Across the heavens, I am the Avatar Sword Master

"So... Emiya Kiritsugu has been fighting for this unrealistic wish?"

Kotomine Kirei placed the spoon in his hand on the plate and took out a tissue to wipe the oil stains on his mouth. He did not look at all like he was in such a mess just now.

"Saving the world? What a boring idea. If it were true, could you imagine the scene after the other person's wish came true?"

"It's not about the macro-level idea of ​​world peace and no disputes, but about how to make the world peaceful, eliminate hatred, and put an end to all disputes?"

"Should we just give money to make all poverty disappear, or make all barren lands equally rich? Should we make disabled people healthy, or make the low-intelligence people smart? Even if we abolish the concept of money and let humans enter a harmonious society, disputes will still exist."

"After all, this is what humans are. Humans have always been a combination of contradictions. The history of human development is a history of war. What if people's happiness becomes contradictory? I'm afraid that for the Holy Grail, rather than realizing the wish for world peace and letting the world go haywire, it is more likely to eliminate all humans who cause harm and tragedy."

"Besides, it's not an exaggeration to say that what Emiya Kiritsugu did was evil. He dropped bombs in public, shot down planes with many passengers, and committed many indiscriminate terrorist incidents. Even if his purpose was just, his actions would undoubtedly make him drift further and further away from his goal."

Kotomine Kirei concluded with a serious expression: "What a pathetic man, drowning in an unrealistic dream. It seems that I have to take back what I said before. He and I are not similar beings. Or rather, we are similar on the outside, but very different on the inside."

"So you are envious of Emiya Kiritsugu?"

"What?!!"

As if his secrets had been spoken, Kotomine Kirei's body suddenly stiffened, his muscles rigidified, and a confused expression appeared on his face.

"Didn't you notice that there was envy in your eyes when you mentioned Emiya Kiritsugu?"

"Envy? Ah...ah...I envy him? Yes, I do envy him a little. Although he has unrealistic dreams, but...he knows what love is."

Kotomine Kirei thought of the two women who had always supported Emiya Kiritsugu and were even willing to die for him.

Even if they were strangling each other and facing life-threatening danger, they still chose to stand on Kiritsugu Emiya's side.

This is what he has never been able to understand.

Although the culprit who ultimately caused his failure was right next to him, he did not intend to pursue the responsibility.

After all, you have already decided to withdraw from the Holy Grail War, so don't bring other irrelevant emotions into it.

Kotomine Kirei lowered his head and looked at his clenched fists, gritted his teeth and said unwillingly: "I am different from Emiya Kiritsugu. I am the kind of person who is born with emotional defects. Since I was a child, I have been unable to understand what others mean by 'clear and beautiful things'."

Kotomine Kirei began to tell his story.

"I cannot see beautiful things as happiness like ordinary people. I follow the doctrine and hope that God can answer the confusion in my heart. I know that I am abnormal. In order to change my abnormality, I have made many attempts. Becoming an agent is one of them. My most recent attempt is to form a family like an ordinary person."

"But it failed... Even though we have been married for two years and Aldessia gave birth to a lovely daughter for me, I still cannot feel the happiness that ordinary people talk about through my wife and daughter."

"It wasn't until Aldessia committed suicide in front of me to prove that I was capable of loving and worth living that I felt strange emotions for the first time."

"That was the first time I felt heartbroken from the inside out. I didn't understand and was very sad, but what made me sad was that I couldn't enjoy the death of my wife..."

"I was thinking - what a waste. If you want to die, why not let yourself die with your own hands?"

"I know I am wrong, and I know what is right to do, but I can't control my heart."

"I feel like a wolf in sheep's clothing since childhood. I live like sheep and eat grass like sheep. Although the grass tastes bad and will only make me numb, I still choose to eat it. But the harder I try to be an outstanding sheep, the more painful and confused I become. I can't help drooling when I look at other sheep, but I still tell myself that I am a sheep, not a wolf that harms its own kind."

Kotomine Kirei is a contradiction. He can be said to be a saint without desires or demands, but precisely because he has no desires or demands, he lives a very painful life.

