One big and one small are practicing love

Zuo Kunmin decided not to wait any longer, not because she lost patience because of her strong sexual desire, but because she confirmed her true inner expectations.

Zuo Kunmin knew that she was a self-respecting and self-respecting woman. Tonight, if she hadn't deliberately waited for him, if it hadn't been for the pride that prevented her from speaking out about love, she wouldn't be like this tonight. Leave the door unlocked.

Insight without showing it, protecting her fragile self-esteem. Break those taboos with direct, affirmative, powerful words and actions.

"I don't want to wait any longer."

Be patient and gentle with her body. Observe her reaction and provide further responses and guidance.

……

Her response remained clumsy. He kissed her deeply for a long time until she completely relaxed and reacted naturally.

At the last step, she asked to turn off the lights, and he wanted to see her reaction. He respected her wishes and turned off the light.

When he knew it was her first time, Zuo Kunmin felt a deep tenderness in his heart and thought of Wang Luoxia. The last time he got a woman for the first time, it was his first girlfriend, who was also his wife. Although I no longer have any virginity complex, I am more convinced that a girl's first time is still very precious.

When she pushed him hard, he came out decisively despite being nostalgic. Stop her physical pain and comfort her.

He held her, truly feeling her body trembling, and waited patiently for her to calm down before chatting calmly.

When she offered to do something for him to make him feel less uncomfortable. For a moment, he wanted to express his true physical needs. But his reason told him that he couldn't do it right now, so he got up and went to the bathroom to solve the problem himself.

When the hot water poured on his skin, Zuo Kunmin felt a tingling sensation on his shoulders and back, and at the same time, his mind became clearer.

It’s been many years since I’ve treated a woman’s body with tenderness, patience, and sincerity like tonight.

In the past, I wanted to be greedy, fast, and convenient. Thinking that giving, being truthful, and being patient are draining and harmful to oneself.

But right now, the feelings of deep contentment, true joy, and deep peace are real.

In my thirties, after a long period of repeated attempts, confusion, reflection, and adjustments, I finally slowly learned how to truly love. I also truly understand that loving others correctly is also the best gift you can give yourself.

After Zuo Kunmin took a shower, he put on a white bathrobe and came out. I want to tell her how I felt when I took a shower just now. When she found that Liu Xiaochen was no longer there and that the sheets had been replaced with new ones, it suddenly became clear that she was still frightened and uneasy.

When I came out to look for her, I thought she was thirsty and went to the kitchen to drink water. When we got to the kitchen, there was no one there. Zuo Kunmin drank two glasses of water, then returned to the living room and called her in a low voice: "Xiao Xiao! Xiao Xiao!"

There is a difference between the first time for someone who has experienced it and the first time for someone who has experienced it for the first time. Zuo Kunmin knew very well that they still could not truly understand each other and needed honest and in-depth communication with each other.

"I'm sorry! It's my fault. I shouldn't only care about myself."

"I love you!"

He apologizes sincerely and expresses love directly and affirmatively. After that, the two finally opened their hearts, hugged each other, and chatted slowly and carefully.

The question every girl has in love is, ‘Why did you fall in love with me? ’ is also the root cause of their insecurity. Liu Xiaochen also had the same question.

Zuo Kunmin had never thought about this issue before. After listening to her words, he thought deeply about it for the first time. He could confirm that he truly loved her. However, he couldn't figure it out for the time being, where did this love come from? How did it get to where it is today? Where will you go in the future?

As I was thinking about it, I suddenly remembered a sentence I once saw, ‘I will recognize you, I will recognize you again and again. ’ I remember the first time I saw this sentence, I felt a touch of disdain and disgust in my heart. It was also the love talk of some people who put love first.

But for some reason, I suddenly remembered this sentence at this moment, and inexplicably began to believe it.

"I don't know! However, when you asked me this question, I suddenly remembered a sentence I had seen, 'I will recognize you, I will recognize you again and again.' I didn't believe this sentence at all before. I thought it was too Metaphysically. But I suddenly started to believe this sentence just now." Zuo Kunmin said.

"Why?" she asked. It was also a question he had about himself.

