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This is Cao Hui's first time to visit Chen Fusheng's tomb. Chen Fusheng is his best friend, most trusted brother, and closest friend in his life, but this is his first time to visit Chen Fusheng's tomb.

On the day of Chen Fusheng's burial, the main leaders of the Municipal Education Bureau visited the No. 1 Middle School for an inspection, but he did not attend the funeral. Then he wanted to come over and see his old friend many times, and then passed day by day, month by month, year by year.

Look at the cypress tree in front of the tombstone. It has grown to be as tall as a person. The words on the tombstone are showing signs of weathering. This is his first time here.

If he hadn't suffered a huge setback and reached the lowest point in his life, he still wouldn't be here at this moment!

Cao Hui stared at the tombstone and gently touched the smooth surface of the stone with his hand. His eyes gradually turned red, moist, and shed tears.

He felt that this was the most damn ironic thing in the world. What the hell was he thinking about people? He and Chen Fusheng were brothers and buddies for life, but the so-called brotherhood and brotherhood were actually so weak that he I was surprised.

He thought about the people he had been surrounding every day for so many years. He has a clear understanding of the hobbies of the leaders of the municipal education bureau and the main county leaders' families. During the holidays, he can take care of all the things that need to be taken care of in advance.

This is reality, this is people! When Cao Hui thought about these things, he felt his stomach churn and he felt like vomiting.

In the past few decades, he had never realized that there was anything wrong with this kind of life. He felt that it was right. He felt that he was higher than Chen Fusheng from the beginning.

Chen Fusheng is escape and negativity, and he is the representative of China's sour scholars. And he, Cao Hui, is a man of action and a true Confucian...

But now, at this moment, Cao Hui felt really uncomfortable!

He took out a bottle of wine from his pocket, poured half of it in front of the tomb, and then said:

"Old Chen, what did you tell me about my final fate back then? A passer-by is a poor passer-by. You were so right and your judgment was so accurate..."

Cao Hui cried immediately, tears streaming down his face.

He didn't cry at the Discipline Inspection Commission, he didn't cry at home, but he couldn't hold back and cried in front of a dead man's tombstone.

He and Chen Fusheng are brothers, but he has always disagreed with Chen Fusheng's outlook on life and values, and his life choices. He felt that apart from not having read as many books as Chen Fusheng and not writing as well as Chen Fusheng, he was superior to Chen Fusheng in everything else.

Everything about Chen Fusheng was wrong, and he was definitely right about him. He made a huge contribution to the education of Yongping. He reversed the fate of countless rural children in Yongping. He is great and can go down in history. of.

Facts have proved that he overestimated himself. After the organization dealt with him and directly destroyed the halo on his head, he found that he had nothing and nothing. In a place as big as Yongping, he would not even meet familiar people when he went out. Less than one.

He does not have such a high prestige, and not many people recognize him, Cao Hui. Everything in the past is an illusion, everything is a dream, it is nothingness, it is all empty.

He cried because he felt uncomfortable in his heart. It was too uncomfortable.

He felt that he had never felt so uncomfortable in his more than fifty years of life! He feels that the values ​​he adheres to are wrong, the path he is taking may be wrong, and everything is wrong.

He went astray, forgot his original intention, and enriched himself under the guise of promoting education development in the county.

He spends millions on himself every year to eat, drink and have fun, not including the houses he bought over the years, the luxury goods, calligraphy and paintings, and the fact that he has raised women outside, and he has also invested in several private schools.

He thought about how he had disliked Chen Fusheng for being shabby because he didn't have a good shirt in the summer, so he had to bite the bullet and buy a few shirts from street stalls for tens of dollars.

Cao Hui felt uncomfortable wearing a shirt that cost less than 1,000 yuan. At that time, he was thinking about the face of representing Yongping No. 1 Middle School. He should dress decently when he went out, otherwise he would lose face to No. 1 Middle School.

Now that he thinks about his original logic, he finds it incredible because he was also born in poverty. The reason why he is so obsessed with exam-oriented education is because when he was a child, his family background was poor and he did not receive a good education. He felt that he would not be able to receive higher education in his life. Big regret.

Therefore, he must focus on education. He hopes that his next generation and his children and grandchildren can go to college to make up for the regrets of his generation.

Was he wrong in his original idea?

Now that I think about it, his simple idea was absolutely correct. His fault lay later, after he became famous, after he was surrounded by flowers and applause, he quietly changed.

He did not realize the existence of this change. He and Chen Fusheng had more and more arguments and differences. He originally thought how could he and Chen Fusheng become brothers and friends? Incredible!

After much thought, he came to the conclusion that he was broad-minded and not as knowledgeable as a rotten scholar. Otherwise, what qualifications would Chen Fusheng have to be his brother?

"What a joke, what a big joke, the funniest person is Cao Hui..." Cao Hui said to himself, and then laughed strangely.

He touched Chen Fusheng's tombstone, his emotions gradually became crazy, and finally he took out a bottle from his arms.

There's good stuff in this bottle. It's in the chemistry laboratory. There's no pain in drinking it.

The Buddha said that all living beings suffer. Birth, old age, illness, and death, not being able to seek what they want, and having resentments and resentments are all suffering. There are many methods in Buddhism to escape suffering and achieve happiness. Unfortunately, Cao Hui has lived for decades and has not learned any of them. He has not had time to learn them.

But now that he has reached such an age, he no longer wants to learn, has no confidence, and has no face.

At this moment, he was thinking about Chen Fusheng. He felt that just holding Chen Fusheng's stone tablet was the best. Since this was the best, he would just stay like this forever. He could get rid of suffering and gain happiness. There was no need for future generations to comment on his merits and demerits. It can be concluded.

Cao Hui felt that he should die if he had lived until today. If he lived even one more day in the future, it would be superfluous and worthless. Why should a person who died in his fifties wait until he was eighty to be buried?

It’s no longer necessary. How many social resources and grains will be wasted in the next few decades. It’s not worth it...

Cao Hui took one sip, his thoughts and expressions were fixed, and his life immediately came to an end at this moment.

One day later, Cao Hui's family couldn't find him in the city and chose to call the police. Someone found a body in the cemetery and reported it. Then Yongping was shocked and Wu De was shocked. The founder of the famous Yongping No. 1 Middle School and the former principal Cao Hui met his old friend Chen Fusheng. He committed suicide in front of his grave, and he died peacefully...