To seduce her

A trace of surprise flashed across Gao Yushan's face, but he quickly returned to normal.

He smiled helplessly, shook his head and said, "Why do you think so?"

"It's fine if you don't."

The possibility of these two brothers quarreling when they meet is quite high.

In addition, both of them had strange expressions, so Shen Yaochu asked them if they had had a fight.

Shen Yaochu frowned: "He said he was going to the administrative office. Should I chase him out and take a look?"

"He shouldn't be angry." Gao Yushan pursed his lips, thinking for a moment, and then said: "No need to chase him out, he really has a job."

"You're not angry?" Shen Yaochu looked at Gao Yushan curiously: "So what did you talk about just now?"

When she left just now, Director Hu also had something to do, and there were only the two of them in the entire ward.

Shen Yaochu was really a little skeptical about what kind of conversation could make both of them show such unnatural expressions.

Gao Yushan lowered his eyes, and Shen Yaochu couldn't see the emotion in his eyes.

"Actually, after what happened last time, I thought a lot about it myself. But when he took the initiative to ask me to talk, I was still a little surprised."

Shen Yaochu looked at his gentle expression without saying anything, waiting quietly for him to continue.

Gao Yushan smiled and said, "But it's normal when I think about it. He has always been better at turning back than me since he was a child."

Shen Yaochu was stunned for a moment, and thinking of the on-and-offs and on-and-offs between her and Gao Yuchuan over the years, the corners of her lips slightly raised.

Although Gao Yushan did not explain what they talked about, Shen Yaochu also noticed something from his words.

It seems that the relationship between the two brothers has been eased a little.

After Gao Yushan learned the truth of what happened back then, he must have thought a lot about what had happened over the years.

From Gao Yuchuan's perspective, it was Gao Yushan who risked his life to save his wife, so no matter how much dissatisfaction he had with him, it would dissipate a lot.

Gao Yushan continued, "Although Yuchuan and I are brothers, our personalities are indeed very different."

"My family members commented on the two of us, saying that he only looked stubborn, but he would become soft-hearted after being beaten. But I am really stubborn."

"At that time, we both made mistakes and were arrested. We both knelt down and were beaten. If we were really wrong, Yuchuan would have admitted it early. I would never say anything if I was stubborn. So I was the only one who took the beatings for both of us."

"But even if I get beaten until I bleed, I will never say a soft word."

"I look gentle and well-behaved, but in fact I was beaten much more than he was when I was a child."

For Gao Yushan, his way of expressing his dissatisfaction is to keep silent.

Gao Yuchuan can express himself, refute and resist.

And he would just remain silent.

Then he got beaten up.

他以前总是会想，凭什么两个人都做错了事，却只逮着他一个人揍，他们就是更爱高禹川。

But now that I think about it, the more he refuses to admit his mistakes, the more he will arouse the adults' anger.

Shen Yaochu looked at him steadily: "No one is perfect. The gentle you and the stubborn you are both you."

Gao Yushan looked a little dazed, and said, "But I have to admit that all my gentleness is just an act, just to make everyone think that I am a gentle person."

He is gentle for the sake of being gentle. That's who he is.

Over the years, he has been accustomed to disguising himself, often appearing gentle on the outside.

Just like Luo Ningxuan said, everyone thinks he is easy to talk to, but everyone can only guess what he is thinking and no one can open up to him.

He is like a person wearing a mask. After wearing the mask so many times, it becomes one with his face and can never be taken off.

Shen Yaochu exhaled slowly: "Why make yourself so tired?"

"I just feel that no relationship can allow me to be myself." Gao Yushan pulled the corners of his lips and revealed a self-deprecating smile: "After all, no matter where I am, I am the one who is chosen by others."

In all choices, he ranked behind Gao Yuchuan, which made him feel that this was the established reality and he had to give up his own preferences and make a choice later.

He dared not express his dissatisfaction because his gentleness and generosity would earn him praise for being "obedient and sensible."

Isn’t speaking out in rebellion and selfishly choosing what you like the opposite of being obedient and sensible?

He was already the chosen one and could not afford to lose their approval any further.

"But Yushan." Shen Yaochu frowned slightly and said softly: "Everyone has his or her own value and position. You don't need to change yourself to please others. Once you change, no one can see what the real you is like. How can they like the real you?"

Hearing this, Gao Yushan was suddenly stunned.

Suddenly, he thought of something and suddenly smiled.

Shen Yaochu was sensitive enough to notice something. She raised her eyebrows slightly and asked meaningfully, "Who did you think of?"

Gao Yushan pursed his lips and said bluntly: "Xia Yizhu."

Gao Yushan's eyebrows softened a little: "It's strange, in front of her, I am the worst person in the world."

Thinking back to how he had repeatedly "spoken badly" to Xia Yizhui, he did not hesitate to use the most unpleasant words to make her leave.

I think of Xia Yizhui's eyes every time he was hurt but stubborn.

"I did so many terrible things to her that I couldn't even admit it was me."

He was gentle and patient with everyone, and he thought he really was such a good-natured person.

But when it comes to Xia Yizhui, he is an unforgivable villain.

Just when Gao Yushan was lost in his memories, Shen Yaochu uttered three words lightly.

"You love her."

Gao Yushan was slightly startled, then a frank smile appeared on his face, and he directly admitted: "Yes."

"Then don't push her away anymore." Shen Yaochu said seriously, "No one will stay there and wait forever."

"But you..."

Gao Yushan was about to refute, but she just stood there waiting for Gao Yuchuan!

But Gao Yushan stopped talking after saying just two words.

Gao Yuchuan has always understood the timing of turning back better than him. He knows when to compromise and when to insist.

No matter what misunderstandings there were between him and Shen Yaochu, once he learned the truth and knew it was his own problem, he would go back to find her without hesitation.

But what about him?

He insisted on having his own way.

You will regret it sooner or later.

Everyone around him knew it, Luo Ningxuan knew it, Shen Yaochu knew it, even Gao Yuchuan knew it.

He has always been the paranoid person.

Gao Yushan pursed his lips, feeling a little confused for a moment.

He has been pretending for so long that he doesn't even know what his real self is like.

If his nature is really that evil, should he still be himself?

Isn't it better to just keep pretending?

Gao Yushan exhaled slowly. Perhaps he needed to be more self-consistent in order to treat the people around him well.

"If I don't push away, will she ever come back to me?"

Shen Yaochu smiled and said, "Give it a try."

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