My 26-year-old female tenant: Gufan on the Island

Her cries seemed a little sad and helpless in the heavy snow, but I had no idea of ​​stopping. My life is like a pair of torn trousers. I can only barely cover my shame. I have no time to mend other people's lives. So, there is such a scene in the snow: a lame man walking quickly with a guitar on his back, and a man without luggage. , a woman with sound limbs, but she stopped motionless in place. The only connection was the series of irregular footprints I left on the ground...

But after a while, this string of footprints failed to extend any further. I finally stopped and then turned back and walked towards the slightly nervous woman...

……

In the bar street, she and I sat across from each other in a bar that made some light meals. She took off her heavy down jacket, and I put my guitar on another chair next to me.

The business of the bar is very average. I don’t like this kind of sluggish bar at all because it is not popular and lively. The reason why I come here to spend money is just because it is the only bar with simple meals in the entire bar street, and I Neither he nor this woman has eaten yet.

She asked first: "You've already left, why are you looking for me again?"

"You said you hate guitar players, so why are you so shameless in begging me for cooperation?"

"My mother said that people should learn to bow their heads under low eaves. This is the most basic survival skill."

"You said you should learn to lower your head. When you talk to me, can you stop holding your head high all the time?"

"Am I holding my head high?"

"I haven't seen you looking down anyway."

She looked at herself reflected in the glass, then lay on the table, tilted her head and said to me: "Is it low enough now?... If you think it's not enough, I can squat under the table and talk to you... …As long as it keeps me full for a while.”

I actually laughed. For the first time in these days, I laughed from the bottom of my heart. I sighed, "Don't you feel humiliated at all?"

"It's not a shame to have a good meal."

"You look like this, it's really hard for people to care about you."

She straightened up again, half-smiling, and said to me: "You don't want to argue with me, or are you just interested in me?... After all, I am a famous school beauty in our school... This is also in Suzhou, if in In our school, as long as I say I'm hungry, people who want to treat me to dinner can line up from the south gate to the north gate of the school."

"Damn it, I invited you to dinner, and you still feel like a tiger has fallen and a dog has bullied you."

"I didn't say you were a dog!"

I choked hard on the cigarette I just lit, and after a while I said, "I should just throw you in the fucking snow and freeze you like a dog first."

"...Then we will become brothers and sisters."

She also smiled. She was in a good mood because I was willing to treat her to a meal on this snowy night. People are really strange animals. When they are in a desperate situation, even a little light can make them feel happy. It is hope; but unfortunately, I cannot be her hope, because I am only willing to treat her to this meal.

But she really hoped that this little light would start a prairie fire on me. After taking a few bites of the meal, she said to me again: "Eat quickly. After you finish eating, follow me to that bar to save the day."

"I'll tell you again, I'm not in the mood to sing, and I don't want to sing."

"I don't want to sing!...Then why do you still carry a guitar and walk around the streets?"

My heart sank, but I didn't want to tell her the reason. After a period of silence, I just said: "If you don't deceive me as a fool, I can introduce you to a friend who can sing and play guitar."

"I didn't lie to you as a fool... There really weren't any singers in the bar. I was also in a hurry and sought medical treatment. When I got mad, I told the proprietress that I had resources in this field and could help introduce her to her. She was also in a hurry and sought medical treatment. She actually believed it and said that as long as I can find a singer for her, she will give me an introduction fee or a part of the commission, anyway, I can't let the bar be cold."

"When did Suzhou have such a shortage of resident singers?"

"Isn't it approaching the Chinese New Year? Many people from out of town have gone back, including the bar singers of course."

I nodded and realized that the Chinese New Year was really coming; not only was there a shortage of bar singers, but even the department store where I worked had left a large number of interns, so that the upcoming New Year Festival was also Because of the lack of manpower, there is a feeling of difficulty; recently, Fangyuan and I have been solving this problem.

Our boss Chen Jingming said that if we can do a good job in this New Year's Festival, one of us will be chosen to be the leader of the copywriting and planning team. For Fangyuan, this is of great significance, but I already feel that it doesn't matter. , the reason why I felt troublesome was just because Fangyuan kept whipping me. He repeatedly told me: It is not easy for outsiders like us to choose to survive in Suzhou, so we must seize every possible opportunity. Opportunities to be promoted to higher places, so that you can build enough confidence when facing the high cost of living and high housing prices.

His sense of crisis is too strong! It looks very much like me before I broke up with Jian Wei. At that time, I was also like this. With a strong drive, I went to work during the day and found a bar to sing at night, just to one day be able to perform in Suzhou. Give her a home, a home where she won't be dominated by others.

But in the end, we broke up. I was sad and helpless about this, because no matter how hard I tried, the difficulty of crossing the class was still hellish.

Some people say that I am muddling along, but I feel that I am sober. Anyway, life is only a few decades, so it is better to be as comfortable as you want. I have never promised anyone that I must get married and live a decent life in this life. .

……

In a daze, the woman waved her hand in front of me, interrupted my thoughts, and asked, "I was only halfway through what I said, what are you thinking about?"

"You, a person who doesn't even have enough food and clothing, do you still care about what other people think?" After saying that, I took out my mobile phone and rummaged through it, and then said: "This is my friend's mobile phone number. You and I will talk to you later." He explained the situation and would come if he wasn't singing at another bar."

"Don't worry, I don't even know your name yet."

Although I didn’t know if it was necessary to formally get to know this woman, after a period of silence, I still told her my name: “My name is Zhaoyang, what about you? What is your name?”

"Le Yao..."

"Okay, we can be considered acquainted."

"Don't we know each other without fighting?"

I laughed: "It's better to say that we share the same problem...otherwise, why do you think I would care about you? I don't have that much kindness."

"It doesn't matter to me what reason you have. Anyway, you are already a living Bodhisattva in my heart..." After saying that, she smiled and said: "Living Bodhisattva, please lend me a hundred yuan."

"Don't push yourself too far, the Bodhisattva will be angry."

"The prime minister can hold a boat in his belly, let alone a Bodhisattva like you... Don't worry, it won't be in vain. Did you see the lottery booth opposite? I'm very lucky. If I win, I'll treat you to this meal .”

I looked at her and lost my mind again, because I had also pinned some hopes on buying lottery tickets; I was almost crazy, so that the cabinet next to the bed was filled with all kinds of lottery tickets; Even though I no longer touch lottery tickets, as long as those lottery tickets are still there, I will never forget my eagerness to be with Jian Wei.

She is my faith, my courage, my future, and my other life!