One big and one small are practicing love

Early the next morning, Liu Xiaochen took the high-speed train back to Hangzhou.

During Liu Xiaochen's absence, Du Niang's former assistant Xiaoyue came back to assist with the work, but her child was sick and she needed to go home to take care of her child.

Zuo Kunmin has to go to the hospital for several cardiovascular rehabilitation exercises. The recurrence rate of acute myocardial infarction within a month is extremely high, and he cannot leave Beijing for the time being. Bian Chang was still in Beijing, accompanying Zuo Kunmin to the hospital and taking care of his two children.

Taking the high-speed train at 8:2 in the morning, Liu Xiaochen arrived in Hangzhou at around 4: in the afternoon. The sky was gloomy, with light rain falling, and the air was humid. It was already past o'clock in the afternoon when we took a taxi to the "Jiang Shang" farm.

The first class had just ended the day before, and today was a day off, so the farm was quiet.

Liu Xiaochen sent a message to Du Niang, telling her that he was back.

You go back to your room to rest first. I'm not at the farm. I'll look for you when I come back in the evening.

In Beijing, Liu Xiaochen took care of Zuo Kunmin in the hospital, while reading books and diaries. He often thought about it at night and could not fall asleep.

After returning to Hangzhou, I put aside all my worries for the time being and was able to relax and have a good rest. Liu Xiaochen returned to his room, put on comfortable pajamas, lay down, and fell asleep quickly.

Deep sleep.

Until I heard a knock on the door, "Xiaoxiao, are you there?"

It was Du Niang's voice. Liu Xiaochen woke up, the room was dark, and the rain outside the window was heavy. He said, "Here you are, wait a moment." Then he turned on the bedside lamp, stood up, and opened the door.

"I sent you a message, but you didn't reply, so I came to find you. I've prepared a meal. You can come over later and we'll have dinner together." Du Niang said with a smile.

"Okay, I'll change my clothes and go there."

After Du Niang left, Liu Xiaochen raised his wrist and looked at his watch. It was past 6 o'clock in the evening and he had slept for more than two hours. After changing clothes, I went to the kitchen.

As soon as I entered, I smelled a burning aroma and there was warm and humid water vapor lingering in the room.

"Xiaoxiao, I've prepared everything. Come and eat." Du Niang called softly in the restaurant.

Liu Xiaochen opened the curtain and went in. On the dining table, he saw white porridge in a coarse porcelain bowl, a plate of cold lamb tail bamboo shoots, and a plate of fried small potatoes with salt and pepper.

"Aunt Fen is not here. I'm not good at cooking. Let's have a simple meal." Du Niang took the initiative, pulled out a chair and sat down.

Liu Xiaochen smiled and said: "It's already very good, thank you."

There was no unnecessary greeting. After the two sat down, they ate quietly. During the time they lived together, they already had some tacit understanding. While eating, don't talk and just feel the taste of the food.

After the meal, Liu Xiaochen cleaned up the dishes and said, "Sister, let me wash the dishes."

"Okay, after washing, come to the tea room to find me. I'll make tea and wait for you."

They all had something to say to each other, and they were ready.

After cleaning up the kitchen, Liu Xiaochen held an umbrella and walked into the rain to the teahouse. I saw a dark-colored low table placed on the tatami, with a red clay stove on it and a black iron kettle warming it.

"I bought an unknown brick of tea in India before, and I recently drank it. It's very mellow. Come and try it." After saying this, Du Niang brewed a cup of tea and placed it in front of Liu Xiaochen.

"Thank you!" Liu Xiaochen sat down cross-legged and looked down at the white porcelain tea cup. The tea soup was brownish red.

Under the quiet light, the rain gurgled outside the window.

Du Niang looked at Liu Xiaochen steadily and said calmly: "Whatever you want to ask me, just ask me and I will tell you everything."

Liu Xiaochen slowly raised his head, took a deep breath, and said, "When did you know about the relationship between me, Teacher Zuo, and Teacher Wang?"

"First time I see you." Du Niang said without hesitation.

As she said that, Du Niang moved her eyes to Liu Xiaochen's wrist, looked at the half-exposed watch, and said: "Luoxia has been wearing this watch. At first, I didn't dare to confirm your identity, so I had to take you in first. Later, I I found a way to contact Xiaorou and found out what happened between you."

Liu Xiaochen raised his wrist, pulled his sleeve a little, completely exposed his watch, and lowered his head to look at it. Under the warm yellow light, the small diamonds on the dial sparkle. Thinking about how deep the friendship between the three of them is, they can confirm something to each other with just a watch.

"After you found out, why didn't you tell me?"

"I didn't want to keep it secret from you. I was waiting for the right time. You were in a very poor physical and mental state at the time, and it takes a strong body and mind to take on those darkness. You must heal yourself first, and then you can bear it again."

Hearing these words, Liu Xiaochen felt soft in his heart. Looking back on that period of depression, it was Du Niang who taught her various ways to recuperate her body and mind, explained the wisdom of getting rid of obsessions, and pulled her out of the darkness little by little.

"At the beginning, I knew that a woman named Zhou Qing ruined the marriage of Teacher Wang and Teacher Zuo. I hated that woman. But during this time with you, I cannot equate Du Niang and Zhou Qing to the same person." With that said, Liu Xiaochen leaned forward and asked: "Which one is the real you?"