Zuo Kunmin thought of all the things he had experienced since starting his own business. The people, things, and feelings were numerous and complicated. Like most businessmen, he had lost himself in this and had his dreams reversed.

Now I am slowly returning to my clear and free nature, and the biggest helper is Liu Xiaochen. There is no doubt about this. Perhaps subconsciously, people tend to be those who are truly good for themselves. In this way, Zuo Kunmin confirmed her specialness, uniqueness, irreplaceability, and rare preciousness to him.

After wanting to understand this, Zuo Kunmin frankly told Liu Xiaochen what was in his heart.

Most people cannot face the truth calmly, especially people like Zuo Kunmin, who rarely express true feelings. So, when Liu Xiaochen forced a smile and talked about him. He said simply and affirmatively again: "I speak from my heart."

A long, deep hug. Sometimes, a thousand words are far better than silence, quietly feeling each other's body temperature, heartbeat, and smell. Like a speechless little animal.

Another casual chat. There are relaxed gossips, jokes, and questions that have always been lingering... It doesn't matter, but it is as important as air and water.

Finally, she asked him to leave and go upstairs to see the children.

He actually wanted to see the children, but he was worried that if he left her alone, she would feel lonely and hurt, so he thought of staying tonight.

"Yanyan told me that every time you look at her, she wakes up. Every time you don't come home, she will ask me the next morning, why dad didn't come back? Xiao Xu also asked me several times tonight , when will dad come back?"

When Liu Xiaochen said these words, his attitude was very certain. Zuo Kunmin also softened his heart and missed the children he had not seen for a long time even more.

Finally, I decided to leave and see the kids.

"Turn off the desk lamp." Zuo Kunmin said.

Zuo Kunmin thought of the shy way she lowered her head and curled up when she got up naked, and understood that she still had a strong sense of shame about her body.

Chinese people, especially girls, have had a strong sense of shame about their bodies and sexual desires for thousands of years due to their external environment and their own minds. Zuo Kunmin knew that he could not make her let go of this sense of shame for the time being, and it would take time to do so slowly.

In the darkness, Zuo Kunmin put on his clothes one by one in the dark. While I was putting on my belt, I suddenly heard Liu Xiaochen say: "Teacher Zuo, no wonder so many women are throwing themselves at you."

Turning around, he saw her staring at him with a smile, and realized that she had been watching him get dressed.

After teasing her with a few words of affection, I heard her sneezing and remembered that she had a bad cold, so I hurriedly covered her with the quilt.

"Cover tightly and go to bed quickly. Tomorrow morning, we will go to Phoenix Mountain together."

"Good night! Teacher Zuo!" Liu Xiaochen said gently. As he spoke, he raised his face and kissed his thin lips.

Zuo Kunmin couldn't help but said: "Good night! My baby!"

Zuo Kunmin himself was a little surprised when he said the name "Baby". Yes, Zuo Kunmin almost forgot that he often called Wang Luoxia 'baby'. Now I am even embarrassed to shout out to my own children.

Go upstairs and go straight to Zuo Xu's room first.

I saw him kicking off the quilt again and curling up to sleep. Zuo Kunmin shook his head, grabbed the corner of the quilt, and gently covered Zuo Xu. As soon as he covered himself with the quilt, Zuo Xu immediately stretched his legs and arms, his body relaxed and natural.

Came to Zuo Yan's room again.

As soon as he saw her pure and soft little face, Zuo Kunmin immediately smiled. Smiling, his eyes were inexplicably moist. Zuo Kunmin couldn't help but leaned down, kissed her cheek, and whispered: "Yanyan, daddy loves you."

Before going to bed, Zuo Kunmin sent a message to Bian Chang: Changchang, do you know what flowers your mother likes best?

Love and family affection made Zuo Kunmin temporarily forget the worries of work. But while lying on the bed silently, Zuo Kunmin couldn't help but think of things at work.

Do you want to do it? Can it be done? How to do it? what happens? What are the consequences? …

Perhaps it was the deep comfort brought by emotion. When he thought about these problems again, Zuo Kunmin did not feel as restless as he did during the afternoon meeting. Just look at it objectively and think seriously like a bystander.

Until I was really exhausted and slowly fell asleep.