One big and one small are practicing love

Liu Xiaochen washed her face with cold water in the bathroom, and Bian Chang stood silently aside, handing her tissues.

"Thank you!" Liu Xiaochen took the tissue and wiped the water stains on his face.

"It's all my brother's fault. The roast duck you eat makes you miss people."

Liu Xiaochen forced a smile and shook his head, saying: "I don't blame Teacher Zuo, it's just that I was too sensitive and thought too much. Sorry, we should be happy during the Chinese New Year, but I just ruined the atmosphere."

Bian Chang frowned and said: "Xiaoxiao, don't blame yourself for everything. Be more willful, so what if you make trouble unreasonably? If you have any grievances and dissatisfaction, vent them to my brother. Don't blame yourself for everything. Hidden in my heart.”

There was a sudden flushing sound, and then a bathroom door was pushed open.

"Let's go out and talk." Liu Xiaochen said, turning around and coming out first.

They came to the customer waiting area, each sitting on a plastic stool facing each other, and there were seven or eight people waiting around.

Bian Chang was the first to speak, saying: "Xiaoxiao, I know you broke up with my brother because of my sister-in-law. But I didn't mean to defend my brother. My brother really can't be blamed for their marital problems."

"Keep talking." Liu Xiaochen looked at Bian Chang steadily, with expectation in his eyes.

Bian Chang took a deep breath and said calmly: "Their relationship was very good at the beginning. About the third year, the two began to quarrel frequently, almost always because of work. But no matter how they quarreled, in the end It was my brother who gave in and followed my sister-in-law's wishes. After the quarrel, my brother was always the one who bowed his head and admitted his mistake and tried to persuade me. Only once did my brother not compromise or coax my sister-in-law."

"why?"

"They had fundamental differences in the direction of the company's development, and neither of them was willing to compromise. After a big quarrel, my sister-in-law stayed in the south and continued to run the manufacturing industry, while my brother went north to start the real estate and financial industries. They were busy separately. More than two months."

"During that period, did he find someone else?"

"My sister-in-law's best friend Zhou Qing is my brother's assistant. She has always liked my brother secretly. I don't know exactly how they had a relationship, but I can imagine that my brother is also an ordinary man with basic sexual desire. When he was young, There will be times when he is impulsive. But I am certain that my brother loves my sister-in-law very much, and he did not expect that behavior to hurt her so much."

Liu Xiaochen didn't speak, and sat quietly, his eyes wandering.

Bian Chang looked at Liu Xiaochen, waiting for her to speak.

"I understand." Liu Xiaochen suddenly said calmly, then stood up and said, "Let's go to dinner. I will have a good chat with Teacher Zuo in the evening."

As usual, they finished the meal lively, and then Zuo Kunmin drove them home together.

After arriving home, Bian Chang and his two children took the initiative to go upstairs, and Zuo Kunmin and Liu Xiaochen entered the study together.

They sat face to face at the desk, with the bright lights above their heads shining quietly and intensively. They were surrounded by dense thick books, as if many pairs of eyes were staring, and a sense of solemnity filled the air.

"Xiaoxiao, what I said in the car last time was impulsive. In fact, I am very afraid that you will leave me. Forgive me, please?" At this moment, Zuo Kunmin put aside his pride and self-esteem and expressed the vulnerability in his heart.

Liu Xiaochen looked at Zuo Kunmin expressionlessly and said calmly: "There is no such thing as forgiveness between you and me. The moment I got off the train and saw you, I wanted to turn around and be with you. Together."

"Okay..." Zuo Kunmin's eyes were bright and he reached out to grab Liu Xiaochen's hand.

With a slight twitch, Liu Xiaochen removed his hand from the table, lowered it, and affirmed: "But I can't be with you! I'm afraid that I've lost my mind again and can't help but look back. So I didn't dare to follow you in the car. You talk, I need to calm down. Until the moment before I walked in the door, I was still telling myself that I can never look back."

"Why? We obviously love each other."

"As you said, the real difference between us is not age, but knowledge. I once thought love was sacred, beautiful, pure and honest, and indestructible, but now I know that love is more fragile than a delicate flower. .A misunderstanding, a distance, a time that is too short or too long, a thought of desire, many small things can destroy it."

Zuo Kunmin nodded thoughtfully and said: "Xiaoxiao, over the years, I have been learning how to protect love. There are always women who take the initiative to throw themselves into my arms, either in the hotel where I am on a business trip or in the business field. Many people offered me sexual services. To be honest, I was not shaken. But in the end, I refused them all. For you and this family, I am willing to keep the necessary precepts."

