One big and one small are practicing love

At this moment, Zuo Kunmin suddenly understood why he had been corresponding with Liu Xiaochen for six years. It was not just the instructions in Wang Luoxia's will.

For Zuo Kunmin, time is more precious than gold.

Two or three times a month, I read a long handwritten letter of three or four pages, word for word. It is difficult to carve out some quiet time to seriously write a letter of the same length for six years.

Like today, Zuo Kunmin is always busy, anxious and impetuous.

Liu Xiaochen's letters are concise and sincere. The words are like her, with a quiet rhythm. She always has some novel angles when she talks about her little things. When I read it, my heart calmed down unconsciously, and I could feel the different energy supply from each letter. After reading it, my heart welled up with the desire to express myself sincerely.

When replying to the letter, I wrote a lot unconsciously.

Like what happened last night and today, there are a lot of things I can't say to anyone. Loneliness, hesitation, powerlessness, resentment.

At this time, I saw a weak and helpless life, saw her various minor worries, a real and quality life. Words of comfort to her are also a process of clearing away distracting thoughts and strengthening one's thoughts.

After figuring it out, Zuo Kunmin sent a message to Li Zhiming, telling him that he would not return to the company in the afternoon and not to call him. The pending work would be sent to him by email.

Zuo Kunmin decided to take a half-day off to clear his mind.

After sending the message, I set my phone to silent and stuffed it into my pocket. Taking a deep breath, he lowered his head and opened the first page of the notebook. In elegant handwriting, he neatly copied a poem - "Inscription on the Wall of Helin Temple".

I was in a state of drunkenness and dreaming all day long, when I suddenly heard that the spring was coming and I was climbing a mountain.

Because of talking to the monks in the bamboo courtyard, I stole my life for half a day.

"You've got half a day to spare." Zuo Kunmin smiled unconsciously when he read the last sentence.

Sometimes you are lonely, sometimes you are embarrassed, sometimes you are sad, sometimes you are dirty, sometimes you are despicable. But the good news is that you believe in yourself, respect yourself, be confident, be optimistic, and be with your friends and family. These bad things will pass - "Spent the Long Years with Anthony"

Seeing this sentence, Zuo Kunmin was curious, why is there no punctuation mark? The next two or three pages are excerpts from "Spent the Long Days with Anthony", each sentence without punctuation. Perhaps this author does not use punctuation. Zuo Kunmin would never read it if he just saw the title of the book, but after reading the two-page excerpt, I felt that the author's writing was quite sincere.

"The Best Woman", Huang Tongtong. "The Third Kind of Love", walking freely. "Eggs from the World", Feng Tang...

Zuo Kunmin looked at the titles with a smile and thought, this child, in addition to the book list given to her, has also read so many random books.

Every few pages there are excerpts and some comments. "Financial Expert - Seven Inches of America", "Interview with Yang Lan - Screenwriter Liu Heng", "Yale University Open Course - Game Theory", "Dong Wu Theory of Relativity", etc. Describe the event, list your opinions item by item, and summarize your personal insights.

Seeing this, Zuo Kunmin was a little surprised. These programs were mentioned occasionally when he wrote letters. But Liu Xiaochen never said that he also watched these programs, and he wrote and summarized them seriously.

Song title: "My Dearest", Zhang Huimei. "end of may", keven anm. "Laughing in the Red Dust", Chen Shuye, "Everyone rows oars to sail the big boat", the sound of the flute...

"Haha!" Zuo Kunmin couldn't help laughing. The song "Everyone Oars and Sails a Big Ship" was often sung by my father when he was a child. It was said that the factory where he worked when he was young played this song every day.

It was obviously a notebook, but Zuo Kunmin seemed to be reading a novel, flipping through the pages with great interest. Stopping from time to time, he looked up at Liu Xiaochen in the distance.

She spent most of the time reading with her head down, sometimes holding her chin in a daze, sometimes writing, and sometimes applying cooling oil. Drink water from a glass, take medicine, stand in front of the window and stretch, watching the rain fall.

