After being a widow for half my life, I found out that my husband was not dead.

The weather is getting colder and colder. Apart from Liu Yunxiang's heartache since Xiaowu's death, he can't seem to cheer up for anything he does in the past few days. Yan Mu acts as an agent for the government and is very busy every day, but whenever he has time, he will come over to accompany her.

A sudden north wind blew up during the night, causing the window lattice to creak.

"Don't...don't leave me..."

When Liu Yunxiang heard this, he opened his eyes and looked to the side. He saw that Yan Mu didn't know what he was dreaming about, his brows were furrowed, and his expression was panic.

"Yan Mu." She called him softly.

"No! No!"

Yan Mu woke up suddenly, his eyes widened and he was breathing rapidly. He seemed to have seen something terrible, and his body was still shaking.

"Yan Mu, you just had a nightmare."

Liu Yunxiang reached out to touch his face to comfort him, but he avoided it.

"Don't touch me!" When he dodged, there was a clear flash of coldness in his expression.

Liu Yunxiang's hand froze in mid-air, paused, and could only take it back helplessly.

"What did you dream about?"

Yan Mu frowned, "Nothing."

"You kept shouting not to leave me behind. Who, who left you?"

Yan Mu didn't answer this, got up and got out of bed, poured a cup of tea and drank it. Then he rubbed his forehead and breathed a sigh of relief.

"I dreamed about the time when Yan's house was ransacked."

Liu Yunxiang sat up and said, "It's easy for you to mention what happened at that time."

"Well, I don't know if it was because it was too chaotic at that time or because I was too scared. I can't remember many things clearly."

"Then what did you dream about?"

Yan Mu lay back, pulled Liu Yunxiang into his arms, and said: "I dreamed that there were corpses everywhere and rivers of blood. It was really ridiculous for me to hold a sword and try to save people from the officers and soldiers. But everyone in the house was killed. Before they died, the last look they looked at me was filled with disgust and hatred."

"Why, why?"

"Heshuo was like crazy, shouting at those people: It's him, it's him who killed you, don't let him go even if you are a ghost!"

"Sure enough, he is crazy!" Liu Yunxiang said angrily.

Yan Mu chuckled, "What's even crazier is that she pushed me under the knife of an officer and soldier and told the officer and soldier to kill me quickly."

Liu Yunxiang hugged Yan Mu and said, "We won't mention her anymore. She is already dead."

"The officer and soldier didn't kill me, but I killed him. At that time, I waved the sword in my hand and killed people on sight. I was so angry that I knew that in the end..."

"What happened in the end?"

"Finally Shangguan Xu came, he subdued me, and then took me around the Yan Mansion. Finally, I saw my father in the hall. He fell in a pool of blood and was already dying."

"General Yan, did he say anything to you?"

"He only glanced at me and then passed away. When I looked back, all I saw were corpses, and I was the only one alive."

Liu Yunxiang raised his head and kissed Yan Mu's chin, "They didn't abandon you, it's just that they died and you were lucky enough to survive."

"Is this considered lucky?"

"of course."

"Oh, I want to avenge each of them, but they all seem to hate me."

Liu Yunxiang pressed his forehead against Yan Mu's chest. This must be his pain. He wanted to take revenge like crazy but didn't know who it was for.

"That's all, don't mention the past." Yan Mu pretended to be brisk.

"you……"

"what?"

"Did you dream about me too?"

After asking this question, Liu Yunxiang felt Yan Mu stiffen. When she tried to comfort Yan Mu just now, his eyes were clearly cold and repulsive. This is a knee-jerk reaction and the most real.

He put a lock on his heart. He once opened it to her, but after the fire, he closed it to her again. No matter what she does from now on, even if she sacrifices her life for him, she may never be able to open it again.

She was helpless, and it seemed that he was helpless too.

At this time, there was movement outside. Yan Mu got up and walked to the window and asked, "What happened?"

A guard was outside and replied: "Your Highness, there is a fire in the direction of the west city. Because of the wind, the fire suddenly started."

Yan Mu asked Liu Yunxiang to sleep first, and he put on his cloak and went out.

Lingyun had a granary in the west city. Liu Yunxiang couldn't sleep anywhere, so he got up and went out. When she arrived in front of the house, the north wind was blowing hard, and she was unprepared to be blown back.

Yan Mu pulled her to his side and helped her put on the cape.

"The fire is indeed very big, I have to go and take a look." Yan Mu said.

Liu Yunxiang quickly held his hand and said, "Be careful."

Yan Mu nodded to her, "Don't worry, there are military patrol shops and Jingzhao Mansion on site to direct and dispatch. I just went to take a look."

Yan Mu acted as the agent of the government, and nothing could go wrong during this period.

"Okay, go back early."

After Yan Mu left, Liu Yunxiang asked Zijin to go to Lingyun's granary in Xicheng to see the situation.

Zi Jin came back not long after he left, saying that the granary was far away from the fire point, and there was a river in the city between them, so it should not be able to burn through. Liu Yunxiang felt relieved a little when he saw that the wind had weakened a little.

"By the way, where did the fire start?"

"Good Thoughts Camp."

Liu Yunxiang couldn't help but frown, "Shan Nian Camp?"

Zi Jin came out of Shan Nian Camp. Although he no longer had any relatives in the camp, he was still worried. He was even more angry when he said: "The fire was very big, and the people inside were fleeing in all directions. Let's start by opening the gate first." It was tightly closed. Your Highness went down and ordered the door to be opened quickly, and the people inside escaped."

Liu Yunxiang sighed. Some people compared Shannian Camp to a rat droppings in Shengjing. In the past few years, diseases were spread from it. Later, famine escaped from it. Many people robbed their homes in order to survive. The people of Shengjing The Shannian camp is hated and the government also regards it as a problem, so with this fire going on, the government may not have much thought to save people.

Until dawn, Yan Mu did not come back.

Liu Yunxiang was worried about him, so she asked Jinyan to make breakfast, and then she took Zijin out.

There was a strong wind last night, but it has stopped this morning. The sky is exceptionally clear, but there are no people on the street, which makes it look particularly depressed. When passing by a steamed bun shop, the steamed bun seller was picking up the steamer from the ground while cursing.

"A bunch of stinking rats, I wanted to burn them all to death last night, so they will be clean!"

Liu Yunxiang stopped and asked the store owner what was going on.

"Last night there was a fire in Shannian camp, and the government opened the gate, and many people ran out. This morning, I just finished preparing the buns, and a group of them came up to grab them. I stopped them, but they didn't My stall has been destroyed." The shopkeeper became more and more angry as he talked, and finally couldn't help but cursed, "It's just a rat's nest, just don't care about it and burn them all to death."

Zi Jin was furious, "They are not mice, they are humans!"

"Humans?" The store owner pointed to his smashed stall, "Did people do this?"

Zi Jin pursed his lips and said, "They are also too hungry..."

"Huh, I'm not the only one who hates them. Look at the shops on this street. All the shops are closed. Isn't it because whenever they come out they steal or rob? Everyone hates them so much that their teeth itch."

As soon as the store owner finished speaking, he saw a group of people coming from a distance. He was so frightened that he quickly went back to his house and closed the door.

Liu Yunxiang turned around and saw a group of ragged people running this way. A sharp-eyed man in front saw Zijin carrying a food box and rushed over to grab it.