There is nothing to love, nothing to hate, nothing to desire, nothing to abandon...

That's why he looks for what he really wants.

It’s a pity that what I found was pain that was contrary to dogma.

"So, you have realized what your heart desires... You desire pain, the pain of others. The more pain people around you suffer, the happier you are!"

Chen Yu pointed out what Kotomine Kirei wanted to say but didn't dare to say.

Kotomine Kirei clenched his fists, his nails digging into his palms, and shouted at Chen Yu angrily: "Asshole! You want me, a servant of the 'master', to pursue pleasure? How can I do such a sinful thing for my own pleasure!!!"

This is the point of contradiction of Kotomine Kirei.

He is aware of his inherent emotional flaws and can only experience happiness from the misfortunes of others.

But this instinct contradicts the education he has received, so he has been suppressing his pleasure instinct.

I have been confused and exploring why the Lord gave me such an emotional system.

Reason told him to follow the Lord's teachings and do good, but his instinct made him inclined to pleasure.

Chen Yu retorted: "When in this world can you convict someone just by imagining something in your mind? It's not against the law to fantasize about it. Judging by the deeds, not the heart, there is no perfect person in the world. I only let you pursue pleasure, not let you degenerate and do evil."

"but if……"

Before Kotomine Kirei could finish his words, he was interrupted by Chen Yu.

"Have you noticed that you seem to have an unusual love for the Chinese dish Mapo Tofu?"

After hearing Chen Yu's suggestion, Kotomine Kirei looked at the mapo tofu that he had eaten up completely and fell into deep thought.

"Spicy food is a sense of pain, and cooking is something that brings happiness to people. Since you like eating mapo tofu so much and like seeing other people's painful expressions, it's a pity that you don't become a chef."

"Be a cook?"

“Cooking spicy food yourself, letting your guests voluntarily experience pain through food, feeling the conflict between their desire and fear, and observing their struggle of wanting to eat but not daring to eat, wouldn’t this bring you pleasure without actually causing them the pain of death?”

"Oh my, is there such a possibility? Becoming a chef, letting customers taste the mapo tofu I make, and letting customers feel pain, is there such a choice..."

Kotomine Kirei's eyes lit up. He seemed to have found a way that did not violate dogma but could reasonably allow himself to experience pleasure.

Why didn’t I think of it at the beginning?

The reason why I like to eat Mapo Tofu is because it can bring pain to people.

Pain is the source of one's own joy.

In other words, Mapo Tofu is joy!

I understand!

Is there actually such a method?

Looking at Kotomine Kirei with a gleam in his eyes, Chen Yu smiled slightly, hiding his achievements and fame.

A priest who doesn't want to be a good cook is not a good mapo.

It is really interesting to lead a young person who was originally going astray onto another path.

Boss Xiaoba came to the three people, put three empty plates and cutlery into the dinner tray, and took it to the back kitchen to wash it. Suddenly he turned around and said, "I just listened to your conversation. Although I didn't quite understand it, are you going to learn how to cook, Father Kirei?"

"Well, for now, I have the idea of ​​trying this."

"Then do you want to be my apprentice? Father Bi Qili is a frequent customer of our restaurant. You know I'm the only one in the restaurant, and sometimes I can't handle too many people. It would be great if I could have someone who knows me well to help me. I can teach you how to make the ultimate mapo tofu that's so spicy it can kill people... This is the ultimate secret that you've never experienced before."

The petite boss Ba accidentally told a very scary story.

"Then please, I really need this secret recipe."

Kotomine Kirei stood up, clasped his hands together, and pleaded with Boss Ba very devoutly.

Suddenly, Naiyali next to her covered her stomach, her body trembling a little, and sweat kept dripping down her forehead.

Seeing this, Chen Yu panicked a little.

I don’t know what happened to Naiyali.

"It's delicious, but Naiyali feels a little uncomfortable in her stomach. There's a burning sensation in her stomach, and it's twitching from time to time. It seems that even sweat and trembling can't stop it..."

"Hey, Naiyali, this is not just the feeling you get after eating. What the hell is wrong with you?"

