One big and one small are practicing love

After a long time, Zuo Kunmin continued: "When I carried Yanyan to climb the mountain just now, I remembered the smell of sweat and tobacco on my grandfather's back when he carried me, and the feeling of his protruding spine hitting me. I suddenly understood why I When encountering dangers, setbacks and other difficulties, I always think of that summer vacation and my grandfather. This kind of love expressed with physical strength, words and actions is concrete, direct and profound for children. Children need this kind of primitive and explicit love. Love."

As he spoke, Zuo Kunmin sighed lightly and said, "But I rarely express this kind of love to Yanyan and Xiaoxu, and I even deny this kind of love."

"Chacha~chacha~" the magpie's chirp came slowly. The two of them looked out the window for a sound at the same time, and saw a black and white magpie chirping toward their room on the bare treetops in the yard.

Zuo Kunmin stood up, walked to the window, opened the window, and looked at the magpie.

Liu Xiaochen also stood up, watching from a distance of two or three steps.

I saw a magpie standing quietly on a bare twig among the blue sky and white clouds. The breeze blew the branches and swayed. The magpie trembled up and down with a peaceful expression. Its black eyes stared at Zuo Kunmin quietly.

Watching, Liu Xiaochen felt deeply moved and peaceful in his heart, and his eyes couldn't help but feel wet. Turning to look at Zuo Kunmin, I saw him staring at the magpie with tears in his eyes and his face full of tears.

"Pullingleng~" A gentle vibration of the air sounded clearly. The magpie spread its wings and flew away, and then Zuo Kunmin let out a low sob.

"Teacher Zuo!" Liu Xiaochen shouted softly, walked over and hugged him actively. She clearly felt his body trembling, resonating with his nostalgia, reluctance, and sadness. Her tears were streaming down her face.

The two hugged each other and cried for a while. Close the window, lie on the bed together, and look at each other face to face.

The sun shone warmly on them, and their bodies and minds felt light, bright, and warm from the inside out.

"Thank you, Xiaoxiao, for staying with me at this moment."

"Thank you for trusting me and being willing to open up to me."

Zuo Kunmin thought for a while and said: "You have a certain quality. When I am with you, I will relax unconsciously and naturally reveal my true feelings. For a long time, I have believed that defensiveness, autism, and numbness can It’s safe to be in a state. I didn’t think about opening my heart, but you have opened my heart.”

"You make me sound like a psychic wizard." Liu Xiaochen smiled happily and put his palms up in front of his nose and lips to make a gesture of chanting a spell.

Zuo Kunmin naturally took her hand, held it in his palm, and asked, "Have you opened your heart to me?"

"You know everything about me." Liu Xiaochen said innocently.

"Why did you cry so sadly in your dream this morning? Why didn't you tell me you were hurt? Why didn't you tell me if you had a high fever or were sick?"

Liu Xiaochen said lightly: "People are ultimately lonely. For me, the important thing is not to find someone to talk to or to comfort with actual words and deeds, but to have something to rely on in my heart. You give me something to rely on in my heart and body. very good!"

Zuo Kunmin looked at Liu Xiaochen deeply, frowned and asked, "You little girl, where did you get so much profound understanding?"

"Perhaps as Teacher Wang said, the order of my life is different from others. Farewell, life and death, loneliness, I have experienced such lessons earlier than others. Through practice and study, I know these things in advance." Liu Xiaochen spoke in a calm tone, without any sadness.

Zuo Kunmin suddenly thought that Liu Xiaochen lost his parents and younger brother when he was 12 years old. This 'sudden' is extremely impactful, completely different from the previous 'knowing' that shocked the soul.

When I was in my thirties, I experienced the death of a close relative. After a long period of adaptation, the grief that appeared repeatedly inadvertently made me tame and reflect on myself many times.

At this moment, Zuo Kunmin truly understood what kind of situation Liu Xiaochen faced when he was a child. And truly understand how difficult it is for her to come out of the great sorrow and pain gracefully and become what she is today.

"Xiaoxiao, I have seen many people sink quickly and be unable to get up when faced with great sorrow and difficulties. I am very curious, how did you come out at such a young age?"

"Because of Teacher Wang and you!" Liu Xiaochen said without thinking.

"How to say?"

"Well..." Liu Xiaochen turned over and lay down, looking up at the ceiling, and said: "I have experienced two births. One is the physical birth, which comes from my parents. The other is the awakening of consciousness, which comes from Teacher Wang and you. .”

Having said this, Zuo Kunmin silently held Liu Xiaochen's hand, his hands and fingers interlocking gently.

Liu Xiaochen paused for a moment and continued: "Your appearance made me know that there are still such outstanding people in the world, and let me know that in addition to eating, drinking and having fun, there are also arts such as painting, literature, music, etc. You have made me worry-free about food and clothing. You can study and explore with all your heart, and give me help and guidance when I encounter confusion." After saying that, Liu Xiaochen turned around again and looked at Zuo Kunmin.

"Many of my classmates have dropped out of school to work or get married and have children. They are in financial distress and are extremely hard-working. They have no one to help them and are even dragged down by their families. They are unable to change the reality and can only struggle in the misery of the iron wall. I met Teacher Wang in this life. , meeting you is already a great blessing. I should know my blessings and cherish them."

Suddenly, the light in the house became gloomy, and the sound of "whirring" wind sounded outside the window.

"Xiao Xiao!" Zuo Kunmin shouted solemnly.

"What's wrong? Teacher Zuo?"

"There is another important thing, did you forget to say it?"

"what?"

Zuo Kunmin pursed his lips and smiled, and said: "Little girl, I have nothing to repay, I can only pledge myself to you."

After saying that, before he could wait for Liu Xiaochen to react, he turned over and pressed Liu Xiaochen under him, kissing him deeply.