Mr. Huo, stop being abusive. Miss Fu is going on a blind date again.

My wife Yanyan:

I miss you, Yanyan.

When we meet, give me a hug.

It is late at night, and when I look out the window, I can only vaguely see some faint starlight.

Everyone around was resting and it was very quiet.

The letter of apology I promised you has arrived late.

Sorry, baby, I have waited until now to fulfill my promise, even though I am at an altitude of more than 10,000 meters and I miss you.

I hope this is not the last time I write a self-review. If possible, I would like to write one every year.

Of course, I don’t just want to do those things with you, I just simply like writing self-criticisms.

I have been an excellent person all my life, but I have never written a self-criticism. I can only take this opportunity to make up for my regret.

Yanyan is so well behaved, she will definitely satisfy me, right?

But you are right.

I really need to reflect on myself, there are so many things I did wrong.

For example, I didn't use enough force or depth, and I made you fall asleep too few times. As a result, you still had the energy to write a letter of apology to me, and you reminded me again and again. It was a bit too much, Yanyan.

I should reflect deeply on this and will leave no room for leniency next time.

But what I should reflect on more is my stupidity and arrogance.

We shouldn't have let our relationship go to waste so many years, what a waste of time. Our son should have been born and learned how to cook.

If there was a time machine, I would like to go back to the day when you first came to the Huo family.

The first time I saw you, I should have held your hand tightly and told everyone in public that you cannot be my cousin because you are my future wife.

Perhaps, before meeting you, I went to Guangcheng and did my best to stop the disaster that happened to your father.

That way you won’t lose your loved ones, won’t have to live under someone else’s roof, and won’t have to be so cautious.

Then our meeting would definitely be more romantic and warmer than later.

Because no matter what, I will find you.

Maybe you will think that such an idea is naive, fanciful, unrealistic, and does not suit my personality.

But if there really is such an opportunity, I will kneel before the gods and beg to be with you again.

The night when you threw yourself into my arms after drinking and said you wanted to be my woman.

God knows how long I have been waiting for that moment.

I even thought that even if you don't love me, I would still accept it if you had sex with me just to vent your emotions.

You will never know how desperate and painful I was when I heard that you liked Huo Yuan.

It's just a little bit off.

I want to wait until I graduate from military school, build a career, and return to the Huo family with dignity to tell you how much I love you, how much I want you to be my woman, and how much I want you to marry me.

The protests of the elders in my family are ineffective against me.

As long as you nod.

So what if I cut off ties with the Huo family?

But I heard with my own ears how you expressed your feelings to someone else before you made your plan.

The day before I left the military academy and went abroad to study finance, I actually went to school to secretly see you.

I saw that your eyes were red from crying, and Ji Lin almost knelt down and kowtowed to you, begging you to stop crying.

You cried so hard that your eyes were filled with tears, and you broke my taut heartstrings.

At that moment when I realized that I still had a soft heart towards you, I knew I was hopeless.

I took a step forward, wanting to go over and comfort you, even though I didn't know why you were crying.

But the one who arrived earlier than me was Huo Yuanshi, who was sitting in a wheelchair.

He stopped in front of you, stroked your hair gently, and whispered something.

Knowing clearly how important he is to you, I still used this blunt knife to cut my beloved flesh. I stood still and watched the whole process even though the blood and flesh were blurred.

You smiled at him.

I felt like a joke and turned away.

Later I met him at the school gate.

He asked me why I was at school.

I have always disdained talking to people and had no intention of answering this question.

But it once again opened the wound in her heart and she calmly asked him the same question.

He said you had a fight the night before and he came to school to cheer you up.

At that moment, I just sneered.

After going abroad, I devoted myself to studying and forced myself not to think about you.

But when it's late at night and I'm lying in bed, your image will unconsciously appear in my mind.

I go running, go to the gym, train hard, and make myself exhausted, but I still can't help missing you.

I miss you to the point of going crazy.

You asked me how I got the thumb-sized scar on my arm, and I always said casually that I forgot.

