One big and one small are practicing love

Later, the general married several more wives and concubines. Several concubines in the house were fighting overtly and covertly, but the general turned a blind eye and concentrated on fighting on the battlefield. The little girl doesn't compete for fame and status. She just takes my children and lives an ordinary life in an independent courtyard outside the General's Mansion, taking care of and accompanying them.

When the general's career was at its peak, he was seriously injured in a battle and almost died. When he returned home to recuperate, his concubines arranged for him to distribute his money. The general was disheartened, and for the sake of purity, he moved to a small courtyard outside the general's mansion.

The little girl naturally took care of the general's life. The general found that the little girl was smart, considerate and sensible, and his two children were also knowledgeable, polite and considerate. At this time, the general understood what kind of relationship he really needed, and the person who really suited him was the little girl.

Finally, the general recovered from his illness. During an expedition, he took only the girl and my two children with him to a distant place and started his life again.

Haha, this dream is funny. Maybe, it's just a 'dream' of mine. However, out of deep concern for the children and him, I am still willing to believe in this dream.

I hope you can go to them when you grow up.

It seems that he is an omnipotent entrepreneur, but there is always a child in his heart that has not grown up. His mother gave him almost no love. She sent him to boarding kindergarten at the age of four. He was severely disciplined by his grandparents when he returned home. Deep in his heart, he felt deep fear, loneliness, and powerlessness.

In the six months I have lived with you, I have seen your sense of responsibility, sense of responsibility, sincere love for people, and resilience in learning to do things. I know how precious these qualities are, and I also know that when you grow up, you will definitely be a capable person. Strength man.

So, I especially want you to go to them. Although, I would rather take care of my children myself and be with my husband. But, this is my fate, and this is my blessing.

And the most important thing is, I once told you, "The two most important lights on the road of life are wisdom and love." But, that’s not right, because ‘love’ is not ultimate.

I was new to Buddhism and when I read about ‘wisdom and compassion’, I didn’t believe in ‘compassion’. Now, as I am about to die, I find that the only thing I can't let go of is my children. They are weak and unprotected, and I want them to be loved and accepted unconditionally.

But love between people is conditional. Only 'compassion' is the only unconditional, everlasting, profound, and ultimate love.

.........

Liu Xiaochen read the three pages of red-lined letter paper carefully twice. He had mixed feelings in his heart and could not really establish his own thoughts for a while.

Close your eyes and count your breaths, trying to calm yourself down. Then follow the instructions in the letter and start reading the diary.

It is a thick diary, and every page is filled with writing. Sometimes a diary contains five or six pages. At that time, Wang Luoxia had so many thoughts that no one could express. Her hatred, doubts, reflections, worries, longings... were all written down in her diary.

By the time I arrived in Beijing, I had read one-third of the diary.

After leaving the high-speed rail station, Li Zhiming came to pick up Liu Xiaochen. On the way, the two talked a lot.

Li Zhiming told Liu Xiaochen everything about Zuo Kunmin's current condition, the doctor's orders, his recent status, the misunderstanding between him and Chen Qingyan, the current situation of the children, etc. Also, ask Liu Xiaochen what he has been doing recently.

"I have been with Zhou Qing recently." Liu Xiaochen said bluntly.

He seemed not to believe that this sentence was said by Liu Xiaochen. Li Zhiming drove the car and turned to glance at Liu Xiaochen. In the dim light, he saw her eyes were calm. After confirming, he turned away.

"This is nothing! That guy's relationship is really a magical mess."

Liu Xiaochen said nothing and turned to look at the night and street lights outside the window.

"But don't say anything to him recently. His condition is very unstable now. The doctor said that his emotions and diet can cause him to be in danger of life again at any time. Go and stay with him and comfort him. He needs it especially now. you."

"But, I have a boyfriend."

Li Zhiming braked suddenly, stopped in front of a red light, and tapped the horn on the steering wheel, causing a harsh whistle to sound.

"Liu Xiaochen, did you really let go of him so quickly and fall in love with someone else immediately?"

"Because I can't let go of him, I want to find a new relationship as soon as possible to replace him and forget about him. Now you tell me this and put me in this situation. What do you want me to do?" Liu Xiaochen's voice said Became hoarse and shed tears.

Restarting the car, Li Zhiming slowed down and said calmly: "I'm sorry, Xiaoxiao, I shouldn't blame you. How could I not know that what you paid for him was how much he hurt you. But right now, he needs to save his life first. . Xiaoxiao, don’t tell him about your boyfriend now, and don’t tell him about Zhou Qing, wait until he recovers."

"it is good!"

While talking, he had already arrived at the hospital.

Wen Xiaorou was guarding the hospital bed while Zuo Kunmin was sleeping. Seeing Liu Xiaochen coming, she and Li Zhiming left together.

After they left, Liu Xiaochen came to Zuo Kunmin's bedside alone. As soon as his eyes fell on him, tears kept pouring out.

During the more than one hundred days since he was away from him, Liu Xiaochen couldn't help but think of the scene of meeting him again more than once. But I never expected that we would meet again in such a tragic way.

Yes, even if I paid him back his money, I wrote "No debt, no thoughts, no sight" in the letter, which cut off all contact with each other. But deep down in my heart, in and out of dreams, I still love him deeply, care about him deeply, and want to come back to him.

At this moment, seeing the dying Zuo Kunmin, my heart ached. Liu Xiaochen somewhat understood the 'compassion' mentioned in Teacher Wang's letter. She didn't care about any grudges, benevolence and morality, right or wrong. She just wanted him to be safe and healthy.

At this moment, Liu Xiaochen felt compassion for him from the bottom of her heart. She was willing to truly let go of everything, no matter what, just love him unconditionally, accompany him, take care of him, and let him move forward freely.