How did you, a prisoner on death row, become an important weapon of the country? Yecheng Gao Weiming

"I couldn't bear it. I really couldn't bear it at that time."

"Before I lost my breasts, I took my mother's hand and said, Wenying! Mom is sorry for you. I originally wanted to crawl out and find a place to reincarnate, but my mother couldn't crawl."

"My mother said, why are you going out? It's not like we don't have any land at home. Isn't the child's father still lying on the ground?"

"My grandma smiled widely and fumbled to find three kilograms of lentils from the edge of the kang."

"She said Wenying, our family only has this little food left. When you can't crawl, remember to grind it and fry it in advance. This way you and Xin Wazi can survive for a few months, and maybe you can wait for the relief food from the county. "

"My mother cried bitterly when she saw these three kilograms of lentils."

"She said, Mom, why didn't you take it out earlier? If you took it out, his father wouldn't have died so early?"

"My grandma still laughs and says that you haven't gone through the most difficult time. Your father and I did this when we were young."

"We must keep some food at home, even if we starve to death, we can't eat it. When there is only one person left in the family, we can take it out. Maybe our family can continue to enjoy the good times and survive this disaster year."

"Both Xinwazi's father and his grandfather know these lentils."

"My mother was speechless anymore, she just nodded while crying, and my mother left with peace of mind."

"I said I was leaving, but I still couldn't carry it out, so I had to turn over the bed and cover it with a sheet. Fortunately, winter was coming. My mother filled the house with firewood and filled it with water. My mother and I leaned on these three A pound of lentils, after two or three months.”

"When the lentils were finished, my mother took apart the pillows at home and ground the buckwheat husks inside into powder to make soup. I was able to survive this winter."

"I don't know that one day, someone suddenly came to the house. It turned out to be the new team leader, accountant, and cashier sent by the county..."

"A group of people walked in noisily and shouted, "Is there anyone else at home?"

"My mother heard someone talking and responded quickly. Those people were very happy."

"Oh, I've gone to seventeen or eight households, and they're all gone. They're all lying at home soaking. Didn't you expect anyone in Lao Li's family is still alive?"

"But when I came in, I didn't say anything. My mother and I were the only two people left alive at home."

"The new captain quickly brought out steamed buns made from alfalfa vegetables for my mother and I to eat. I was really starving to death at that time. While eating the alfalfa steamed buns, I asked people stupidly, why are there alfalfa vegetables in winter?"

"The captain smiled and said, how long have you two been away from home? It's almost April now, spring is here, can the alfalfa grow?"

"Okay, eat quickly! After eating, go to the team to get relief food. No matter how big or small, each person can receive four taels per day, which can be received for a month!"

"After hearing this, my mother went crazy with joy at first, thinking that she had finally survived this disaster year, but then she asked why it was only one month?"

"We don't have the energy to sow seeds in the winter, so we have to sow in the spring and have to wait until autumn to get food. It will take at least three or four months, right?"

"The captain sighed and said we have to endure it! It's very difficult for the whole country now, not just here."

"The country bought billions of kilograms of grain from outside and distributed grain from the south to the north, but only so much can be distributed to each household."

"Just keep enduring it! If you wait until the autumn harvest, this disaster year may be over."

"My mother stopped talking after hearing this, and the light in her eyes dimmed."

"Why? Because she knew she couldn't bear it, even though in those days all the land was cultivated uniformly, and everyone distributed food according to their work."

"But she is an almost useless woman, and she is dragging an eight or nine-year-old child with her. She can't do any work at all. How can she survive?"

"My mother asked the captain, what should I do if I can't stand it any longer? If I die, can my Xin Wazi eat in the brigade cafeteria? Do you care about him?"

"The captain listened. I don't know whether it was intentional or not, but he said what does the brigade care about? There are so many people who can't be cared for. If they don't work, they will all starve to death."

"Li Xin, mother, don't be afraid! Even if you are gone, this child will still be taken care of. You don't know yet... There are many cases like this in every country in the country. The county has set up a special welfare home, also called an orphanage."

