After she died, Mr. Bo knelt in front of the tombstone and cried like a dog.

Boring?

Yes, she is boring, very boring.

Nan Chu smiled faintly: "Mr. Lu, you can find someone who is more energetic to play this kind of casual game with you. I am not in the mood to accompany you."

Lu Zhilu made Ji Yang, that idiot, drink a lot of wine that night, and he inevitably drank a lot as well. The alcohol fermented and surged in his body, and he fell to the edge of the bed with a somewhat unsteady step.

Although the plaster and splint on the leg were removed some time ago, the wound still hurts slightly due to the stimulation of alcohol because the recovery time was not long enough.

There was only a small row of spotlights in the room, the light was dim, and the warm glow surrounded him, but there was not much warmth on his face.

He looked up at her, with a hint of sarcasm on his lips: "Just give it a try? Do you think I want to try it with every ex I break up with? I admit that I am not a good person, but I am not so mean as to unilaterally play with a woman's feelings."

When it comes to love, you get what you give.

Lu Zhilu is a very realistic person. If the woman in front of him really has no feelings for him anymore, then no matter how much he likes her, he is reluctant to pester her because it is boring and meaningless. He is not good at and is not willing to be an affectionate bootlicker.

But there were some things that he had been holding back for a long time, and he couldn't help but say them: "In the three years of marriage, have I ever played tricks on you? In these three years, I don't think I have done anything to let you down. The only thing I owe you is that you were unhappy when Ye Xuechu came back and I had business dealings with her, and I didn't stand in your shoes and consider your feelings. But Nanchu, have you ever considered my feelings?"

"You and Grandpa lied to me and hid things from me, using our marriage as a deal, and even using our children as a tool to pay off your debts. Okay, your family is in trouble and you have no choice, but these problems are not caused by me. If you just move your lips and soften your attitude and tell me that you need my help, I will help you solve the mess in your family."

"It's true that we didn't get married because of love, but in three years, even a dog would be tamed. What about you? You call me a bastard, okay, I'm a bastard, how much conscience do you have? Just because I blocked Nan Jianan, you think I won't help you anymore, right?"

"Nan Jianan is such a bad person, I think it's not too much for me to block him. But I didn't block you, did I? You blocked me, thinking that I won't care about you anymore, so you turned around and cooperated with my grandfather to plot our marriage."

"But ask yourself honestly, in the three years of marriage, how have I treated you badly? If you say that I don't love you, then there was no one else in my heart during those three years. All those scandals you know about and those bags I bought are all false accusations against me."

"I did plan to live a good life with you, but what about you? Have you ever thought about living a good life with me?"

His tone was calm yet turbulent, like a wave, hitting her hard.

Nan Chu was stunned, and countless doubts exploded in his mind like depth charges.

Without waiting for her to speak.

Lu Zhilu's hoarse voice came again: "Some things I don't say, it doesn't mean I don't know, but I think that's the past. As long as it doesn't interfere with our current and future lives, I don't care."

"In the second year of our marriage, on your birthday, let me take you to the small town of Grindelwald for vacation. That's where you and Su Jingnian agreed to spend the rest of your lives together, right?"

"..."

Her body stiffened for a moment.

How could he know...

Lu Zhilu chuckled mockingly, "You're wondering why I know that, aren't you? Your camera contains a lot of your past with him. You transferred the photos and videos from the camera to the desktop computer in Lanting Villa, but you forgot to clear them and I happened to see them. Everyone has a past in their hearts. I don't mind if you have one, after all, we didn't know each other before. Conversely, I also have a lot of past, and my past relationships are not blank. I never asked you who you were thinking about when you and I were on vacation in the town of Grindelwald."

"I think this kind of thing is fine as long as you know when to stop. But later you got involved with him, again and again. Even if it was Nan Jianan who set you up, I couldn't stand the moment you took the bullet for Su Jingnian."

"To be honest, I hated you and him at that time, and I wanted to take revenge on you. Why did you betray me with him? I was unwilling and jealous, and my pride and desire to win were also at work. I'm not that tolerant and great, and I can't tolerate all this."

"So I sent people to infiltrate Schindler to investigate, and they happened to find some small evidence. It was indeed me who reported and prevented Schindler from going public, and it was indeed not very ethical. But I have never claimed to be a gentleman."

"If you don't even want to give me a chance to try because of Su Jingnian, then I have nothing to say. We can end our relationship right now. I have no objection."

"If it's because of the past scandals, or the collaboration with Ye Xuechu, then I apologize to you. But do you also owe me an apology?"

He said a lot, all of which came from his heart, without a trace of falsehood.

He also disdains to pretend to be a gentleman. Two people who can truly be together for a long time must be the ones who see each other's true nature but are still willing to stay with him.

He is far from being a good person in the secular sense, but he is definitely not a bad person either.

He had been in many relationships, but he was clear about each of them. None of his exes would say bad things about him behind his back, because he was one-on-one in relationships, gave enough emotional and material support, never really felt sorry for the other person, and ended the relationships cleanly without any lingering feelings.

The only thing is that the relationship with Nan Chu is so complicated and confusing. It is really complicated, so complicated that it is hard to tell who is right and who is wrong, and so complicated that someone like him who never looks back actually wants to look back and try.

Nan Chu lowered his head, disappearing into the darkness. He stood there with mixed emotions, digesting them for a long time and remaining silent for a very long time.

She also couldn't figure out how to deal with their relationship.

To say that she likes him, she does, but to say that she loves him deeply, is too far-fetched. Even if those were misunderstandings in the past, she has finally struggled to climb out of it today. Is she going to choose to fall into it again now?

During the six months she had been separated from him, she gradually realized that the desire to be loved was far less important than self-sufficient self-love.

Do we still have to be sad, collapse, or even hate each other like before?

No more.

She doesn't want to think about it anymore.

She took a deep breath and mustered up her courage. At this moment, she completely followed the decision in her heart: "There is no need for us to try again. It has nothing to do with Su Jingnian or Ye Xuechu. Lu Zhilu, being with you makes me very tired and even self-loathing. After leaving you, my life is quite easy. I don't want to apologize to you or say sorry. We apologize to each other, which is also another way of clearing the difference."

Lu Zhilu snorted with a mixed feeling of joy and anger: "Clear? What about Lu Ruzhuo? You gave birth to a child for me, and you're going to settle the matter with me?"

"What do you want?"

In fact, she didn't want to talk to him about these entanglements at all now.

Just one word: tired.

It's like running halfway through a marathon, feeling exhausted and having lost all interest in the race to the finish line.

Lu Zhilu probably also saw through her perfunctory attitude. He wanted to try further, but she simply closed herself off and didn't even think it was necessary to try.

He really didn't like this kind of unwillingness, it was quite boring: "No matter what I want, you won't cooperate, just go away."

Nan Chu swallowed, feeling both relieved and lost. Leaving now would only make him sad for one night, but staying and getting entangled would probably lead to endless pain.

So she turned around and left resolutely.

"I'll go back to the capital to see Lu Ruzhuo next time."

She unlocked the door and was about to leave when the man sitting on the edge of the bed suddenly stood up, endured the dull pain in his legs, strode up to her, grabbed her arm, and locked her in his arms.

His breath was a little hurried, and his voice was suppressed and low, but it was questioning: "If you don't want to continue with me, why did you go to the military hospital to secretly see me when you knew I was injured? If you went there, why didn't you go in? Is it because there are other women in the ward?"