You scumbag husband left me to a beggar? I am reborn to kill madness

He looked at the window lattice.

It turns out that the national preceptor Li Mo turned out to be a poor little man whose life was saved by his mother.

It turns out that Li Mo was able to grow into a national teacher respected by everyone step by step because his mother taught him behind him.

It turns out that the Queen Mother is the light in Li Mo's heart that illuminates his life...

After learning about the past between Imperial Master Li Mo and his mother, Ji Wushang suddenly understood the complicated situation back then.

When the queen mother picked up Li Mo at the age of five, she was already twenty-one. She was already a queen, and her eldest prince was already four years old.

Therefore, no matter how outstanding and handsome Li Mo was later, it was impossible for the queen mother to like Li Mo.

In her eyes, Li Mo is a junior like her son, just a child who won't grow up.

She may have feelings for Li Mo as a mother and her son, but she definitely does not have feelings between a man and a woman.

And the feelings of the national preceptor Li Mo towards his mother...

It's probably a secret emotion that I want to admire but don't dare to think about.

Li Mo, who was in a desperate situation, was held by his mother to leave the dark cave. He was led by her step by step into the sunshine. He regarded her as his benefactor, elder, and mother. When he was a child, he always looked up from the perspective of a junior. After the mother.

But then he grew up.

His boy is pregnant.

It just so happened that he had no blood relationship with his mother.

If he likes his mother, there is no ethically incompatible relationship.

So, when he first realized that he wanted to marry a wife, the wife he wanted most deep down in his heart was the one who saved him from suffering and was gentle and kind to him.

But that person happened to be sixteen years older than him, and was already someone else's wife and the mother of a child. Although she was not related by blood to him, that person always regarded him as a junior and could not tolerate his coveting——

He didn't dare to speak out the secret thoughts in his heart at all. He was afraid that if he spoke out, he would completely lose the light that illuminated him.

Therefore, he regarded himself as a junior, he got married and had children, and he never said a word "love" from the beginning to the end.

But does he love it in his heart?

Others have already given this answer for him.

The Imperial Master’s wife thinks he loves her.

Father thinks he loves.

Ji Jingyao, the brother of the Dog King, also thinks he loves her.

Perhaps even the queen mother could see that he loved her, so when she was poisoned by her father and lingered on the sickbed, she was so peaceful that she seemed to have accepted her fate...

Look, since so many people can see it, then he is in love with Li Mo.

He can blind his heart, but his eyes can't lie. He loves an unlovable person so repressedly that everyone else can see it, but he himself still refuses to admit it or face it.

Ji Wushang let out a long sigh.

Secret love that cannot be seen in the light is indeed extremely painful.

Ji Wushang lowered his head and said to Jing Feiyuan, "I admit that Li Mo was very bitter. He was hurt by his master when he was a child. When he grew up, he fell in love but it was not very bitter. He watched helplessly as he killed the one he loved most. Elder, he is still suffering when he sees his home being confiscated and his family being exterminated, and when his young son dies tragically... I admit that he has gone through all the suffering in the world, but no matter how much he suffers, I cannot forgive him."

Ji Wushang's eyes were cold, "His suffering was not caused by my mother, most of it was caused by himself. He couldn't control his emotions. He not only harmed himself, but also killed my mother. I was misunderstood by my father and brother, so that I lost my mother at a young age and was abandoned to a wolf den - all the suffering that my mother and I have experienced is all caused by him!"

Jing Feiyuan agreed with Ji Wushang's statement.

Li Mo's subsequent sufferings were all caused by himself.

He can fall in love with the light that redeemed him, but as an adult, can he restrain his emotions a little? Since he knows that he has fallen in love with someone he shouldn't love, can his eyes not be so affectionate and ambiguous? Could he be a little more restrained in his behavior?

Knowing that Queen Zhou was the emperor's woman, he still wanted to let others see his love for Queen Zhou. That was his fault.

As for the suffering of the Imperial Master's wife, it was also caused by him.

He pretends to be a person who doesn't get what he wants. Since he can't let go of his feelings, can he stop harming others?

He could just be a loner and silently guard the person in his heart. Why did he want to marry a wife and have children? In the end, because of his uncontrollable emotions, he caused so many people to die with him?

If he was wise and responsible, he would either let go of Queen Zhou completely, or if he couldn't let go, he wouldn't harm the Imperial Master's wife. He couldn't do both. He wanted everything, so he harmed one after another.

Jing Feiyuan leaned into Ji Wushang's arms and murmured.

"If the queen mother had not left him a way to survive, there would not have been all the troubles that followed. Maybe the father would still have a different love, but at least he would not think that the queen had betrayed him, would not poison the queen, and would not open the door I close one eye and let you be harmed..."

After a pause, Jing Feiyuan added, "It's just that if the queen mother had killed him back then, the amazingly talented Imperial Master would not have been born more than ten years ago. No one can calculate how many years ago he was born. When the earth dragon turned over years ago, no one could predict the timing of those floods and those natural disasters that would cause tens of millions of people to be injured and die..."

Jing Feiyuan raised his head and looked at Ji Wushang, "Look at the disaster victims outside the city this year. They are everywhere. In the first half of the year, there was a drought in the north, and floods were raging in small towns in the south. Let's not mention the damage caused by the drought. Just talk about the floods in the south. Thirty thousand people died. If the Imperial Guard was still there, and if he could predict the time of the flood in advance and ask the people to move out in advance, these [-] people would not have died."

After saying that, she held Ji Wushang's hand tightly and said softly, "Ji Wushang, tell me, is it because the queen mother knew how many lives the Imperial Master would save if she stayed alive, that's why she chose to die silently by herself? , is it not related to the National Preceptor? She is so kind and compassionate. She knows that natural disasters often occur in this world. She knows that people need the National Preceptor to predict disasters in advance based on astronomical calculations to survive. Therefore, she thinks she can die, but The Imperial Master must live..."

Ji Wushang suddenly fell silent.

He rubbed Jing Feiyuan's fingers and looked at the floating dust in the sun.

perhaps……

Yuan'er is right.

The queen mother was able to conquer the world with her father. She was strategic and wise. Her father wanted to poison her. She might not have known it at first, but she must have guessed it later when she was on the sickbed, right?

However, she chose to die silently by herself. She refused to tell her two sons about the past, and she did not want her sons to avenge her.

Because revenge will involve the national teacher.

And she hopes that the national preceptor Li Mo will live forever and live for the people of Li.

If the queen mother really thought so back then, then Li Mo would have deserved to die.

The queen mother entrusted the people of Li to him, but he abandoned the people and went to capture hundreds of children to test the medicine and study the elixir of life!

He seemed to love his mother, but he failed to live up to his mother's greatest wish before her death.

He loved the holy light in his mother, but he could not illuminate the world like her.