One big and one small are practicing love

Especially in the first three or four days, too many new concepts were poured into my mind, and there were many professional terms that I didn’t understand. I need to stop again and again and search online for words, names of people, questions, etc. that I don’t understand. I paused back and forth while pulling the film, and I watched the same clip seven or eight times, but I still couldn't see what was good about it...

Limited absorption, many doubts, eagerness, slow progress, and little effect.

When you are stressed and want to retreat and slack off. Liu Xiaochen will write a diary to affirm his current progress and encourage himself; sort out the distractions and adjust himself.

Thinking back over and over again what Zuo Kunmin said to herself, she also recalled what Teacher Wang said to her, 'As long as you don't want to be a scientist, astronaut, Olympic champion, artist and other top talents in the industry, most industries and things, even if they are People with mediocre qualifications can achieve a good level as long as they work hard. ’

Through study, I understand more and more professional knowledge and see the logic behind many performances. However, there are still many problems and limitations that cannot be overcome for the time being. Carrying all kinds of good and bad, try your best to move forward.

Shen Liang sent Liu Xiaochen two messages, asking her how she was studying now and if there was anything she didn't understand, she could ask him.

Liu Xiaochen responded honestly. He was reluctant to learn and had many doubts. He couldn't explain it in one or two sentences. But most of the questions can be supplemented by oneself from the Internet. Although the learning by oneself is shallow and difficult, the time and environment are limited. I don’t want to trouble Shen Liang and want to do my best to do it on my own.

Liu Xiaochen and Zuo Kunmin never called each other again, but they would send each other messages and talk about small things in life.

The tall poplar trees on both sides of the campus have sprouted tender green buds, and they look full of life under the sun. Liu Xiaochen took several photos, with various lighting and viewing angles, and sent them to Zuo Kunmin.

As Zuo Xu improved in playing the piano, Liu Xiaochen repeated the recording several times, selected the video with the best performance, and sent it to Zuo Kunmin.

The teacher praised Zuo Yan in the group, took screenshots, and sent out the children's piano test certificates...and sent them to Zuo Kunmin one by one, and chatted about these things in trivial matters.

Zuo Kunmin also posted some photos, most of which were taken through the car glass or conference room glass. They include ancient buildings like castles under the blue sky and white clouds, as well as modern high-rise buildings like Beijing, buffets, etc. In response to the message sent by Liu Xiaochen, he rarely said anything about his situation.

None of them spoke about their current predicament. But Liu Xiaochen knew that he had many important and difficult things to do in a foreign country. Zuo Kunmin should also know that she will be in trouble, maybe because he is too busy to take care of himself, maybe because he believes that she can solve it by herself.

On the fifth day of study, there was a turning point, as if the quantitative change really caused a qualitative change.

Liu Xiaochen felt that when he read the book, he could understand and absorb more knowledge, and when he was watching the film, he could really understand what was good about his performance, and he spontaneously came up with some ideas for writing film reviews... From this, his confidence was slowly built up.

I believe again that positive actions are the fundamental solution to confusion.

Half a month passed in the blink of an eye, and the night before the manuscript was due, Liu Xiaochen once again wrote a film review for "Spring Sunny".

There seems to be a spring in my heart, and energy naturally gushes out. I write a lot eloquently. Sometimes I have doubts in the middle, so I stop, open the notebook, and quickly and accurately turn to the place I want to check. The dense handwriting and colorful outlines are all there. Mark it, take a few glances and continue writing.

I wrote for more than two hours at a stretch, and it was almost 12 o'clock when I finished writing.

Liu Xiaochen felt sleepy and knew that this film review needed to be revised, but now he was mentally exhausted, his brain was numb, and his eyes were sore. I can only wait until the condition is better tomorrow morning and then modify and polish it.

Although there was still one step left, Liu Xiaochen knew that this matter was basically over.

Turning off the computer, Liu Xiaochen tidied his desk.

Books, notebooks, pens, and small stationery are organized one by one.

After tidying up his desk, Liu Xiaochen took another photo.

Under the bright white light, on the log-colored rectangular desk, there is a thick stack of books neatly stacked, with titles such as "An Actor's Self-cultivation", "Carving Time", "Understanding Movies", and "Your Script Is So Bad". , "The Grammar of the Lens"... The notebook with a plain purple cover is as thick as a one-yuan coin. It has various small colorful labels on it when viewed from the side. It is thick and loose. The eraser was ground from a square shape into a round shape, half the size of the original size.

Liu Xiaochen sent the photo to Zuo Kunmin and also sent a message.

Teacher Zuo, I have finished writing the movie review. I'll revise it again tomorrow morning and submit it. I know it's not good enough, but it's fundamentally different from what I wrote half a month ago. Regardless of the outcome, I feel at ease.

After sending the message, Liu Xiaochen lay on the bed. Although he was sleepy but not sleepy, he just wanted to think about this matter. Thinking about it, I smiled unconsciously, more of a self-deprecating smile.

Gu Liya went to Liu Xiaochen for dinner and shopping several times, and Liu Xiaochen told her the truth. Gu Liya didn't understand why she worked so hard for a film review, saying that she was really asking for trouble.

Liu Cuili thought Liu Xiaochen was doing it for the bonus. She said that her boyfriend gave her random gifts, and the prices were higher than the highest bonus. When she asked Zuo Kunmin how much pocket money he gave her every month and what gifts he usually gave her, Liu Xiaochen laughed. language.

In other words, Sun Xinxin understood Liu Xiaochen's personality and knew that she had always been like this. She used too much force in everything she did and was accustomed to it. She neither suppressed nor encouraged her, but she rarely contacted Liu Xiaochen during this period.

Liu Xiaochen thought about how many people looked down upon her for using excessive force when she was in middle school.

What everyone praises is the students who sleep in class, talk, and do not do homework, and still get high scores. This is the real smart one. People like Liu Xiaochen, who always study hard and work hard in secret and overtly, are defined as stupid and fake smart. Their high scores seem to be stolen and they will be belittled and ridiculed.

Liu Xiaochen also tried not to be a 'stupid person' but to try whether he was a 'smart person'.

There were two or three times when Liu Xiaochen stopped working hard, and his final results were indeed worse than usual, but they were still good. But Liu Xiaochen felt particularly uneasy. She knew that during the exam, she got many questions right by luck, and that after the test, she would never have the chance to study some knowledge seriously.

Liu Xiaochen knows that luck does not come often and opportunities for learning are limited. Take knowledge firmly into your own hands, and no matter what the result is, you will have no regrets.

When I went to school, it was to get good grades, so why this time?

Although he also wanted to win the prize, Liu Xiaochen knew that was definitely not the main reason. She thought about her motivation seriously. She got inspiration and energy from the actor. She wanted to express this energy and give it back to more people.