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It was a hot day, and Cao Rui drove his car by Biyan Lake, with Gao Yi sitting next to him.

Cao Rui didn't drive today, but Gao Yi drove his BMW out. The two had a drink and chatted for a while. Cao Rui drove the car on the return trip.

The temperature in the car was 20 degrees, cool and comfortable, and the night sky over Biyan Lake was exceptionally clear. The car drove to the end far away from the city, and the quiet place was dotted with stars, giving people a particularly quiet feeling.

"Stop!" Gao Yi said.

Cao Rui slowly pulled the car over and parked it in the shade of a tree, looking at the sparkling waves on the lake and the beautiful night.

There were orange-red street lights outside, and the light was soft and warm. Cao Rui glanced at Gao Yi beside him. Her face was particularly soft. Both of them were silent, as if no one wanted to break the tranquility.

Cao Rui lowered the window, and the heat wave outside poured in. He was so frightened that he immediately closed the window again, and everything was silent again.

Cao Rui thought that it had been a long time since he had watched the scenery so quietly. He was so busy every day, and was busy with all kinds of things every day. Compared to the busyness in action, the most terrifying thing was his heart. Anxiety and impetuosity.

Not only Cao Rui is like this, but all the people around Cao Rui seem to be like this, whether they are leaders or ordinary clerks, it seems that everyone is busy, except for a few people, leaders like Su Bo, Cao Rui, can clearly understand their You are really busy, what are other people busy about?

As far as Cao Rui himself is concerned, his so-called busyness is not so much that he is extremely busy at work, but rather that he is not peaceful and feels inexplicable anxiety in his heart.

Cao Rui, who loved reading so much before, how many books has he read now? Since the beginning of this year, Cao Rui has not read a complete book until now, so reading seems to have no place in Cao Rui.

The irony is how busy Secretary Su Bo is? Su Bo has read at least four books this year, and one of them was an intensive reading with dense notes. Cao Rui saw that he had recorded dozens of pages!

Sitting quietly and thinking about his own mistakes, Cao Rui sat next to Gao Yi, his mind was running wild and he reflected a lot.

After an unknown amount of time, Gao Yi said: "Let's go!"

Cao Rui started driving again, and the car slowly accelerated until it reached Gao Yi's residence. Cao Rui had been to this villa before and spent the Spring Festival here. That year was Cao Rui's lowest moment.

It was also in this villa that Cao Rui met Su Bo for the first time, and not long after the next year, Cao Rui became Secretary Su Bo's secretary.

The remote control door opened and the car drove into the garage. It was dark inside the garage. If Cao Rui turned off the lights, he would not be able to see anything.

So the best way is for Cao Rui to turn on the lights, Gao Yi get out of the car to turn on the lights, and then Cao Rui stops the car and turns off the engine.

Cao Rui made no move, Gao Yi didn't get out of the car, and the two remained silent again.

After a few minutes, Cao Rui said: "Secretary Gao, get out of the car and turn on the lights!"

Gao Yi opened the car door, got out of the car and turned on the lights. Cao Rui turned off the car and gave Gao Yi the car key.

"I'll go for a jog and get home in three kilometers!" Cao Rui said.

Gao Yi said nothing, pointed to the elevator, and motioned for Cao Rui to walk from it.

Taking the elevator upstairs, the lights in the living room were turned on, and it was completely empty. Cao Rui thought that Gao Yi's life could be said to be cheating, but it was not perfect. Maybe this was the fate of human beings.

There is no perfection in being born as a human being, and it is impossible to be perfect.

Cao Rui glanced at Gao Yi again. Gao Yi's expression was calm, but completely different from usual. Her expression was very soft, her temperament was quiet, and there was no trace of the majesty and grace of the county party committee secretary between her eyebrows.

Cao Rui's mind was a little confused, and many pictures suddenly emerged. At that time, the two of them were in Shanghai, a magical city where everyone felt extremely small, like ants in the dust.

In that environment, because I felt insignificant, all ethical constraints seemed to have little impact, so it was crazy at that time.

Everyone has a desire to work hard, but we are in the real society, and we have to be fettered by life and the secular world. Gradually, we look forward and backward, we are timid, we lose all our energy, we finally grow old and become decrepit, and then our life ends. , start a new reincarnation.

Cao Rui walked out of the living room and reached the door. He wanted to continue walking forward, but suddenly he felt shadowy figures around him. He turned around and saw Gao Yi, who sent him to the door.

Cao Rui turned around and said, "Secretary Gao, there's no need to send him off. I'll jog by myself for a while!"

Gao Yi nodded and turned around.

Cao Rui took a deep breath and turned to look at her background. For a moment, his brain seemed to be short-circuited.

He shouted: "Gao Yi!"

Gao Yi turned around at the first glance. Cao Rui took a step to her side, then held her in front of her with one hand and kissed her.

It was extremely quiet here, the light was dim, and Cao Rui himself didn't know what thoughts were in his mind. Anyway, his brain was occupied by desire. He couldn't blame the alcohol, but the craziness and impulse in his human nature.

The longer a person has been suppressed for a long time, the more he is bound by rules every day, and the more he cannot go beyond the limits, the craziness and impulse in his heart may be stronger than ordinary people.

Cao Rui went crazy, and Gao Yi went crazy as well. The two of them got together and went to the villa, and then they went crazy.

The Buddha said that all living beings are suffering, because everyone is born, old, sick, and dead, and no one can hide or escape.

The more transparent adults live, the more likely they will suddenly become crazy, because they can understand that life actually does not have much meaning.

The so-called ethics, the so-called morality, the so-called love, and all the so-called beauty are just like paper lanterns. When they encounter a hesitant crossroads, when they need to fight between heaven and man, perhaps more often, they will follow their hearts.

There are no harsh words to describe the relationship between Cao Rui and Gao Yi. Both parties involved knew that they had tried to terminate the relationship more than once.

However, in the end, all efforts were ineffective and eventually collapsed.

Men and women trapped in desire cannot break free or escape. When madness takes over the high ground, all rationality in the mind no longer exists. Life is short, and the road ahead can never be seen clearly, nor can it be far away. All that can be seen is the present, at this moment...

The entanglement between the two lasted for a long time, until they were exhausted. It seemed that the central air conditioner in the room had only reached the most comfortable temperature at this time, and then the two hugged each other without speaking.

There is no point in saying anything. Anyway, both people can hear each other's heartbeat. At this moment, time can stand still, and this moment can last forever...