the last time, I forgot how I came home in a daze. The request made by silent reading was that Gao Xinci and I broke up. Just after I said something, the two of them almost started fighting again. Fortunately, it was Feng Shizhi who gave it to his second uncle. After reporting the news, the second uncle called and sent everyone away, otherwise we don’t know what the trouble would be.

However, the end of the scene does not mean that the matter is over. It means that I still have to think about the so-called "requirements" silently, as if a knife has been pressed against Gao Xinci's neck. I want to save him, But at the end of the day, I have to leave him. The most important thing is that Gao Xinci cannot accept my so-called "good intentions."

After my brother received the news, he told me that he would come to pick me up and go home. But Gao Xinci had just received the breakup signal, how could he let me go so easily? He didn't listen to a word and grabbed my wrist and got into the car. On the way It was difficult to endure. My wrist was so painful that he didn't let go for a second, which made me feel for a moment that he was venting his anger on me.

He said he didn't hate me, but in fact, his fear and hatred for Silent Reading were not used in the confrontation between them. He really showed Silent Reading victory by ravaging me wantonly, gaining the right to execute my body, and leaving behind Marks, taking me and these marks to proclaim his love, he used extremely cold silence and strong sexual desire to make up for the dissatisfaction of his failure in me.

But what about me?

I often want to ask this question. I always think that I am his wife. Sex is just the simplest point in a couple's life. Gao Xinci is his nature whether he is angry or not. His needs are already very high, but He said he loved me, so why couldn't he accommodate me once when I didn't want to?

While I was dumbfounded, Gao Xinci had already pulled me out of the car. He had wanted to kidnap me since the show ended. Liang Sen and Feng Shizhi didn't catch up with him, and he didn't follow him. When I spoke, the strong intention of occupying and plundering hit my face. Most of the time I couldn't get angry when he was like this. I was only afraid. Even if I knew it was unfair to me, I would only dare to retort. For a moment.

Gao Xinci felt that it was a bit difficult to hold my hand. He glanced back at me coldly, and I relaxed. He turned his back and sighed. After not taking two steps, he turned back and hugged me away.

Gao Xinci took me back to the small courtyard and rushed everyone out of the courtyard. He hugged me back to the room and didn't even wait for me to go to bed. When he entered the door, he pressed me against the cushion in the cloakroom.

It is a small sofa the size of two stools put together. I usually just sit on it occasionally when changing clothes, so I didn't buy a big one. It only has enough space for my body and thighs to lie on, and my calves are extended outside. Gao Xinci held on to it. I moved my calves to the sides with my ankles, just enough to separate my legs without taking up any space. One of his knees was in the middle, so I couldn't retract, so I could only look at the direction of the ceiling, trembling uncomfortably and waiting.

Wait for him to lift my hands, wait for him to pull off the covering under my skirt, wait for him to bend my legs and hang them around my waist, wait for him to see me crying and whisper in my ear, "Be patient." ".

The songs surrounding the cloakroom seem to confirm the so-called "love" engraved in our hearts.

【Why did you leave me to the desolation, and then save me in a desperate situation】

[Ruining my madness again and again, forgetting every second of you]

[I hate myself for being so useless, but running away is in your direction]

[Like a moth to a flame, thinking that it is hope]

Ren Ran's "Leave It Desolate" is my favorite song she sings. I listen to it on a loop every time until I get tired of it in a year or two, and then play it again, and then continue to loop it. But today, listening to it, I can distinguish these. I hate the lyrics so much. It's a fig leaf of feelings that has been torn apart, revealing the devastation inside. I feel guilty.

I've had enough.

But what I showed to Gao Xinci was a kind of pleading emotion that was ridiculous. I expected him to be soft-hearted, so I cried seriously and hard. I put my hands against him and kissed my lips, saying vaguely: "Xinci , Xin Ci, I'm sorry, I can't... don't do this again, I'm afraid, I'm afraid..."

At first, Gao Xinci planned to continue pressing my hands. He even found two pairs of shiny handcuffs from the cabinet beside him, separated my wrists and handcuffed them to the legs of the stool. The most shameful "big" sign was In front of him, I couldn't take any precautions, but maybe my crying and strong struggle to break free made him annoyed. The teeth biting my ear suddenly let go, and he I stood up straight, blocking out the large light in front of me, and I felt a burst of darkness even with my eyes closed.

I didn't dare to open my eyes and look at him. I could only turn my face sideways and sob softly, choking with regret, until there were two clicks, the pain on my wrists disappeared, and Gao Xinci untied the handcuffs. With contradictory emotions, I suddenly sat up, hugging myself with my hands and shrinking into a ball. I raised my eyes slightly to see his silent expression and then quickly lowered my head, not holding back and crying.

I buried my whole face in my knees, tears bursting down my face, and my clothes suddenly became wet. I didn't care about that anymore. Only when Gao Xinci came again, I moved my position to dodge. , and he was also confused and disappointed by my frightened expression. The hands he wanted to touch trembled and he withdrew them, and finally he only took up a little bit of space on the edge of the stool and sat down. We were each at two extremes and were silent for a long time.

My consciousness sank into chaos, and there was only crying in my ears. It still belonged to me deeply. I was tortured by this feeling and was going crazy. In fact, I never understood it myself. Maybe Gao Xinci had a little bit of my knowledge. I understand that it's a sexual fetish, but it won't really hurt me. The only difference between his behavior and his usual behavior is that he doesn't talk to me. We will get back to normal life soon, as if nothing happened.

But I'm just afraid.

I don't understand, and neither does Gao Xinci.

He took a deep breath and sighed, and neatly put on the coat that had fallen on the ground, making a clanking sound. I have rarely seen him control himself to stop when he is angry, especially with the memory of his previous life. I looked up at him expectantly, met his eyes, and then suddenly retracted. In my peripheral vision, I caught a glimpse of him squatting down slowly. After thinking about it, he grabbed my ankle and dragged me over.

"Ah..." I clenched my fists and gasped. I realized the shame and swallowed it back. Before I could reach out my hand to cover my face, he grabbed my wrist and pressed it down. At this moment, I had to open my eyes to look at him. He pulled me to him. Sitting at that extreme, my legs happened to hang around his waist.

"Shishi." Gao Xinci lowered his head and called me first, but he felt how difficult it was. His eyes were also red. He waited for a long time before he continued with the next sentence: "I think we should explain things clearly. , although I feel that we have talked about this topic many times, even if it is useless so many times, I just want to ask you! I don’t understand! We have been married for seven years, seven years! Plus two years in this life , I remember every bit of getting along with you, I still don’t understand, what did I do wrong? What are you afraid of me?!"

"I'm afraid that when you're angry, you'll take it out on me indiscriminately! You've never ignored my sadness or my prayers. I've never even been able to express my resistance to you in a normal way of communication! You should tell me that I did something wrong. What's wrong! Aren't I defending you without any bottom line! I didn't cheat! You always use the excuse that you are insecure to pressure me, but what about me? Have you ever thought about it? I will give you everything I have Now, what retreat do I have? Can I feel that you love me? Am I not afraid? Gao Xinci, just because we are married, does this not count as..."