I didn't dare tell you the truth.

There was indeed a scar there originally, but it was only the size of a soybean.

That's the scar left over from the chickenpox you gave me when we were kids.

It always reminds me that you and I were childhood sweethearts.

I think you're going crazy thinking about this.

I have thought about grabbing you to my side and possessing you by force.

But when the image of you calling me second brother with your big watery eyes appeared in my mind.

I just grabbed a knife.

Cut off the chickenpox scar.

Without the scar, without the mark left between us, I will soon stop missing you so much.

After a long time, I won't miss you anymore.

But I forgot.

Some scars are in the flesh.

Some scars are on the heart.

I can cut out the scars on my body, but I cannot cut out my heart, because then I will die.

So that I understood a truth.

I will love you until I die.

Because the knife was not sterilized, my wound became infected and the scar grew from the size of a green bean to what it is today.

As a result, I had a high fever for three days and three nights.

When I was having the worst fever, I dreamed about the time when I was infected with chickenpox from you and you sneaked into my room in the middle of the night to see me.

You were standing by the bed, little you, with tears in your big round eyes, calling me in a trembling voice.

I opened my eyes dazedly.

You are like an elf that has fallen into the mortal world, appearing in my sight unexpectedly.

I never thought about the moment when I really fell in love with you.

Because there are too many moments.

You will never know how much of a fatal attraction you have for me.

But that was probably the first time I felt that heartbeat.

They are still children, ignorant about love.

But I recognized you at first sight.

I am a person who will not change my mind once I make up my mind.

During those years, I was confused, in pain, lonely, and heartbroken, but I never stopped wanting you.

When my fever reached its peak, I struggled to sit up in bed, shouting your name.

The moment you threw yourself into my arms at the bar, I heard a voice telling me:

Huo Mingzheng, the girl you like is here for you.

We were supposed to be off to a sweet start.

But I, who pride myself on being smart, fell into the trap of sowing discord and repeatedly ignored you and gave you the cold shoulder.

Even if Huo Yuanshi has great magical powers, how can he be omnipresent?

Because the person who gave him the opportunity was myself from the beginning to the end.

I am the one who caused us to take so many detours.

It was my lack of confidence, suspicion and arrogance that gave him countless opportunities to take advantage of and sow discord.

If I had been more confident at that time, there wouldn't have been so many misunderstandings between us.

is not it……

We wouldn't have lost that child.

Yanyan.

I could not be more wrong.

I was blinded by jealousy and couldn't see the struggle and expectation in your eyes.

Hurt you again and again.

My cowardice and arrogance have caused me to fall into the abyss again and again and I can't extricate myself.

It was you who pulled me back to shore and washed away all the filth on me.

Yanyan, maybe you don’t know.

This isn't the first time you've saved me.

The first time was shortly after you entered the Huo family.

I was lucky enough to be rescued from a game of a perverted murderer.

Even if I could calm down and not think about those bloody memories.

But I can no longer feel the warmth and coldness of the world.

That day you held my hand, and even though it wasn’t that hot, it made me feel like I was in the warm winter sun.

That touch of warmth is buried deep in my heart.

Yanyan, at this moment, I begin to miss that warmth again.

But when I retrieved the memories of that year, I suddenly realized that memories would become blurred and missing.

Only you remain unchanged in my heart.

They all say that I spoil you too much, but you are the one who tolerates my infinite shortcomings.

I am afraid that this life is too short and my love for you is not enough.

The plane will arrive in Iceland soon and we will meet soon.

But life and death ahead are unpredictable, and no one can predict what will happen in the next second.

If we both survive, we will get married when we return to South City. I will drink any amount of candied pears you cook for me.

If I leave, don't be afraid and don't cry. I'm afraid no one can comfort you except me.

I have already taken care of the Romant family.

I will protect you from worries throughout this life.

In the next life, I will protect you personally.

I once promised you that I would share life and death with you. If I break my promise, will you blame me?

time is limited.

Yanyan, I never told you.

I love you.

Not just in this life.

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