Crime Hunt Files: Bloody Angel

Luo Ran stood on the bridge, leaning on the railing with his elbows, looking back in the direction of home.

That was the house she rented with her boyfriend Zhao Yuran after graduation.

There, she spent countless happy and painful days.

At this moment.

She looked at her boyfriend standing on the top of the building, ready to jump down at any moment, and her heart stopped.

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When I was a child, my mother said:

"Your father doesn't like you. What he likes most is his son."

When I grew up, my father said:

"Don't worry, it has nothing to do with you."

One day, coming home from school:

"Mom, why are you crying? Did you quarrel with dad again?

"We might be getting divorced."

"why?"

"There are many reasons, and I can't explain them clearly to you right now. Also, you should live with your mother from now on. Your father said he doesn't want you anymore."

"okay, I get it."

In a few days, it will be a holiday:

"Mom, after the divorce, will we move away or will dad leave?"

"Unlike other children, you seem to be very happy when your parents divorce?"

"Because my father doesn't like me, I will be happier living with my mother. I will work hard to make money and make you happy every day."

"..."

Another early morning, one morning, half asleep, I heard my mother and aunt calling:

"Just leave. We have been together for so many years and our life is not going well. Just take Luo Ran with you. She will also be filial, which is good."

"no the same."

"Why is it different? Ranran doesn't worry much more than your husband!"

"The child will not stay with you all your life. No matter how many problems he has and make me angry, I still need him."

There are many more plots that are almost identical.

So many times that Luo Ran, who had heard her parents say they wanted a divorce since she was a child, had been exposed to the wolf so many times that she no longer felt anything until she grew up.

She was the child of her father's remarriage. Before that, she had a half-brother.

Luo Ran's parents are both unpredictable people.

Her father would get angry at her in inconspicuous places, and even after talking to her, when she returned to the room, she would hear the sound of bowls being smashed from the kitchen.

When he had a loud quarrel with someone, he would see Xiao Luo Ran who was frightened and crying, and then he would get angry because he thought she had no ambition.

He does not allow his children to accuse him. Even if he knows that he is wrong, he will still choose to get angry for the sake of his superior father's face.

The mother would get angry without warning, losing her temper for no apparent reason even though she had done nothing wrong.

Her violent temper forced everyone in the family to give way to her.

In Luo Ran's eyes, they were like two contradictory bodies, seemingly vicious, but in fact, whenever Luo Ran needed it, her careless father would immediately help her buy what she needed after she asked;

Her mother is even more powerful. She will prepare things for Luo Ran in advance that she seems to need, and take good care of her life.

Countless times before.

She thought that in this family and in this world, her mother was the only one who loved her, and she loved her mother the most.

Her father doesn't love her.

She has a father, but it's like she doesn't have one.

After all, she couldn't explain why she thought so.

It was as if he was born unable to get close to his father, and felt an inexplicable sense of alienation.

No, that's not right.

She remembered.

When she was young, relatives in her mother's family would always criticize her father in front of her, using various memories that she had forgotten to describe his bad treatment of her.

After subtle influence, she grew up in a trance and became increasingly unclear.

Especially when she saw her father handing her the milk tea with the richest ingredients in the milk tea shop next to the school after school in junior high school;

Especially during the three years of high school, when I would get up early and work late at night, taking her to and from school every day;

Especially when she says what she wants to eat, her father will say, "Dad will buy it for you tomorrow";

Especially when she grew up, she suddenly remembered that when she was a child, she would run to the door as soon as the door opened every night to pick up new toys brought back by her father who worked in a toy store.

She was even more confused about what her father's role was.

Luo Ran had never confided these childhood memories in front of any friends.

She just endured it silently, struggling repeatedly in the extremely chaotic memory.

If you tell all this, some people may think that it is really too much for the mother and her family to criticize her father in front of the child. They have ulterior motives and they do not love the child at all.

She could neither deny nor prove the ulterior motives.

But when it comes to love, the opposite is true.

They treated Luo Ran better.

Her mother, who occasionally had a bad temper, was so kind to her that she was unworldly.

It is precisely because of this goodness that it not only outweighs the father's love in the details, but also makes Luo Ran mistakenly believe that she and her mother are each other's favorite people in this world.

Even if everyone in the world is gone, they still have each other.

Until, very recently.

They are getting "divorced" again.

Just like every time before, she unconditionally supported her mother's freedom of choice.

As a result, my mother said coldly: "I have been with him for more than thirty years, much longer than you."

From that day, she finally understood that her mother loved her father very much.

She is her mother's beloved child, but she will never be her only choice.

My own existence can never replace anyone else.

So why?

Why does your love have to be repeated in front of her like the cry of wolf?

After a quarrel, whether it was a breakup or a divorce, why did you ask her to get involved, and in the end, use a few words to make her out like a clown?

What is the purpose?

What is love?

After remembering the incident, the idea that had always been unswerving began to waver after they had divorced several times, and was finally overturned by a simple sentence from my mother.

Luo Ran finally understood.

She originally thought that her father loved her brother, her mother loved herself, and she loved her mother;

In fact, the father loves his brother the most, and he also loves her. The mother loves herself, and she also loves her father.

From beginning to end, she was never firmly established as someone's one and only.

She only received part of the love.

It's sad.

Luo Ran looked at the water surface undulating in the wind under the bridge and laughed to himself.

Family, love, friendship.

Love in human emotions has obvious definitions, and they need to be clearly assigned to people of different identities. None of them can be missing.

She actually only really understood it a year ago.

She has been confused, not because she can't tell the difference, but because her emotions are not that healthy.

She didn't dare to ask for someone who could express her three different emotions. She only wanted one.

She only wanted one, one who she regarded as the only one and who also regarded her as the only one.