Liu Xiaochen chuckled lightly and said: "I often criticize myself for being insatiable, complaining for nothing, and having too high demands on love. To be able to be with someone like you, I shouldn't have any more demands. But..." As he said that, Liu Xiaochen Suddenly his voice choked up and he said: "I can't lie to myself. Teacher Zuo, I was often in pain during the time I was with you."

"Xiao Xiao, don't be like this." Zuo Kunmin's eyes turned red. He quickly took out two tissues and handed them to Liu Xiaochen. He said in a trembling voice: "If you have any dissatisfaction with me or any requests from me, just tell me. I will try my best to do it."

With tears streaming down his face, Liu Xiaochen raised his head to stop the tears, and tried to take a deep breath to suppress the emotion. Zuo Kunmin stood up, came to her side, and hugged her gently. Her head was buried against his warm chest, and his chin rested on her soft hair.

They hugged each other like this for a while, until Liu Xiaochen calmed down a little, pushed Zuo Kunmin away and said, "I want to drink water."

"Okay, I'll pour it." Zuo Kunmin stood up and left the study.

Maybe it’s because I cried a little too much and my brain lacked oxygen, or maybe my body was tired after running around for a day. At this time, Liu Xiaochen had a headache and dizziness, so he took out Longhu brand cooling oil from his pocket and applied it to his temples.

A cool numbing sensation came quickly.

At this time, Zuo Kunmin came in holding two gold-rimmed hammered glasses, sat next to Liu Xiaochen, handed her the glass, and said: "Warm water, you can drink it."

‘Gudong, Gudong. ’ Liu Xiaochen raised his neck and swallowed, drinking half a glass of water in one breath.

Zuo Kunmin watched quietly from the side, smelling her scent carefully, and couldn't help but said: "Xiaoxiao, I like the cool mint smell on your body."

After wiping his mouth with his sleeve, Liu Xiaochen looked at Zuo Kunmin and said word by word: "Teacher Zuo, you are an amazing entrepreneur. I deeply love your entrepreneurial spirit, sense of responsibility, responsibility, determination, and fearlessness." Fearless and indomitable, you carry all things like the earth. You will never be like the CEO in the idol drama, who revolves around love all day long and appears at any time when I need you. But I have too many expectations for you and delusions.”

"Xiao Xiao, I..." Zuo Kunmin tried to explain something.

Liu Xiaochen interrupted him and continued: "I don't know what your world is like. I can't really know you, let alone understand you. I can only look up to you and guess about you through my own delusions. Based on this A relationship based on a model will not be stable and healthy, let alone last long. Teacher Zuo, we all need to change."

For a while, Zuo Kunmin didn't speak, and just looked at Liu Xiaochen intently.

"Teacher Zuo, I don't want to be just a smell when you need comfort, a functional existence for cooking and accompanying children, a grain of dust that needs you to carry and protect. I want to explore, as myself, here What kind of existence is this world?”

Zuo Kunmin silently held Liu Xiaochen's hand, clasped their fingers together, nodded heavily, and said: "Xiaoxiao, I understand what you mean. When I met you, although you were still young, I had seen countless people and had already recognized you. A character that can grow into a big tree or a mountain. I once thought about giving you freedom, but I was afraid that you would really no longer need me and fly away." As he spoke, his eyes turned red.

"Teacher Zuo, we must separate now to re-understand this relationship, so that we can truly change each other. Just like painting, some problems cannot be discovered at close range. They must be discovered through distance, time, and freedom."

"During this period, I have to work in the UK, and you have to go to Hangzhou to work in a closed environment. It will be difficult for us to meet and contact you. I will give you this freedom, but don't break up with me." Zuo Kunmin affirmed.

"Teacher Zuo!" Liu Xiaochen shouted solemnly and said firmly: "I can't solve so many problems in a fixed time. What is love? Should I pursue it? Can love last? I am with you, Did it hurt Teacher Wang? Why did you and Teacher Wang obviously love each other deeply, but ended up hurting each other?" He said with tears in his eyes.

Zuo Kunmin took a few deep breaths, nodded slightly, and said, "Okay, you go find the answer, I'll wait for you."

His body immediately relaxed, Liu Xiaochen took his hand out of Zuo Kunmin's, stood up, and said calmly: "I'm tired, I'm going to sleep."