After she died, Mr. Bo knelt in front of the tombstone and cried like a dog.

Bo Hanshi took the small medicine bottle and sat on the sofa.

He took this medicine for a period of time after he was released from prison.

But he had bipolar disorder and later switched to lithium carbonate tablets.

While he was deep in thought, his cell phone rang.

Caller ID: Nanchu.

He answered the phone.

"There is something I haven't told you. Yuyu didn't let me tell you before. Then I thought she might be fine, so I forgot about it. But now that I think about it, it's possible that she committed suicide by jumping into the sea. It’s the depression coming back.”

"Aren't you curious how she and Xie Jun met?"

"Since you were imprisoned, Yuyu has been living an unhappy life. She is too kind and always blames herself and feels guilty. Although she doesn't say it, I can feel that she has been living in the shadows for the past six years."

"Three years ago, she swallowed a lot of sleeping pills because of insomnia and was sent to the hospital for gastric lavage. Fortunately, she was rescued in time. Xie Jun happened to be on duty in the emergency room at that time, and they got to know each other as soon as they went there. But they have nothing to do with each other. If Yuyu wants to have something happen with Xie Jun, it’s been three years since they are friends, and they already have children.”

"Yuyu doesn't dare to pursue happiness at all. She feels she is guilty and she doesn't deserve a new life."

"It was at that time that Yuyu was diagnosed with depression."

"She kept saying that the overdose of sleeping pills three years ago was an accident and she didn't mean it. I naively believed it at that time because I also felt that she was so lovesick that she couldn't bear to die and didn't dare to die at all."

"But now that I think about it, maybe three years ago, she didn't want to live anymore."

"Before Yuyu was eighteen years old, although she lived in the Qiao family, you also know that Qiao Fan valued boys over girls and never cared for her as a daughter. Aunt Wen was kind to Yuyu, but when Yuyu was ten years old, Aunt Wen He was pushed downstairs by Qiao Fan and fell into a vegetative state. He lay there for eleven years."

"So, Yuyu has never enjoyed a good life since she was a child. Probably the year she was with you, Bao Hanshi, was the happiest and happiest time in her life."

"Bao Hanshi, you gave all your love to Qiao Yu, but why not Qiao Yu? Her life has been too bitter, and she finally tasted some sweetness from you, but this sweetness cost her Fate. If I had known that the final result would be like this, I might as well have been suffering and forget it..."

Nan Chu spoke a lot intermittently.

Bo Hanshi on the other end of the phone remained silent.

She didn't know what she said, but Bo Hanshi listened to it for a while.

After a few seconds, the other party hung up the phone.

Maybe it's guilt, but more importantly, maybe it's too sad that I have no words to express.

What should I answer when I feel cold?

He was speechless.

He held the small medicine bottle, his fingers gradually tightened, and his eyes were always scarlet.

He is bipolar and knows clearly how tormenting and painful emotional attacks can be.

Six years... Qiao Yu endured this torture for six years.

He walked into the bedroom. There was an open bucket of instant noodles on the table but not soaked.

She really likes to eat these, instant noodles, spicy hotpot, stir-fried flower armor...the taste has never changed.

I have told her several times to stop eating these.

But in the end, he couldn't help being pestered by her, so he helped her buy these junk foods.

There is a diary on the table.

When Bao Hanshi sat at the table, he couldn't help but flip through it.

He really wanted to know how Qiao Yu got here all these years, or in other words, he really wanted to know if she had left anything behind, even a word.

A word just about him.

There are many entries in the diary, but the first one is from July 2017, 7.

"July 2017, 7, Yin. Today Bo Hanshi was convicted and sentenced to three years in prison. It was all my fault. But the funny thing is, I am pregnant. I know I shouldn't keep this child, but I can't bear it. ,sorry."

"October 2017, 10, sunny. It's been almost four months. My morning sickness was so bad that I didn't want to eat anything. Chuchu went to the snack street in the south of the city and bought me a bowl of small wontons. It was so delicious. Chuchu has always been troubled recently. She accompanied me to my prenatal check-up for the first time, but I don’t know how to repay her in the future.”

"December 2017, 12, heavy snow. It's New Year's Eve tonight. I originally wanted to see him, but I'm pregnant and I'm afraid of being seen. He won't be willing to see me anymore."

"On January 2018, 1, it's cold. Happy New Year. I made dumplings and entrusted them to the prison guard. I begged him for a long time before he was willing to send them in for me. But if you know that I sent these dumplings, , I’ll throw it away.”

"February 2018, 2, Yu. It's a baby girl. She's so cute. Chuchu wants to be the godmother of the child. She asked me what name to give the child. I thought about it for a long time and thought of the saying that this thing is the most loved. Let’s call her Qiao Xiangsi. It’s all my fault that caused little Xiangsi to have no father when she was born.”

"June 2018, 6, Qing. It's that day again, and it seems like I can't do anything except say I'm sorry."

"On December 2018, 12, it snowed again. Xiangsi is ten months old. She is always babbling. After a while, she should be able to talk."

"February 2019, 2, Yin. It's New Year's Eve, and little Xiangsi can actually call her mom. However, I haven't taught her how to call daddy, and she actually calls daddy. It would be great if she heard it when she was cold. But he doesn’t know yet that he has a daughter.”

"July 2019, 7, Qing. I went to a satellite TV station for an internship. I have to earn money for milk powder for little Xiangsi. I have to work hard. I am not alone now."

"August 2019, 8, rain. Why are there so many old fritters in the satellite TV station who like to take advantage of others? I really want to slap him. Forget it, just endure it. It will be miserable if you lose your job. Hold on, Qiao Yu, I’ll change the group next month, and I won’t have to be in the same group as the old fritters anymore.”

"On July 2020, 7, there was a thunderstorm. He was released from prison. I couldn't help it and went anyway. However, I went secretly. He probably didn't see me. I saw Lu Zhilu coming to pick him up. He had lost a lot of weight. It's all my fault, I don't even have the courage to call him now."

"May 2021, 5, Yin. Today the kindergarten called me and said that Xiangsi had a fight with other children. I asked her why she was fighting. She cried and said because others said she was a wild child without a father. I don't know How to comfort her? I can only hold her and cry with her. I'm sorry, Xiangsi, it's all because of me that you have no father and are bullied by others."

"June 2022, 6, sunny. Bo Hanshi's company seems to have gone public. Congratulations. I hope he can start over and get better."

"April 2023, 4, Yu. I was fired by the satellite TV station without reason. The director said that I offended someone who shouldn't be offended. That person should be Bo Hanshi. He still hates me."

"May 2023, 5, Qing. I went to Fusheng Nightclub part-time at night, and I met him. Six years have passed, and it seems... everything has changed, but I am responsible for all this. Bo Han , happy birthday."

"June 2023, 6, Qing. I have lung cancer. Is this God's punishment for me? But if I die, what will I do if I miss you?"