"When an adult dies, the child can be sent to wherever he goes, and the state will take care of his food and drink."

"Let me tell you, you can make porridge with potatoes and eat whatever you want there, until the child can work to support himself."

"Not only do we take care of food, but we also take care of teaching and reading. The children who come out of it are assigned jobs to earn wages in the city..."

"My mother seemed to perk up after hearing this and quickly pushed me."

"She said, Captain, do you think our Xin Wazi can go to the orphanage? Please be kind and send him there now. I beg you."

"But the captain shook his head, that's not possible. The country must take care of it if all the family members are gone. Otherwise, it can't be taken care of? Who doesn't want to squeeze their heads to send their children in? You don't want to take advantage of the country!"

"Okay, let's go! Remember to go to the brigade to get relief food. As for your family... tomorrow, I will bring a few people over tomorrow to help you carry it away and bury it..."

"After that, the captain sighed and led the people away. They still have to go to other homes to see how many living people there are in the village."

"After they left, I asked my mother to get the relief food quickly so that I wouldn't be able to get it if I got there too late, but my mother didn't move."

"My mother was stunned for a long time by the kang, and suddenly she laughed. She said we should get it tomorrow, Xin Wazi, and ask the captain to bring it to us tomorrow. Even if my mother ate two alfalfa steamed buns, she still didn't have the strength to get off the kang."

"My mother said again, son, my mother is in a better mood, and she is free. Can I make you two sets of cotton-padded clothes and trousers? In winter, you won't freeze to death."

"I was stunned and said, Mom, winter is over, how can we make cotton clothes and trousers? Can't we make them again in autumn? Besides, where can we still have cotton at home?"

"My mother ignored me and was busy with her own business. She actually dug out the cotton-padded clothes of my father, my grandma, and my grandfather, cut them open with scissors, and took out the cotton."

"Throw away the hard and dry old cotton inside, and only pick out the clean and soft cotton."

"She also dug out the clothes she wore when she got married. Although they were also made of black and gray cloth, the material was very good. My mother cut them up without hesitation and made me a cotton coat and trousers."

"After working for most of the night, I finally finished it. Mom woke me up from my sleep and asked me to try it."

"As soon as I put it on, I just smiled stupidly and said, Mom, you did this for yourself."

"It's so long, the waistband of the trousers reaches up to my chest and my legs don't stick out."

"Mother laughs, you said I won't grow any longer? Wait until you drink potato porridge and eat white flour steamed buns. You will grow taller. You will be taller than your father and your grandfather."

"I was very sleepy for most of the night, so I didn't think much about it. I took off my cotton-padded clothes and trousers and continued to sleep. I was dreaming. I dreamed that my mother had received relief food. My mother and I were so full after eating that they lay on the kang and laughed. ”

"Later, daybreak...I no longer have a mother!"

"..."

"I hugged my mother and cried loudly, which attracted the captain and accountant. They scolded me as soon as they entered the room, saying how could such a cruel woman leave the child alone."

"But after cursing a few words, he sighed again when he saw the newly made cotton-padded jacket and trousers, saying that he had committed a crime. The whole family was dead, and only an eight or nine-year-old baby was left."

"Before leaving, I made myself a cotton-padded coat and trousers because I was worried that my child would be cold. There are not many good women like this left."

"They took my mother away from me, and buried my mother, my sister, and my father together to give them a final destination."

"The captain came back and asked me if you can leave? If you can leave, I will issue you a certificate now. You can take it to the county seat to find out. You can go to the welfare home by yourself. The villagers will not care about sending you off."

"I said I couldn't walk. I still felt weak all over and my legs were so weak that I didn't dare to crawl over by myself. The captain said that I was too weak to carry you."

"Let's do this. You can stay at my house for two days and don't starve to death again. I'll write a letter to the orphanage and someone should come and pick you up in about seven or eight days."

"I looked at the empty house. I was the only one alive among the six people. How could I still die? I promised the captain that I would go to his house and wait for a few days..."

"As expected, the captain kept his promise, and after ten days, someone from the county finally came to pick me up."

"It was that person who changed my life..."