Mr. Huo, stop being abusive. Miss Fu is going on a blind date again.

"Why?" Ji Lin asked.

Ling Zhao looked at him with a firm gaze, "Because I don't want to be hurt again."

"What did you say?"

When the nanny heard the noise, she thought the two people who had just eaten together had started arguing.

She hurried out to see.

Ling Zhao didn't want the nanny to notice anything.

The nanny is Ling Feng's person, so she might tell Ling Feng that Ji Lin came to see him today.

He has no friends in Zurich, doesn't communicate with his classmates, and no one has ever visited his home in all these years.

But when Ji Lin stood at the door and said he was hungry, he still felt soft-hearted.

But what he said was also true.

He didn't want to be hurt again.

But he was not easy to be in the same place as Ji Lin, and if he was lucky, they would meet.

He didn't want Ling Feng to notice anything and send her to a place farther away from Ji Lin in the future.

He dragged Ji Lin out of the house, away from the nanny's sight.

Ji Lin was dragged outside by him, slowing down his pace to keep up with his pace. Seeing Ling Zhao coming out wearing only a thin piece of clothing, he took his coat from the rack in the entrance, took a step forward, and wrapped the coat around him.

"Can't you say it in the room? You don't like me, and you won't even let me stay in your room for a while?"

I know he was just saying that out of anger. If he really disliked him that much, why would he let him into the house to eat?

Ji Lin knew that he had overreacted, so after calming down, he asked, "What do you mean by hurt?"

"We are too close and it's easy to be criticized."

Ling Zhao paused, a hint of self-mockery flashed across his lips, "Just like back then."

"Then I thought you treated me as a friend, but you pushed me away again. I don't want to endure this kind of hurt a second time."

Ji Lin stood at the outlet of the wind, his expression gradually fading.

He opened his mouth and wanted to say something, but found that he didn't know what to say at all.

Because it was he who alienated Ling Zhao back then.

Now Ling Zhao is hiding from him and avoiding him, all thanks to what happened back then.

"Ling Zhao, I..."

Ling Zhao shook his head. "Ji Lin, I don't mean to blame you. I just don't want my life to be repeatedly disturbed by others."

He took off Ji Lin's coat.

The temperature in my body is gradually disappearing.

He handed the coat to Ji Lin, "I'll just be Ling Zhao as I am now, it's fine."

……

Is it really good?

Actually, it’s not good at all.

Ling Zhao has a nanny who takes care of his daily life, so he doesn't live alone.

However, the nanny has her own friends and can call family members.

But his family just used him. He had no friends to talk to and had to deal with all his emotions by himself.

Ling Zhao knew that such days were terrible, and he wanted to find the Ling Zhao who gradually became lively when he was a desk mate with Ji Lin.

But he didn't dare to try again with his heart.

Ever since they parted at the doorstep that day, Ji Lin never looked for him again.

Ling Zhao thought, this is fine.

He never saw Ji Lin again, but occasionally heard people talking about Ji Lin in the corners of the campus.

He is just one Olympic gold medal away from winning the fencing Grand Slam, and many people know him.

Every time Ling Zhao heard it, he would involuntarily speed up his pace.

……

It’s not that Ji Lin didn’t want to find Ling Zhao, but he went back to Bincheng.

Because his grandmother had a heart attack and needed surgery.

He had to go back for such a major operation.

After seeing grandma, Ji Lin followed Ji Qing back home to take a shower and change clothes.

On the road, Ji Qing drove the car and said without turning his head: "Am I short of living expenses?"

"I don't want the money from you. I have my own money." Ji Lin replied to her.

Over the years, he has participated in many large and small competitions. Although he cannot be said to be rich, he has no problem maintaining a good standard of living.

Ji Qing turned the steering wheel and frowned, "Who asked you this? Why did you lose weight?"

Ji Lin touched his chin and sighed, "It's just a lot of pressure."

Ji Qing sneered and said nothing.

Ji Lin didn't say anything else.

In fact, he gained three kilograms after going to Zurich, and this was the result of him slightly controlling his weight.

The reason why I lost weight recently is because I was thinking about something and was almost going crazy.

That day in the library, the moment Ling Zhao bumped into his arms reminded him of the unknown heartbeat that he had buried deep in his heart.

If he was still young and mentally immature at that time, he would not be able to distinguish between love and pity.

Now at the age of 25, he already has the ability to distinguish.

He likes Ling Zhao.

It's not the kind of liking that's admiring.

He tossed and turned in bed for several nights, not understanding what was happening to him.

This feeling caught him off guard.

Liking is one thing, accepting is another.

Out of male instinct, he was unwilling to believe his feelings for Ling Zhao.

He couldn't face the fact that he liked a man.

He even went to a bar on the street in Zurich that day.

A bar for men only.

He wanted to see if he was really gay as he thought.

Maybe after getting to know a few more people, he will realize that he doesn't like men. Even a mature person like him may misjudge his feelings.

But he didn't want to make such a hasty decision, so he had to give it a try.

The lighting in that bar is dimmer than in other bars, and the visibility is not very good.

He walked in wearing a mask and no one recognized him.

When the laser light shone over him, a seductively dressed man appeared in front of him. He greeted him while looking at him with ambiguous eyes, his gaze lingering on his face and waistband.

He resisted the urge to hit someone.

When the man approached him and asked him if he wanted to...

The man was almost leaning on him, and the dizzying, nauseating smell of perfume hit him in the face.

Ji Lin didn't even push the other person away. Instead, he kicked him away out of instinct, and then fled out of the bar.

He ran to his car and vomited out all the food he had eaten the night before.

In the end, it was Huo Mingzheng's bodyguard Soran who drove him back.

At that moment, he completely doubted himself.

Not into men.

But I simply like Ling Zhao.

The moment he got this answer, Ji Lin recalled the mistake he made to Ling Zhao in his senior year of high school, and realized how wrong he was.

He hurt Ling Zhao.

Ling Zhao, who once regarded him as a friend and elder brother.

When he wanted to find Ling Zhao, he suddenly received a call from Ji Qing saying that his grandmother needed surgery.

He didn't have more time to look for Ling Zhao, but instead sent a message to Ling Zhao and boarded the plane back home.

He said to Ling Zhao: You said that you are good the way you are now, but I don’t think it’s good at all. Ling Zhao, are you still willing to be friends with me?