My 26-year-old female tenant: Gufan on the Island

I don’t even know under what circumstances I ended the call with Fangyuan. I just felt that the name Jian Wei gradually turned into a windowless room, trapping me in it. I was suffocating and at the same time, I didn’t want to leave easily. go out……

I was really trapped, so much so that my body stiffened, and I kept sitting in a sitting position, looking at the empty square, until my phone vibrated. This is the message from Fangyuan. He told me: The two thousand yuan he lent me has been transferred to my card through online banking; and the two thousand yuan suddenly became a choice. It’s not enough for me to stay in Luoyang, but it’s enough for me to return to Suzhou, return to the moat, and meet Jian Wei again.

I always stubbornly believe in the dead of night that as long as I persist in not giving up, there is still a glimmer of hope between me and Jian Wei.

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I finally lit a cigarette, and then subconsciously looked at Le Yao, who was already sleeping beside me. The idea of ​​returning to Suzhou suddenly encountered another resistance. This resistance stemmed from the shared vision of Le Yao and I. Although I had not really agreed to her, when she mentioned that I would write this article When a sky city belonging to us opened in Chuangyuan, I felt a little excited.

But this kind of heartbeat was nothing compared to meeting Jian Wei on the moat. So, after smoking the cigarette in my hand, I got up and found an ATM nearby. After withdrawing cash, I returned to this cultural and creative park; I only kept enough money for the ticket back to Suzhou, and the rest was stuffed into Le Yao's coat pocket.

Maybe it was emotions that were at work, but there was a hint of parting in the wind that never stopped; maybe, I shouldn’t have left without saying goodbye, but I didn’t want to see her disappointed, because she had already told about this cultural and creative project. Everything in the garden was too beautiful to describe... She said that there will be a coffee shop called "Sky City" here. That is also the most sincere desire deep in my heart. Only by facing the transparent smoke film can I see it. to the place.

Based on this mood, I looked back at her again...

She looked a little dirty, and the blood stains from her period could still be seen faintly on her pants, but when she smiled in her sleep, she felt like she had become a somewhat charming woman... I don't know how this feels. How did it come about, or maybe it is just a feeling of this moment, but it cannot last...

Because except for Jian Wei, I have never felt this way about another woman. It must be the wind of separation that has messed up my original mind.

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Just as I came empty-handed, I also left empty-handed, walking out of this place called "Oriental Cultural and Creative Park"; coincidentally, the farthest east that I could see also had a touch of color because of the rising sun. bright……

My uneasy mood finally relaxed because of this light. I had forgotten that I was in Luoyang, as if I had returned to Suzhou. This light was the best indication that I would definitely have a chance to see Jian Wei again. .

Thinking of this, I didn't stop any longer. After walking to the main street, I hailed a taxi and went straight to the train station.

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I barely slept that night, so I got on the train, looked at the scenery for a while through the window, and then fell into a deep sleep. When I woke up, the train had already entered Jiangsu, which was only a short distance from Suzhou. There are more than 300 kilometers left.

I took out my mobile phone from my pocket, but it had automatically turned off due to low battery. I didn't care, but suddenly I felt an inexplicable urge to get in touch with the outside world. I especially want to call Yan Yan. If Jian Wei really returns to China during the Chinese New Year, she will definitely contact Yan Yan; Yan Yan will definitely tell her: I have never really let go of this relationship and am depressed all day long. .

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I finally borrowed a charger of the same model from a passenger in the same car, and then I couldn't wait to charge my phone. After waiting for five minutes, the phone turned on.

During the boot process, I kept staring at the phone, but there was no text message reminder of missed calls. Only Le Yao sent me a message at 8:30 in the morning, asking me where I was.

Seeing that I didn't reply, she sent me another message at ten o'clock, asking me if I had left her and returned to Suzhou alone?

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I subconsciously took a deep breath and then texted her back: I am in a hurry and have to go back to Suzhou... I left you a little money in your jacket pocket. If you are not in a hurry to go back to Suzhou, This money is enough for you to spend a few days in Luoyang.

After sending this message, I put the phone back on the table in front of the car seat, but my heart became more and more uneasy... In the end, I still couldn't control myself, so I picked up the phone again and took the initiative to call Yan Yan. Made a phone call.

Yan Yan seemed to be busy with something, so her tone was a little urgent: "What are you doing?"

"I……"

"I have something going on here, can you stop hesitating?"

Because she didn't know whether she was right or wrong, she felt a little guilty. Because of her guilty conscience, Yan Yan took the lead. After pondering for a while, she replied: "Then you go ahead and do your work. I have nothing to do..."

"Going crazy again!"

After saying that, Yan Yan hung up the phone very neatly...and I was just petrified!

I don’t know if it’s an illusion. Every time I want to talk to Yan Yan about Jian Wei, I always feel a sense of hesitation. I even feel that Yan Yan doesn’t really hope that Jian Wei and I can go all the way. at last.

Because when Jian Wei and I were still together, she always told me: I must be worthy of Jian Wei. As a woman with outstanding conditions in all aspects, Jian Wei is willing to be with me despite pressure, which is a kind of She had to compromise; but she never considered my feelings, and I was under a lot of pressure. Every time I thought that Jian Wei might leave me one day, I would fall into despair and fear.

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In a daze, the phone vibrated again, which brought me back to my senses; it was not the call from Yan Yan after she finished her work; it was the message from Le Yao: "I have spent the money you left. It’s over.”

I was surprised and asked, "How did you spend it all? I left you fifteen hundred yuan!"

"I spent all of it to buy towels for my aunt. I won't be able to use them all in a year."

"Either you are sick or you are lying to me."

Le Yao sent me a photo in which several boxes of sanitary napkins were stacked.

I was so angry. Fangyuan squeezed out two thousand yuan and lent it to me. I left more than half of it for her, but she squandered it for no reason. She couldn't help but cursed: "You are fucking sick! I have never seen this before." A crazy woman like you!"

"Yes, I am sick. When I am unhappy, I like to spend money randomly."

"You have to be rich to be qualified to spend money... You are not a person living in a drama. When the God of Wealth is happy, he will kill you with gold ingots... You are a person living in the real world. …You can’t even buy a meat bun for one dollar less.”

Le Yao didn't listen to my words at all, she replied: "So what?... If reality never satisfies me, I would rather live in a dream... Obviously I am so happy in the dream... You and I stay in Luoyang , we opened a coffee shop together and adopted many stray cats... Even if there was no business, with those cats accompanying us, we would sit at the door of the coffee shop every day, waiting for the sunrise and watching the sunset... we would be so happy that we took off... But now Is this what it is? ...It’s just casual talk?”

Because of these words, I remembered her smile in her sleep before I left alone...

In a trance, I seemed to have walked into her sleep, and then I saw her who didn't want to wake up, and me who didn't know where to go!