Concave and Convex World: The Wind of Freedom

Fortunately, Shen Yun is still an adult, so he doesn't need to worry too much about many things. He also gradually understood the child's general personality, the sadness of not being able to play with his peers, being disliked by people other than Lei Shi, but unable to understand what the disgusted eyes meant. This child Shen Yun seemed to be trapped in In this powerless body, he became weird and irritable, withdrawn and silent.

It is true that she is curious about many things, but after being curious, the experience of not being treated like a normal child will soon make her shed tears, cry and hug Lei Shi tightly, or make a fuss and hurt everyone around her. people.

Lei Shi taught her as much as possible, teaching her manners and daily food and clothing.

But maybe deep down in his heart, he had never accepted the fact that Shen Yun could not go back. He did not regard this child Shen Yun as a real child. How could the child in his body regard him as a child?

She's like a monster.

Not the child, nor Shen Yun.

Her soul has stopped in the past, and her body will slowly grow old over time, just like Lei Shi.

He is old, but she is still a child.

Lei Shi regretted it a little.

His life was a mess, which was not what he wanted, but because he loved her, he used all his life savings to take care of her and love her without any complaints. For this reason, he not only abandoned his original social environment, and even took the initiative to lose his job. He clearly owed her nothing.

Shen Yun would be noisy when eating. Like all active children, occasionally he would sit next to her after she had eaten and drank enough and lay down, thinking that it would be better if she didn't exist and never knew her from the beginning. .

Too tired, too irritable, what benefit did he get from raising a giant baby?

No matter how good he was to her, remember him, it was not Shen Yun who loved him, he was just a child.

He couldn't bear to hurt her, so he could only bear her temper silently every time she was in a bad mood, crying, tearing his hair, and beating the hand holding the spoon everywhere. This was his choice, and he couldn't regret it.

But there is always a time limit, and the scene of Shen Yun's suicide pierced his heart like a sharp thorn. Shen Yun has left, and she is not the one who will accompany him from now on.

He looked at the person who accompanied him day and night, and he was not happy at all, because he knew clearly that it was no longer his lover, but just an empty body.

What he loves is Shen Yun, the Shen Yun who is timid, timid and has low self-esteem, but also loves what he thinks and thinks extremely much. He is the Shen Yun who is willing to try for his goals, and is determined to move forward with repeated encouragement.

But now she can't walk anymore.

She could no longer spread her wings and fly freely like a bird.

She is stuck in the past.

Lei Shi would often sit alone in the bedroom, looking out the window, staring blankly at the wind blowing into the room like those lonely people. Those are the eyes of those who want to experience a better life. These are things he already has, but since he started life and had a child to take care of, he has not traveled, he has not run wildly in the afternoon sun and rapped happily with friends. Obviously taking care of children should not be such a thing. It was a narrow and depressing thing, but he still felt...

He seemed out of breath.

Maybe he's sick and needs to see a doctor.

"Thunder Lion!"

Shen Yun called him and rushed into the room, walked next to him and blinked, "Why don't you come out and play games with me!"

Yes, Shen Yun is usually at home. In order to have more free time, he bought many toys.

She seems to be very fond of chess recently, although she doesn't know how to do it at all. She is always racking her brains like a dementia patient, trying unbalanced body, and hesitantly placing a piece.

After eating one of his chess pieces, he will smile happily. If he is eaten by the Thunder Lion, he will frown and start pounding the table irritably.

Lei Shi asked her why she must practice chess, and she always answered nonchalantly, because... she wanted to beat you!

Lei Shi repeated, why it must be chess and not others.

She rolled her eyes, as if this question was difficult for her. As she thought about it, she would have a bitter look on her face, and said aggrievedly, "I don't know..."

Lei Shi laughed.

He knows, of course he does.

I love you so much, how could you not love me at all? Look, you still remember me, don’t you?

You were slurring your words and learning how to call others, but when you said my name, you seemed to have said it silently in your heart many times, and you spoke it so smoothly.

Shen Yun, I want to stay with you for a while longer.

So that I can fulfill my promise forever.

……

On this day, he took Shen Yun to the river as usual, to the place where they kissed her for the first time at night.

The night wind was as cool as that day.

How long have you been here? It seems that it has been more than ten years.

After more than ten years, he was almost forty years old.

Shen Yun, look, we are already an old couple.

The mature man's face was angular in the moonlight. He chuckled a few times, then burst into laughter.

Shen Yun couldn't help but ask him, "Why are you laughing?"

"Xiaoyun." Lei Shi knelt down and touched her head as usual, "How old are you this year?"

"I'm...five years old!"

"Awesome."

"What's wrong?" Shen Yun seemed to have noticed something was wrong and said strangely, "Oh... do you want to eat my birthday cake? You still have to... well, we still have to celebrate, one, two, three... we still have to celebrate Six months!”

"Then you must be five and a half."

"Oh, five and a half."

Lei Shi led her into the river and sat down, "Isn't the moon beautiful?"

"Not beautiful."

"why?"

"The moon is too white." Shen Yun looked up at the night sky, "I like the sun. It doesn't want the surroundings to be dark, it wants to be shining like the sun."

Lei Shi laughed again.

"But I prefer the dark night. The moonlight dispels all the blackness. Don't you think it's beautiful?"

"do not like."

They sit together.

Lei Shi suddenly hugged her and kissed her forehead.

Under Shen Yun's doubtful eyes, he held her hand.

Pushed her into the river.

The splashing water reflected white in the moonlight.

Our love ends here, just like this, more than ten years is enough.

The female body was flopping in the water, and Shen Yun, who had not learned any self-rescue measures, quickly sank.

Lei Shi also jumped down. He took her hand, hugged her like before, and sank into the water with her.

So be it.

Let time stay in this moment forever.

That way I will hold your hand forever.

Never let go again.