"The tea is almost cold, you drink tea first." As she said that, Du Niang pointed to Liu Xiaochen's teacup.

Liu Xiaochen picked up the tea cup, tilted it slightly, and put it into his mouth. As soon as the tea was in his mouth, the sweet aroma of ripe chestnuts immediately arose.

"I didn't want to hurt Luoxia. We grew up together and were each other's best friends. But at that time, I was like a moth rushing to a flame. I only had instincts controlled by ignorance." As she said this, tears flashed in Du Niang's eyes. .

"The three of us were often together during the nine years of college and work. I have been unrequitedly in love with him for nine years. I see him and Luo Xia falling in love so much every day. I feel very painful and tormented in my heart."

"Why don't you leave them?"

"I didn't have the wisdom and strength to let go at that time. One was my childhood friend who I grew up with, and the other was a man I admired, admired and loved deeply. At that time, like every ordinary person with deep attachments, I didn't have the ability to let go. No one can help me get rid of this obsession. I am stuck in the quagmire and cannot extricate myself."

After finishing a cup of tea, Liu Xiaochen picked up the purple clay pot and poured tea while talking.

"I have no right to blame you for Teacher Wang. I just saw Teacher Wang's diary. She wanted to know what you were thinking at that time? She also wanted to know what would happen to you after this happened? She knew that Teacher Zuo I don’t love you."

After hearing the last sentence, the tears in Du Niang's eyes instantly rolled down. She quickly raised her head and took a deep breath to stop her tears.

Liu Xiaochen calmly poured a cup of tea for Du Niang and refilled it for himself. Then, he picked up the tea cup in front of him, smelled the aroma, and drank a cup of hot tea slowly and carefully.

Looking at Du Niang again, she had also finished a cup of tea, her eyes were still red, but her mood had softened. She slowly put down the tea cup and said leisurely.

"After that incident, I instinctively protected myself out of fear. I fled to Switzerland alone without contacting anyone. I thought that as long as I disappeared, they would forget that I existed and they would handle the problem on their own. It wasn't until my father found me that I realized the seriousness of the problem. I didn't expect that this incident would bring so much harm to Luoxia, Luoxia..." As she spoke, Du Niang choked up again.

Liu Xiaochen remained silent and motionless, looking at Du Niang quietly.

The sound of rain outside the window gradually weakened, and the faint sound of "cracking" coals was clear. Du Niang's deep breathing and sobbing sounds were clear.

After a long time, Du Niang continued: "Luoxia~ passed away. My father severed ties with me, and Kunmin never saw me again. Later, I often couldn't sleep all night, my heart kept hurting, and the cause of the disease could not be found. I was thin and wanted to commit suicide. Later I realized that there is no winner after the gunshot. Injury and being hurt are opposite and unified. When you hurt others, you are also destroying yourself..."

As she spoke, Du Niang burst into tears and choked up silently. Liu Xiaochen said nothing and waited patiently with red eyes.

After a while, Du Niang continued: It was my mother who pulled me out of the abyss. She took me to Tibet to climb mountains, to India to worship, and to Bhutan to seek teachers. Until I met an astrologer in the United States, who accurately explained my emotional problems through my horoscope. I just realized that there were some fundamental causal relationships in that matter. "

"I have never fundamentally believed in the words you mentioned about astrology, cause and effect, karma, reincarnation, etc. I think this is just a way for people to rationalize their behavior and shirk responsibility." Liu Xiaochen said with a frown, paused, and affirmed. Said: "But, I just saw you talking about what happened ten years ago, the state of pain and guilt, and I suddenly understood what reincarnation is."

Du Niang was hanging her head in a daze. When she heard the last sentence, she raised her head and looked directly at Liu Xiaochen.

Liu Xiaochen raised his head and took a deep breath, and said calmly: "It has been ten years since that incident, and it only happened once. But you, Teacher Zuo, including me now, and maybe Teacher Wang. Every time each of us touches that thing Whenever something happens, we will fall into the influence of that thing again, suffering, hindering, and hurting each other again and again. Reincarnation either happens in the past life or the next life, or it is the knot that cannot be let go in this life, causing us to return to that hurt again and again."

As soon as he finished speaking, the iron kettle began to boil, and white steam emerged from the spout. Liu Xiaochen sat up on his knees, picked up the iron pot, and poured boiling water into the empty purple clay pot. The iron kettle was refilled with cold water and placed on the red clay stove again.

"Xiaoxiao, read Luoxia's diary and tell me, did she still have this knot in her heart when she left?"

"Of course!" Liu Xiaochen said simply and decisively, his eyes suddenly red and wet, and he trembled: "Teacher Wang said in her diary that she especially hopes that one day, the three of you can sit together and face this matter frankly. . But she will never have such a chance again."

After saying that, both of them couldn't help crying and looked elsewhere. Liu Xiaochen looked at the red warm light emitted by the red clay stove, and Du Niang looked out the window at the dark and deep night.

When the flames gradually dimmed and the teapot stopped emitting white steam, Du Niang spoke again, hoarsely: "In the diary, is there anything Luoxia wants to do but hasn't done yet that I can do?"

"Yes." Liu Xiaochen replied without thinking. At the same time, he turned to Du Niang and said, "In a few days, Teacher Zuo will come to Hangzhou. At that time, I will tell you what Teacher Wang wants to say to you."

After that, Liu Xiaochen stood up slowly and said, "It's getting late, it's time to rest. Good night, Du Niang."