My 26-year-old female tenant: Gufan on the Island

When we returned to the old house, it was already eleven o'clock at night, but there was no late-night atmosphere because every window visible to the naked eye was lit. No one seems to want to miss the New Year's Eve moment. It seems that this is the only way to leave the unhappy things to last year and wait for a new year without worries.

It’s not necessary, because people’s destiny is destined, and your worries will not change at all because of the expectations in my heart. Therefore, I closed the curtains in the whole house and isolated myself from the whole world again. But I didn't just sit idle. I found a mop and a rag in the bathroom, and mopped the house again and again, wiping it again and again. There wasn't even a gap left, until the sound of intensive firecrackers came from the window.

The sound of firecrackers made me feel a little dazed. I finally stopped and sat against the wall, then faced the darkness and looked at the entire living room.

I have never left this house messy. Even for an ornament or a plate of flowers, I have to find the most suitable place, place it, and then wipe it clean and shiny; but I don't know why I do this.

I have degenerated, and my depravity is a bit unrealistic, but as long as I am in this room, a little desire will emerge in my heart, longing for a home, a ray of light, a little warmth, to light up this darkest place in my life. long night.

I thought about this woman Jian Wei day and night, but in this house, I lost the ability to fantasize about the relationship between me and her, because I knew that she would never appear in this old house.

The old house is my spiritual comfort, but it is also a kind of shackles. It is too dilapidated and symbolizes that the house is not in the right place. This torrent of consciousness has long destroyed me.

Therefore, I thought more than once that I would just live alone in this old house until my death, provided that the landlord, Lao Li, was willing to rent it to me for the rest of my life.

How long is a lifetime?

It’s impossible to measure, but just in the blink of an eye, I’ve grown another year old.

It’s my zodiac year, and I feel unspeakably pessimistic and hesitant, because everyone says that my zodiac year is a hurdle.

……

The next day, I was woken up by the sound of firecrackers, but I didn't want to get up. I just lay on the bed, staring at the sunlight coming in through the gaps in the curtains, until my phone vibrated.

It was a WeChat message from Le Yao. It was not a New Year greeting, but a question: "Zhaoyang, you beast, what did you do to me last night?"

I'm a little confused...

She sent another message: "I can't find my underwear... Do you have a human face and an animal heart?"

This time, I hurriedly replied: "I swear, not only did I not take your underwear, but I also gave you a dumpling." After thinking about it, I asked again: "I didn't even take off your coat, are you okay?" Why did you lose your underwear when you were lying on the bed?"

Le Yao won't come back for a long time...

In the meantime, Robben called me again, again not to wish me a happy New Year, but to urge me to gather at the funeral and say that condolences were ready.

Although I was reluctant to take on this job, since I had agreed, I forced myself to get up and pick out a set of black clothes from the closet.

It was only then that Le Yao finally replied to the message: "I remembered that I took it off when I went to the toilet."

"Are you so casual with yourself?"

"Nothing casual, I just don't like sleeping with my clothes on."

"Okay, I know……"

"Do you think I'm a very casual person?"

"As for whether you are a casual person, I have not deliberately analyzed it...you just need to know that I am not a casual person."

"Come on, I've heard all the dirty things you did when you were hanging out in the bar... you are just a philanderer."

"No, I just don't want to go home sometimes."

"You can rent a room alone and sleep on the street alone...but are you alone?"

I felt an inexplicable nervousness in my heart. This feeling prompted me to light up a cigarette and puffed on it several times before replying: "It's been a long time since I spent the night outside with others."

"You just admitted it."

"Admit it, there's nothing you can't admit..."

"Beasts are not afraid of getting sick!"

I put out the cigarette in my hand, refilled it, and then replied: "You are not me, so you will never know how I feel in my heart."

"How do you feel in your heart?... It's quite interesting. I really want to hear how a scumbag tries to prove that he is not a scumbag."

"I didn't want to prove that I wasn't a scumbag, and I didn't think it was the right thing to do... I just felt very uncomfortable... When I thought about the woman I loved, she broke up with me, and there was another man beside her, and they Eat together, date together, romance together... Well, I can fucking tolerate these, but I can't bear them sleeping together... That feeling is like a dull knife, pulling repeatedly in my heart, It gets heavier every time...I'm going crazy, I don't know how to release this emotion..."

"So, you dare to be the first to sleep with someone else?"

"That's not how Dare to be a human being is used."

"Then take the lead? Take the lead to set an example? Take the lead? Bear the brunt? Forge ahead with determination?"

"Do you have to put my pain under your feet and step on it again and again?"

"Then do you have to use this method to release the pain?"

"I said, I don't spend the night outside casually anymore... It's just that that period of time was not calm enough."

This time, after waiting for a while, Le Yao replied: "Okay, I choose to believe you... Indeed, you didn't behave like a beast last night... I ate the dumplings you left, which I like to eat. Meat filling."

"It's whatever you like to eat."

"You gave me red envelopes and bought me dumplings... Do I have to give you something as well?"

"No, I'm used to giving to you." After a short pause, I sent her another message: "If you really want to give me something, why not give me something practical... First, let's book a room in the hotel yesterday. Give me the money back."

"When we met, we said... Robben called me just now and asked me to go and help with some chores at that funeral."

"You really have to go!"

"Who wants to do this on the first day of the Lunar New Year... But I have already promised him before, and I don't want to go back on it... Seriously, is there something wrong with his brain? He actually chose this day to pick up the job!"

"He said this was an opportunity."

"I think he is just crazy because of poverty..."

"What could he do wrong? He just doesn't want to eat instant noodles anymore."

"Understood. The first time I saw him, he felt as thin as noodles."

I couldn't help laughing, and then I suddenly realized that this was the first time I had laughed in my year of birth, and I couldn't help but feel a strange feeling in my heart; I could feel that she seemed to want to pull me out of the quagmire.

I was stressed, but I didn’t want to get out because she seemed to be in a deeper quagmire; besides, I always felt that she was a very casual woman, doing casual things and saying casual words; Just like last night, if I was still addicted to that painful emotion and unwilling to wake up, there was a high probability that I would succeed.

……

Sure enough, when we met, she did something very casual. She gave me a big box, then she whispered in my ear: "I bought you a girlfriend, pick the most expensive one." Bought."

"what?"

"Be good, don't fool around outside anymore... Just go back and recharge it and you'll be able to use it."