One big and one small are practicing love

After drinking, I finished stroking the skewers. Liu Xiaochen was cleaning up the garbage, while Zuo Kunmin watched silently. Her cheeks were slightly red and her heart was palpitating.

I struggled secretly in my heart, but in the end, I just said softly: "Xiaoxiao, go to bed early, good night!"

Restraining desires requires consuming willpower and energy, which can cause slight harm to the body and emotions. But Zuo Kunmin knew that it was what he had to bear to protect this emotion. Just like his mother asked him to control his diet and protect his body and mind.

At this moment, Zuo Kunmin was dizzy and a little sleepy. My mother was right, alcohol and unhealthy food can lower people's life energy, weaken their will, and make them chaotic. But this is exactly what Zuo Kunmin wants now.

Zuo Kunmin knew that tonight, if he had a clear mind, he would be thinking a lot uncontrollably. These thoughts can cause various emotions, including anxiety, irritability, and restlessness, which all consume mental energy.

At a certain stage, a person's mental energy is limited. For tomorrow and tonight, Zuo Kunmin must protect himself.

Change clothes, wash up, and go to bed. I hope I don’t have any dreams tonight and can sleep until the alarm goes off.

The weather forecast says it will cool down and snow tomorrow.

Starting in the second half of the night, the west wind became fierce and the whistling sound was particularly loud. Zuo Kunmin's home is on the west side, on the top of a slope, with no obstructions on either side or above or above. The cold wind squeezed hard through the cracks in the windows, and the fine cold wind kept pouring into the house.

The phone vibrated. Liu Xiaochen turned off the alarm clock and squinted at the unfamiliar environment. After a moment of reaction, he realized that he was in Zuo Kunmin's hometown. She tucked Zuo Yan's quilt tightly, looked at the time, it was around 2 a.m., turned over and continued to sleep.

In the haziness, Zuo Kunmin heard the whistling wind and heard someone talking in the living room. Feeling sleepy and weak, I don't want to open my eyes or get out of bed.

But the voice became clearer and clearer. It seemed to be the voice of a man and a woman. They lowered their voices, but the anger in their voices could still be felt.

"When are you leaving?" female voice.

"It's hard to come back, please stay for two more days." A male voice said.

"I can't stay here for another day. Everything here is gray and dirty. My skin can't stand it." Female voice.

"Don't be so squeamish, there are so many people living here, aren't they all living well!" A male voice said.

"Then you stay here alone, I will take Kunmin back to Shanghai." Female voice.

"If you want to leave, you can go alone and leave the child behind. Kunmin likes to stay here." A male voice said.

Hearing his name, Zuo Kunmin finally couldn't help but get up, opened the door and went to the living room to take a look.

They are his parents, and they look like they did when they were young. When they saw Zuo Kunmin, they walked towards him without saying anything. However, the two people suddenly changed their appearance and turned into a crocodile and a python respectively.

Zuo Kunmin was so frightened that he quickly closed the door and pressed his body against the door. They hit the door outside and the crack in the door became wider and wider. Zuo Kunmin could no longer hold on and was so frightened that he cried.

Just when the door was about to be squeezed open, Grandpa appeared behind him and easily closed the door with one hand. He twisted the handle and locked the door. They stopped hitting the door and returned to silence.

Grandpa knelt down and said with a dissatisfied look on his face: "Kunmin, your mother is so shameless. She only knows how to be beautiful. She never cooks for your father. Your father is drunk and doesn't care. You let your father lie on the ground all night."

Zuo Kunmin shook his head and said, "I don't blame mom. Dad often comes home drunk, smelly and dirty. I don't like dad drinking."

As he was talking, the window suddenly shattered. When he turned around, he saw a python and a crocodile coming through the window, opening their bloody mouths and rushing towards him and his grandfather.

Zuo Kunmin suddenly woke up, opened his eyes, and gasped rapidly.

After calming down for a while, my heartbeat slowed down. It was dark inside and the wind was blowing outside the window. Zuo Kunmin realized that he had had this dream again.

Zuo Kunmin would dream about this scene every time he was under great pressure. In this old house, parents quarreled, pythons and crocodiles, grandpa said something wrong with mother, had nowhere to escape, and was extremely scared.

After slowly waking up, Zuo Kunmin looked at the time. It was 5:[-] in the morning, turned over and continued to lie down.

Taking a deep breath, I felt tired, weak, and didn't want to get up. It turns out that the mind and body have been paralyzed, but the heart cannot be deceived. It is still worried, afraid, and wants to escape.

Just when I closed my eyes and was about to squint for a while, I heard movement. The sound of running water, toilet flushing, footsteps, pots and pans... Zuo Kunmin closed his eyes and listened to the sounds quietly, feeling at ease.

When I was a child, I was partial to my mother. I didn’t understand why my father and grandfather had to let my mother cook and take care of them. After experiencing marriage, Zuo Kunmin realized that he, like them, had the traditional family concept of "men take charge of the outside and women take charge of the house".

I hope that after a busy day, I will come home to delicious meals, the gentle care of my wife, and the laughter of my children. It was the comfort of a tiring day and the motivation to face the cruel external environment again.

This need may originate from ancient times. Men suffered from cold, heat, danger, and hardship while hunting. Only when they returned to the cave could they find safety, satiety, and rest. Trillions of years of memory cannot be changed by shouting a few slogans of "equality between men and women" and instilling some new era theories.

"Teacher Zuo, are you awake? Food is ready." Liu Xiaochen shouted softly from outside the door.