My 26-year-old female tenant: Gufan on the Island

Starting from the afternoon, a rare snow fell in Suzhou. The snow was very heavy. By evening, it had covered everything in the city, including my sense of direction. I stood alone in a corner of the office and looked into the distance. Standing, trying to find the way home...

In fact, I have no home in this city. I only have an old house rented from others, which serves as my shelter and carries the endless wandering...

These days, I may be a little sick. I always feel that the old furniture in the old house has been given life by something. So, one drunken night, I started to talk nonsense to them, and I talked a lot. Secrets that I usually don’t want to share...

I told them: I am actually a timid man, but I look cool and fearless. I don’t even dare to ask for a reason to break up with my ex-girlfriend. Even in the dead of night, I always collapse because of pain, and I suffer from insomnia because of the collapse... …

I also told them: I am going to degenerate, and I will not be ashamed of my depravity, because after living for more than [-] years, I am now only left with a pair of insensitive skin...

No, not even a skin, I became a container, a container filled with beer, drunk and dreaming every day.

but……

I really miss her, on such a snowy evening!

……

I lit a cigarette and took a deep breath. There was a burst of footsteps behind me. I didn’t have to look back, and I knew it was Fangyuan. He was always like this, walking in a hurry, as if walking faster would get him the job. It seems like we have a head start, but in fact, our office is only two to three hundred square meters, and it is still a circle. In my eyes, everyone is trapped in this circle, meaninglessly walking from the starting point every day. To the end, and from the end back to the starting point...

This difference means that Fangyuan and I are destined to be from two different worlds, but it doesn't matter. We are still the most intimate colleagues and friends in this city; we are so familiar that we went to college together, and then worked together. Working overtime and worrying about having no money...

Like this moment.

"Zhaoyang."

I looked back at him. He put down the documents in his hand, lit a cigarette, and stood side by side with me, looking a little embarrassed: "...Want to borrow some money from you?"

"Borrow money from me?"

"What's your expression like?"

"We have known each other for so many years. This is the first time you have asked me to borrow money!" After saying that, I sighed: "It's not that I don't want to lend it to you, but I just feel that this matter can't be done between the two of us." It happened...all these years, I have been asking you to borrow money."

Yes, I have been asking Fangyuan to borrow money over the years. The more I borrowed, the more it gradually became a habit. Sometimes I didn’t even bother to make up a reason for borrowing money from him, and he also knew that I was a fan. People who spend money recklessly seldom ask questions; therefore, this became a tacit understanding between us; based on this, I was surprised by his behavior of borrowing money from me. He seemed to be This tacit understanding was broken at this moment.

"I'm not a superman, there are always times when I'm in trouble..." After a while of silence, Fangyuan said to me with a wry smile: "Yan Yan's parents came to Suzhou, and we had dinner together last night... They talked to me. About the marriage..."

"Are you forced to buy a house in Suzhou? It's the mother-in-law's old routine!"

"No, if it was really about buying a house, I wouldn't lend it to you."

I was a little embarrassed, but because I was so familiar with it, I didn’t take it to heart. Then I smiled and said, “That’s right. Houses in Suzhou cost millions. If you really want to lend me money for this matter, then I’ll have to pay for it.” Insert the knife and cut off both of your waists to give you and your wife a down payment."

Fangyuan was surprisingly serious: "I want to buy Yan Yan a car... Even if I can't afford a house for the time being, I have to do something to make her parents feel at ease..."

"Cars aren't cheap either!"

"It's not cheap, but I really don't like to give up halfway. I want to have a good result with Yan Yan... This is our fourth year together."

This is the fourth year that Fangyuan and Yan Yan have been together, so why not the fourth year that Jian Wei and I have been together? My Adam's apple subconsciously moved, and then I asked with a smile: "Who says it's not the case... I want to borrow How many?"

Fangyuan exhaled the smoke in his mouth heavily and replied: "I borrowed it from all my friends who could borrow it. Plus I saved a little, I don't need much... maybe [-]."

I pretended to be relieved and said, "I thought you could put so much pressure on me. For such a small amount of money, I'll do it for you tomorrow!"

Fangyuan looked at me...

The relationship between us was not enough to say "thank you", so I quickly changed the subject and asked: "What car are you going to buy?"

"Mazda 6, there are quite a lot of discounts recently...it's also suitable for women to drive."

I nodded in agreement.

At this time, Fangyuan also raised his head and looked out the window, and finally his eyes rested on the "Maxwell" billboard not far away. There are neon lights on the billboard, and the neon lights radiate heat, so this billboard has become one of the few places in sight that is not covered by heavy snow. It flickers all the time, as if embedded in the heart of the city.

"Zhaoyang, I haven't eaten at Huifang Restaurant for a long time... Go to Huifang for dinner tomorrow, I'll treat you."

I put out the cigarette in my hand, waved my hand, and walked to my work station: "I'd better change to another place... I'm afraid the boss lady will give me expired beer."

"Isn't it all beer that has expired? When did I give you expired beer?"

……

Shaking off the snow on my body, I took out the key and opened the door of the old house. I walked slowly into the house and stood by the bookcase for a long time before taking out the guitar that had been with me for a long time. I looked at it again and again, and then put it in the piano case.

I'm going to sell this guitar to solve Fangyuan's urgent need.

……

Holding the piano case and sitting on the sofa, I lit a cigarette and said to the nearby lamp: "I'm not in a good mood today. Let me tell you a secret... They say I'm poor, but I really have a secret." A particularly valuable thing... If it can be measured in terms of money... it is really valuable... You see... even the side panels are made of the most expensive ones... Forget it, you don't understand even if I tell you... you just need Just know that this guitar is unique in the world... But today... I plan to sell it... It's not that I'm short of money... It's just that after one thing suddenly happens to you, another thing seems to It suddenly became meaningless... You said, now that things have changed, what do I still do with this guitar?"

I looked at the desk lamp quietly, then took another deep breath of cigarette, and said: "I knew you wouldn't talk... You probably don't know yet, this guitar is a token of love she gave me... I can use it on my own The love that is so dead, give your best brother a try for the love he wants... It is a worthy death... So, after smoking this cigarette, I sold this guitar, to Aji... ...Aji, you know him, the guy with dragons and phoenixes carved on his body and tattoos all over his back...I already knew he was coveting this guitar."

The lamp remained motionless.

I stood up, picked up my guitar, and walked towards the door. The moment I was about to close the door, I turned back and said, "You really don't want to persuade me?... If you really don't want to talk, just show off..."

"Damn, you must have fallen out of love too... You are not in love with that fancy chandelier in the window opposite... It must be..."

"If you don't speak, it means you acquiesce... I'm warning you, you also have a secret in my hands now... You'd better stay silent like this, especially be careful of the toilet in the bathroom... He is not a good person... Usually The whole city's sewers... If the news leaks out and he finds out... My secret must not be made known to everyone... Then should I, Zhaoyang, continue to live in Suzhou?... If I can't survive in Suzhou The first thing I did was to break you down and throw you to the rag collector!"

After saying that, I paused, finally closed the door, and then walked along the corridor to the bus stop outside the community.