One big and one small are practicing love

When I bought my ticket, I specifically chose a seat by the window.

After getting on the plane, sit by the window, open the sunshade and look out the window.

Watch other planes taxiing at the airport, watch your plane slowly rise, and the high-rise buildings and streets shrink and disappear little by little; watch the planes flying high in the sky, swimming with the clouds; overlooking the city as the plane descends, changing from small to large. , from whole to tool.

This is what Liu Xiaochen wants to do every time he takes a plane. But in order to take care of the children and worry about him and the people around him, she felt that she had not seen the world. Therefore, Liu Xiaochen always sat on the side and did not dare to look out the window.

The vast white clouds lingered on the fuselage like mist, and it was such a monotonous scene even for a long time. Liu Xiaochen's neck was sore, but he still couldn't bear to look away.

This was the first time that she relied on her own ability to realize her wish, and she wanted to experience it fully and fully. Don't care about anyone's opinions.

The house sale, internship salary, scholarships, national grants, competition bonuses, a little savings left by parents, etc., all the money added up, except for paying him back. There are more than 6000 yuan left, which is all Liu Xiaochen's money now.

Although it was not much, Liu Xiaochen felt rich as never before. You no longer owe anyone money, and you no longer feel guilty about spending money. You can spend as much or as you want according to your heart.

After getting off the plane, Liu Xiaochen followed the airport signs to the taxi stop and got straight into an empty taxi. Tell where you want to go, without asking how much it will cost or looking at the meter.

I know that the money in my bag is enough to pay the fare. It is raining. I am tired, sleepy and sad at the moment. The place I want to go is far away. She wanted to take a break, get some sleep, and treat herself for once.

There was a continuous drizzle in the gloomy sky, and various vehicles were racing on the highway. The black wheels rolled forward, throwing up fine white water splashes, and the friction sound of "sizzsssssssssssssssssssss" vibrated. Liu Xiaochen quickly fell asleep due to the monotonous repetitive sights and sounds.

"Little girl, wake up, Nuo! We've arrived at the Fuchun River." The driver said in a soft Jiangsu and Zhejiang accent.

Liu Xiaochen opened his eyes when he heard the sound and looked out the window. There were still raindrops hanging on the glass, but the rain had stopped. The long, wide and wet road is empty of people and cars. On the other side of the road is a long embankment.

"How much, master." As he said this, Liu Xiaochen rummaged through his canvas bag for his wallet.

The master held up two bills in his hand, handed them to Liu Xiaochen, and said: "On the meter, it is one hundred and eighty-two yuan, but there is still twenty yuan for highway tolls, a total of two hundred and two, you give it to me Two hundred dollars would be fine.”

"Thank you, master." Liu Xiaochen said, took out two hundred yuan bills from his wallet and handed them to the master. Get off the car, put on the canvas bag, take off the black suitcase, and wave goodbye to the driver.

The cool breeze blows by the river, and the air is clear and soft. As soon as he got out of the car, Liu Xiaochen felt relaxed both physically and mentally. Taking a deep breath, he pushed his suitcase and walked slowly towards the embankment by the river.

Standing by the embankment, I looked up and found that the river level was much higher than when I left.

The original land was covered by water, half of the trunks of the trees on the shore were submerged in water, and a few trees were tilted along the river flow. I think it has rained heavily here recently.

Regardless of the dampness of the cement embankment, Liu Xiaochen jumped lightly and sat on it. He twisted around and sat down with his legs down facing the river. He took a deep breath and stared quietly at the clear water.

You can clearly see the clear and translucent water, the leaves floating on the surface of the river, and the dead branches and silt sinking at the bottom of the river. On the other side of the river, the lush green mountains, the clouds and birds in the sky, and a ferry in the distance are all reflected on the river.

Their images tremble and flow quietly along with the rippling water waves. The quiet beauty contained in this movement makes you feel at ease when you look at them.

A few birds chirping like "chirp, chirp, chirp", and several white waterbirds spread their wings and fly far and near among the green mountains and clear water. Some waterfowl swooped down to the river and picked up a small fish. Some water birds stood leisurely on the branches, trembling slightly with the river breeze.

Unconsciously, tiny ripples appeared on the calm river surface. A needle-like drizzle fell from the sky, falling on Liu Xiaochen's skin and hair, gentle and quiet.

Liu Xiaochen just sat quietly, staring at the river for a long time, sometimes forgetting the existence of his body and mind, as if he had melted into one with the surroundings, and had an indescribable sense of deep tranquility.

Staring at it, it seemed as if some unspeakable emotions welled up from the depths of my heart, and tears rolled down uncontrollably.

It wasn't until the rain got heavier and Liu Xiaochen was half wet that he turned towards the road and jumped off the embankment.

My legs were numb and weak, so I squatted on the ground for a while, waiting for my legs to regain consciousness. Liu Xiaochen wiped away his tears, opened his suitcase, took out a bright yellow long gauze shirt, put it on, covering his damp jeans and half-wet white cotton T-shirt.

Hold an umbrella, push your suitcase, and walk slowly along the river.

As I walked, I looked at the farm gates on the roadside. There was a row of farms built on this road. Liu Xiaochen remembered that on the first day she arrived here during her internship, she saw a recruitment advertisement posted at the door of a farm, looking for chefs, waiters, side dishes, cleaners, etc.

There was confusion right now.

She doesn't have a college diploma, and she doesn't want to or can't do financial work for the time being. She knows that her head is in chaos, her mood is unstable, and she can't do very strong mental work.

I don’t want him to find me, and I don’t want to owe each other any more, whether it’s money or feelings. Therefore, you cannot submit your resume online.

He doesn't have much money and has no way out, so he needs to murder in time to make a living.

Liu Xiaochen spent the whole night thinking about where to go and what to do.

I can’t go back to the place I was once familiar with. The world is a big place and there are many roads. But my knowledge, money, and abilities are all extremely limited. They are tightly clamped by invisible but strong ropes. There are very few places I can really go and very few things I can do.

After thinking about it, the place I like and can reach is this Fuchun River. The job that I can do and solve the accommodation problem is that of a waiter.

No one here knows her, people she once knew will never meet again, and she can let go of her worries about self-esteem and other people's evaluations.

Go back to your own bottom, like your parents, with nothing to go to a strange place, where fear, vulnerability, and escape are all useless. You can only rely on your hands and body strength to see what kind of life you can live.

Liu Xiaochen once asked the waiter at the farm where she lived at work that only a college degree or above was required for recruitment, but now she only has a high school diploma. We can only ask each company if they want to recruit people, explain their academic qualifications and abilities, and see if they can be used.

After asking around along the river, the first one was not hiring, the second one was only hiring waiters with more than two years of work experience, and the third one did not provide accommodation.

The rain is getting heavier and the wind is getting stronger. Liu Xiaochen held up a transparent plastic umbrella, which could not protect him from the slanting wind and heavy rain. His white canvas shoes were soaked through, and half of his trouser legs were wet through his blue jeans. His gauze clothes were flying in the wind, and his long black ponytail hung wetly. back.

It doesn’t take too many cruel external circumstances to test it. A heavy rain will make people’s weakness, powerlessness, and embarrassment have nowhere to hide.