Fall in love with your enemy

Continuing from the previous episode, I can confirm that Gao Xinci has also been reborn, and it couldn’t be more obvious from his completely different behavior from usual.

Indeed, after seven years of husband and wife, my love for him must have been deeper in the last life than in this life. But at the same time, I also hated him more in the previous life. I don’t understand why I have such big differences towards the same person. difference?

Maybe emotionally I just want to ask him to take a step back, just one step, to give me a chance to breathe.

He loves me in this life, and he will take the initiative to take a step back for me, no matter how many steps he takes. The premise for us to love each other is to respect each other, but the previous life was abnormal. I drove Gao Xinci to a dead end, so he didn't Let me go.

Not loving is a dead end, and so is oppression.

I turned my back seemingly calmly, and when the huge tears rolled down, I didn't even notice it. It wasn't until they fell on my palms that they were burned extremely painfully, and I came back to my senses and quietly erased those traces.

I realized that I hated him. When he came back, I realized that I hated him. Why can love and hate change so quickly?

Why did Gao Xinci bring up remarriage? Did he know that the prerequisite for remarriage was divorce? Why did he want to open up those scars that had lasted for many years? I almost forgot that I fell in love with a new him purely and completely. Why would he bring back everything in the past? Why should he come back?

I was horrified to find that compared to the grief I felt for him, my sadness for my own rebirth, my sadness for silent reading, and even my heartache for Chengcheng, I couldn’t apply any of these most appropriate feelings to Gao Xinci. I only had one Drowning in the heart-wrenching despair.

I didn't reply to him, and just went to put the white porridge that had just been delivered into a bowl. I stirred it again and again with a spoon. The boiling hot air came up and made me burst into tears. So I didn't dare to look at Gao Xin anymore. She resigned, keeping her face out of his sight as much as possible, and lowering her head lower and lower.

Seeing that I remained silent, Gao Xinci reluctantly tugged at the corner of my clothes again. I dodged, and he forced me to hold my hand tightly: "I don't want a divorce."

"Husband, I wasn't the one who initiated the divorce in the first place..." I said calmly, suppressing my sobs.

Perhaps this is the greatest tragedy of our marriage.

When I didn't love him because of love, a cup of drugs forced me to accept my wife's identity. When I argued so much that I never thought about divorce, someone came to force me to give up this love.

My mother-in-law had endured it for many years and finally had enough. When Gao Xin and I quit the cold war and my family disliked me, a piece of divorce agreement was placed in front of me, which gave me a good idea of ​​​​divorce.

I don’t know if it was worth it for me to make such a fuss over a few pieces of paper. I divorced Gao Xinci. I told him that since he suspected that he was cheating on me since he didn’t love me anymore, he could just get divorced. I I don’t want anything. I just want to leave him completely. He refused. He struggled a few times, then left me and turned around to walk away. Then, it was the loss that we had been looking forward to for many years and that we both thought would never happen. Come again kid.

I even named the child. My child just wants to be safe, so An’an’s name is Gao Youan, and this child wants to be named Gao Youning.

Unfortunately, he's not even formed yet.

I was wronged, and after the trouble, it was me and my children who suffered.

I recalled that we got divorced in anger that afternoon. It was a little calmer in the evening, and we originally wanted to have a good talk. Who knew, we started arguing again, and he left. The company had a power outage and I fell down in the dark. It's funny that I thought that if I had a child, I would be able to get him to come back to me. It really hurt me to death.

After being heartbroken, I dragged my bloody body to find Brother Shu, even though all he had was a tombstone. The tombstone was the only thing that could give me warmth at that time.

It's a pity that I didn't see him for the last time, and I became a cold tombstone, but I should be buried next to him.

Gao Xinci didn't say anything anymore. He had learned some experience from his previous marriage: calm down and keep calm.

If you really can't finish one topic, just change it to another.

"How did you get here?" I asked after a pause.

Gao Xinci took the bowl out of my hand, held my legs and carried me onto the bed, and leaned in his arms. He seemed to organize his words for a while before speaking: "I miss you."

"The process is not the reason." I smiled helplessly, turned sideways and hugged him, placed my fingers on his chest and traced it carefully. Maybe I felt it was too cold, so I added: "I miss you too."

"Burned to death." Gao Xinci's explanation was still concise and clear. He leaned down and kissed my forehead, his smile suddenly became extremely mocking: "I went to patrol the store, and there was a fire. People outside asked me to get out. I was I wanted to leave, but I didn’t want to anymore, so I just stayed there. No one could save me when the fire got big. My mother set a fire in Fu’s house back then. I wonder if she would think about it after I die. Is this retribution? Retribution is on me."

I couldn't help feeling sad about this, but I still didn't answer his question. I thought about it and asked again, "Where's An'an?"

"I entrusted it to my cousin before going to work. After you left, he not only took care of his own family, but also stayed around An An all day long. Fu Shuyu died, and he is the only one I trust enough to hand over An An."

Speaking of children, it seems that I feel a little more emotional about my own death. An An was six years old when I died. Gao Xinci left two years later, and An An was only eight years old. However, she is somewhat grown up and needs her parents the most. Time has passed, and at his uncle's house, he will probably be more obedient and sensible. His brother's two children are two or three years older than him, and they can also be companions.

An An is an only child. In the future, my property will belong to Gao Xinci and Chengcheng. Chengcheng has no children. He already made a will and left all his property to An An. These three strong properties will belong to him. , plus her brother’s tutoring, An An doesn’t have to worry about the future.

As a mother, I can finally relax a little bit.

Just as I was thinking about it, Gao Xinci squeezed my palm and repeated what he said before: "Shishi, let's get married again."

"Why do you have to insist on the topic of remarriage? You haven't slept since last night until now. Have you been waiting there? Get some sleep."

I only had the intention of retreating, as if I was convinced that as long as Gao Xinci came back, this relationship would end in vain. I even thought about it when I chose to be with him at the beginning. I knew that there would be no good outcome in the end, so I would still choose him. ? But then I thought again, I live in this family, can I not get married? Can I live alone? I have to choose, and I don’t have a better choice than Gao Xinci. I carry the memories of the past. I love him more and it would be nice if he changes a little. Anyway, I can’t live long, even if his love has an expiration date. ?

I loved him and I felt happy with him, and that was enough.

But my God, I have broken through so many things that prevent us from being together. Why do I have to let us go back to the shackles of the previous life at this moment?

Can remarriage erase everything from the previous life?

Did I divorce him just out of anger? Just saying remarriage can solve the problem.

But Gao Xinci wouldn't let me escape. I wanted to turn my back, but he grabbed my waist and turned me back.

"I need an answer."

"The answer is that we have nothing to start with in this life, Xin Ci, there is nothing that can stop you. I don't hate you, and I won't embarrass you. You can have a better choice from the beginning."