My 26-year-old female tenant: Gufan on the Island

Liquor hurts people, so even though it was already the next day and the sun was shining hard on my face, I still couldn't be 100% awake; I didn't even know where I spent the drunken night; until I saw a guitar standing in the corner next to the closet and realized that this was CC's room.

Le Yao must have sent me to CC; I am a person who easily loses control after drinking, so I have some worries in my heart, because I will definitely tell her a lot of nonsense that I cannot remember in the end.

I'm not afraid that she won't like to hear it, I just don't want to be transparent and easy to understand in front of someone, which will make me feel like I have failed; because I have endured the emotional frustration and pain for a long time; otherwise, I won’t face everyone around me with a smile every day, causing everyone to mistakenly think that I am heartless.

I'm not heartless, I just don't want my pain to turn into other people's gossip and reach Jian Wei's ears; I love her, so I don't want to turn this love into a burden for her. Make her feel guilty...

It was she who gave up on me. I don’t know if she ever had conflicting feelings, but I am often conflicted: sometimes I don’t want her to forget me, and sometimes I hope she can forget me completely, because only by completely forgetting can I It won't be painful. Of course I don't want her to suffer. Even though our ending has been so tragic, I still hope she can live a good life.

This was the last thing I said to her on the day we broke up, and I said it with a smile... But this kind of smile was not an instinctive reaction. After she asked me if there was anything else I wanted to say, I forced myself to smile and then said something that was not against my will but also made me feel doubly painful; because no matter whether her future life would be good or bad. , I, Zhaoyang, will no longer be involved, but I have tried to make her happy...

……

This complex emotion made me sigh unconsciously, and CC also pushed the door open at this time. She took a pair of brand new clothes, threw them on the bed, and complained to me: "Zhaoyang, didn't I tell you that you can't drink with some restraint?... You drank and vomited again yesterday, and you vomited yourself and Le Le Yao Yiyi."

"I feel a bit sorry for Robben."

"Please first face my concern for you and don't get involved with Robben for no reason."

"It's not inexplicable... Robben risked his face and borrowed the money for yesterday's meal... but I vomited it all up!"

CC looked at me with disgust and sighed: "What you are vomiting is the residue after drinking, don't make it sound like you are spitting out gold coins... If you can really spit out gold coins, I can save a basketful of them here!"

"Every time I get drunk, you are the only one who is willing to take care of me... I know you are good to me, Sister CC."

Just like I was unwilling to face her concern, CC was also unwilling to face my gratitude. After a moment of silence, she suddenly changed the subject and asked me: "Is Robben having a bad time now?"

"It's not very good. Unlike me, he has a serious job and is in and out..."

"At this time, you still don't forget to give me a thumbs up. You are really a good brother to him!" After saying that, she sighed and said: "The night before yesterday, I had a meal with the president of the bar association... In fact, they don’t have any particularly excessive demands. They just want Robben to apologize and let the matter of the fight in the bar be over..."

"You can convey his appeal to Robben."

"I told him...he only said three words."

"impossible?"

CC nodded and said helplessly: "When you are away from home, there is really no need to offend the rich and powerful locals... Zhaoyang, you should persuade him when you have time, unless you really don't want to live in the city of Suzhou. You have to stay here, or you have to adopt a conciliatory attitude."

"Okay, I'll take the time to call him today and talk about it."

CC responded, and then we fell into silence together. She seemed to be still worried about Robben; then, I was the first to break the silence. I asked her: "Where is Le Yao? Yesterday. Aren’t you staying at your place tonight?”

"After she sent you to my place, she left... she probably went to stay in a hotel... By the way, she sent you this new set of clothes this morning." After a short pause, CC said to me again : "She asked me to tell you that she has returned to Beijing. I don't know if we will have a chance to see her again in the future, so this outfit is just a thank you for taking care of her these days."

I subconsciously picked up the clothes and looked at them. Although it was not a luxury brand, it was not an ordinary set of clothes either; at least the top was very unusual, because it was a studded leather jacket, a favorite of rock people...

I don’t know why she gave me such a piece of clothing. Maybe she wanted to tell me that she no longer hates people who play music.

If so, this is of course a change. For me, this change is also a recognition of who I am as a person. Now that she recognizes who I am and I don't hate her, then we can be considered friends in the true sense.

Unfortunately, our time as friends was a bit short-lived, which made me say with some regret: "Last night, we talked so much, I thought she would stay in Suzhou forever, but I didn't expect she would leave so soon... Yes, after all, I’m not from Suzhou, and I don’t have many relatives or friends here.”

"No, her leaving Suzhou has nothing to do with whether she has interpersonal relationships here... She said, you talked a lot last night... She suddenly felt that her values ​​and outlook on life had changed, and she was a little uncomfortable with it. Changes...So, it seems that she can no longer stay in Suzhou, and she originally had no intention of staying in Suzhou, because Beijing is her home, where her father and other family and friends are."

I laughed and sighed: "Her thoughts are just as unstable as her person... They really change at a moment's notice!"

"Is this your opinion of her?"

"Forget it...let it go."

"Before she left, she also had some comments about you. Do you want to listen?"

"It doesn't matter."

"If it doesn't matter, I won't say anything."

"Uh... Actually, it doesn't hurt to listen."

CC shook his head and smiled, and then said: "She said that you are an accident to her. Accidents are like meteors, short-lived and brilliant. Therefore, if a person lives for an accident, accidents will definitely happen in the future. Because meteors do not belong to the earth, they are foreign objects and cannot take root and sprout."

……

Wearing the rivet leather jacket given by Le Yao, I went to the company; then I was scolded by Chen Jingming. He called me a piece of mud that couldn't hold up the wall. I didn't refute because I was late again...

Strictly speaking, I am not late, but absent from work. I have been lying in bed all morning to relieve the pain of hangover, but the New Year Festival has reached a critical moment of life and death.

It was not only Chen Jingming who was angry, but also Fangyuan. Fangyuan also didn't talk to me all day; but even so, it didn't give me the sense of urgency that I had to work hard to do a good job.

However, when I was about to get off work, I still made a complete plan for the New Year Shopping Festival and handed it over to Chen Jingming. Then we worked overtime together to demonstrate and finally finalized the plan.

I breathed a sigh of relief because Fangyuan was responsible for the execution part and I only needed to assist, so the burden on me became much lighter.

……

After get off work, I habitually stood in the square at the entrance of the shopping mall and smoked a cigarette, and then I habitually looked at the "Zhuomei Department Store" opposite. Suddenly there was a sense of expectation in my heart. When I directed the flames of war towards Zhuomei, would the mysterious master behind them still have the power to resist?