Liu Xiaochen also left his seat two or three times and came back in about ten minutes. At about 1 o'clock in the afternoon, Liu Xiaochen was eating bread and drinking water in the corridor.

When Zuo Kunmin saw Liu Xiaochen applying cooling oil and eating bread to satisfy his hunger at noon, he was relieved about the bottle of perfume and decided not to ask.

Send a message to Master Zhao: Please order the fungus soup hot pot in Joy City. After picking up Yanyan and Xiao Xu, take the children there first, and I will take Xiao Xiao there.

Last night at the restaurant, Zuo Kunmin wanted to eat hot pot when he smelled the aroma. But when it comes to eating, Zuo Kunmin doesn't want to eat more than fifteen minutes, and he doesn't eat a meal that wastes time for a long time.

In autumn, cold rain and hunger, why not have a hot pot meal together as a family?

When I turned to the back of the book, I saw the date and weather written on it. I glanced at the contents, which looked like a diary. Not daring to look at her private parts, I prepared to close it. Suddenly I saw the words 'Teacher Zuo', and the page number was half closed and flattened.

Look at Liu Xiaochen in the distance, still looking down at his book. Then he looked around at the people around him, doing questions, looking at their mobile phones, reading books, and typing on laptops. They were all doing their own things, and no one paid attention to Zuo Kunmin.

Then only read content about yourself and never read more.

Tonight, when I was carrying Yanyan back in the underground garage, I saw Teacher Zuo wearing a suit for the first time.

Teacher Zuo was wearing a black suit, white shirt, and black tie. He walked tall and far away, in the empty and dark underground garage, and his body seemed to be shining. Teacher Zuo's face was calm, and there was no sign of sadness or joy. He just walked with long strides, but he felt that he contained huge energy.

Seeing Teacher Zuo like this, I suddenly remembered the group of sculptures "Fighting and Victorious Buddha" I saw at the art exhibition during the day. I feel that Teacher Zuo is very similar to the Victorious Buddha. Although he lowers his eyebrows and is calm and silent, it can still be seen that he has been through hundreds of battles and tempered many times, and he possesses surging power and infinite wisdom.

At this point, the first page is just finished.

Zuo Kunmin took two deep breaths and stared at the air in a daze. The four words "Fighting and Victory over the Buddha" surged in my heart. No one has ever described him in this way, and he himself doesn't quite know the meaning of these four words. Lower your head and continue reading.

I also looked up the meaning of ‘Doujiebuji’ from the Internet and compiled it as follows.

The Buddha is compassionate, why is he called the ‘Sage of Fighting’? Because selfishness is hard to get rid of, self-grasping is very deep. During the course of practice, we need to constantly uphold the correct view of "selflessness" and fight against "I want, I want, I hate, and I fear" until we overcome all selfishness and no longer indulge in self-gain and loss, only then can we enter into nothingness. opposition.

Cultivation is difficult and long, and requires various teachings and support. When choosing between self-interest and bodhicitta, it is only because one has pure thoughts and one mind at the right time.

After reading the explanation, Zuo Kunmin suddenly felt that something in his heart was illuminated, clear, relaxed and at ease.

Send a message to the project manager of University A: Immediately find workers who clean the pipes. Send me the plan tonight. After I approve it, implementation will begin tomorrow.

After sending the message, look up. Seeing Liu Xiaochen wiping her tears with the back of her hand, she thought of last night, when she was cleaning the wound in the hospital, she endured the pain without shedding a single tear. Why do you cry while reading a book?

He stood up, handed the canvas bag and car keys to a boy who liked him, and gave him another hundred yuan. Have him take the bag to the car in the parking lot and throw the keys directly into the car. Zuo Kunmin's fingerprint can also unlock the door.

Zuo Kunmin strode towards Liu Xiaochen, thinking as he walked, did he have a guilty conscience?