Master Ba was washing dishes in the kitchen while explaining to Chen Yu, "This girl named Naiyali is eating a weakened version of the Super Invincible Ultimate Mapo Tofu. After all, this kind of thing is not available to ordinary people and can easily lead to death. So we don't have this Super Invincible Ultimate Mapo Tofu on our menu, but there are also regular customers who want to challenge this ultimate dish, so they report the code 'Strawberry Mapo Tofu'. So ordering 'Strawberry Mapo Tofu' means trying to taste the Super Invincible Ultimate Mapo Tofu. But in order to prevent people from really dying from eating it, I put some secret strawberries in the Mapo Tofu to adjust its spiciness. But then again, so far, Naiyali is the first customer I have seen who did not faint after eating the Super Invincible Ultimate Mapo Tofu Weakened Version. What an incredible girl."

Looking at the trembling Naiyali, cold sweat ran down Chen Yu's face.

So when the strawberry mapo tofu was served just now, the Cthulhu-like cognitive dislocation that occurred was actually not an illusion in my mind?

You can make an evil god so fierce, Boss Ba, the legend about you is actually true, right?

The chili peppers used are also the ones that have been passed down from the Age of Gods to the present day, right?

The more Chen Yu thought about it, the luckier he felt. Fortunately, Naiyali ordered two plates of strawberry mapo tofu and didn't eat a single bite herself.

What a wise choice.

Naiyali has eaten so much, if she wants to eat a few more bites, she will lose her life here.

Looking at Naiyali's trembling appearance, Chen Yu was afraid.

"Boss Ba, check out."

Supporting Naiyali, who was walking unsteadily, Chen Yu walked out of "Hongzhou Yansuiguan Taishan".

I looked back at the sign of [Hongzhou Yansuiguan Taishan].

I finally understand how the devil's den in the commercial street came about, where the locals would be so scared that they want to go home just by taking a look at it.

It really is a veritable devil’s den!

Just as Chen Yu was wiping the sweat off Naiyali's head, a very loud explosion sounded in his ears.

Looking up, I saw dazzling light flashing in the clear sky in the distance.

The direction should be the location of Fuyuki Church.

Chen Yu wiped Naiyali's sweat with a tissue and frowned as he said, "What strange fireworks..."

It felt like what had just exploded wasn't an ordinary firework, but some kind of signal magic based on the stimulation of magic power on the sense of hearing.

Otherwise, it would be incredible that no one would stop to watch such an obvious light.

So this light cannot be seen by ordinary people.

"Ah... I see. I just tied my headscarf and I have to go back to church. What a hassle."

Wearing a blue headscarf and taking off his coat to reveal his muscular body, Kotomine Kirei opened the door and walked out.

Looking at Kotomine Kirei's new look, Chen Yu was a little surprised.

Why, you decided to stay and work so quickly?

Have you changed your clothes?

This is too fast!

Kotomine Kirei looked at Chen Yu staring at the headscarf tied on his head and explained, "This is what Boss Ba prepared for his apprentice. I just tied it on when I heard the church's signal to summon Masters... Well, you don't understand? Then let me explain it."

Kotomine Kirei was obviously very familiar with this magic firework, and explained to Chen Yu: "As the church responsible for supervising the Holy Grail War, whenever it needs to inform the Masters of important decisions, it will release such notification fireworks. This is a means of informing the Masters who are hiding in an unknown place. After all, no one knows where the Masters are hiding, and there is no better way than this. Masters who see the fireworks need to gather at the church. Do you want to come to the church together?"

"The church has important news to announce? Aren't you a member of the church? Why don't you just tell us directly? Why are you making us make an extra trip..."

Seeing that Naiyali was no longer sweating, Chen Yu breathed a sigh of relief.

But there are some questions.

I didn't ask Caster to cause any trouble, so why would the Holy Church send a signal for all the Masters to gather?

Could there be other unexpected events in this Holy Grail War?

Chen Yu was a little confused.

"Speaking of which, this call has something to do with you. After all, the initial news came from you, which is why the church took notice..."

Kotomine Kirei added.