Dad kidnapped me to join the army, and the whole army asked me to be their instructor.

The last shot ended.

Gunshots echoed over the cemetery.

All the soldiers turned around and led the team back.

Lin Hui walked up to the family members, slowly helped them up, and bent down sincerely: "I'm sorry, I didn't take good care of them. It's all my fault!"

The woman got up from the ground and grabbed his arm tightly.

Lin Hui closed his eyes. If he could be beaten by them at this time, he would feel much better.

But the woman never made a move. Instead, she asked seriously: "Are you...his deputy leader?"

Lin Hui opened his eyes and nodded vigorously.

The woman wiped her tears hard and forced a smile at him: "Our family Xiaowen wrote a letter before, saying that his deputy leader is the best leader and that he can meet such a good deputy leader in this life. , is his greatest happiness."

"He also told me that he doesn't want to go back for the time being. He wants to stay in the army and work with you for a few more years."

"So, don't apologize. It's us who should apologize to you. Thank you for always taking care of him. My son has caused you trouble..."

As he spoke, tears kept flowing down.

Another middle-aged man also grabbed Lin Hui's arm and said seriously: "Comrade Chief, please don't say you're sorry. That boy in our family used to be a coward."

"If you hadn't come here and made him a sergeant, he would have come back to farm with me."

"When he called me, he was always very grateful to you and said that you are the best soldier in the world and you are very good to each of them."

"You can still bring so many people to see them off today. Don't say anything. I don't blame you...this is your life!"

He covered his face and burst into tears, and everyone behind him also burst into tears.

They held Lin Hui's arms hard, but Lin Hui could no longer hear the words below.

At this moment, Lin Hui's head was muddy.

There is only tinnitus in my ears.

He seemed to have fallen into the sea, as if he was cut off from the whole world.

I don’t know how long it took, but the cemetery also became quiet.

Everyone was gone, and the sound of crying disappeared.

Lin Hui sat at the bottom of the last step, staring blankly at the arched gate of the cemetery.

At this time, someone called him.

Lin Hui opened his mouth and turned his head blankly. It was Xu Qianshan.

Xu Qianshan was also looking at him, with a smile on his face: "What's wrong, are you still sad? Tell me if you have anything on your mind."

Lin Hui glanced at him and then looked at the door: "Uncle, a long time ago, I returned to my current regiment from the island. I thought I had found the meaning of being a soldier, but why is my mind getting more and more confused now? "

"Why on earth do you want to be a soldier?"

"Is it to protect my family and country, to protect those people I have never met, or to protect those brothers who eat from the same pot and fight together?"

He suddenly looked at Xu Qianshan: "What does it mean to be a soldier? Uncle, you have been a soldier for so many years, can you tell me?"

Xu Qianshan looked at him and was stunned for a long time.

I wanted to speak several times, but when the words came to my lips, I didn’t know how to speak.

He smiled bitterly and shook his head: "Uncle can't give you the answer."

Lin Hui looked at him blankly.

Xu Qianshan also looked at him: "Every good soldier has his own understanding of being a soldier. Naturally, the same is true in your heart. People are different. They have experienced different things and have different opinions."

He looked forward: "If this door is the door of the army, many people come in every year, and many people leave. Whether they leave or stay, they all have different understandings of being a soldier."

"You need to figure this out for yourself. I can't impose my understanding on you, and you can't integrate it."

Lin Hui was silent again.

Looking at the arch in front of me, my eyes were full of confusion.

After a long time, he murmured: "I previously understood the meaning of being a soldier, which is to be a good soldier. When you put on this military uniform, you should be worthy of your status as a soldier."

"When you are a soldier, you should love it and do your duty well."

"Later, I thought that I could make my brothers stronger and better than other troops. No matter if we stand together, brag or do other things, our Tiger Regiment will always be the strongest one, and no one can compare with us. .”

"Later on, I wanted to surpass my two brothers and even my dad."

He continued: "Don't they keep saying how good soldiers they are? I couldn't refute it before, but now I'm just not convinced. I'm wearing the same military uniform, so why should I be worse than you?"

"I just have to surpass you, just to prove it to you!"

Xu Qianshan looked at him deeply, as if looking at the path he had traveled when he was young.

Lin Hui continued: "Later, putting out the mountain fires was out of our duty as soldiers, because when you wear this military uniform, you have to live up to it!"

"But I have to stay in front of everyone, because I am their commander. If I fall, I should be the first to fall!"

"From that day on, my understanding of what it means to be a soldier has changed."

"I want to protect every one of my brothers and never let anything happen to them, but now..."

Lin Hui shed tears sadly: "I failed to protect them. Seeing them fall in front of me, I couldn't do anything. My faith was shattered to pieces!"

He suddenly looked at Xu Qianshan: "Uncle, what is the meaning of being a soldier? I can't even protect my own brothers, how can I still be considered a good soldier?"

Lin Hui was very emotional and kept breathing heavily.

Seeing his sweat and tears falling together, Xu Qianshan couldn't help but feel heartache.

It's not just about the pain.

It is also a pity that my descendants will encounter obstacles on the way forward.

He took a deep breath, patted his shoulder and said, "Boy, maybe you really should take a rest."

"In the special forces, some recruits kill someone after their first mission, and their faith collapses. They can't even pick up a gun and can't be a good soldier again. This takes a long time psychologically. Counseling.”

"And you, you are an excellent commander. From the time your regiment was about to be disbanded to the time you brought us to the top of the Southwest, your heart is full of pride and confidence."

"But when your soldiers die in front of you, the feeling of powerlessness and guilt shatters all your pride and self-confidence, just like the special forces who killed people on their first mission."

Xu Qianshan said earnestly: "You should take a good rest for a while and think about your thoughts. If it doesn't work, tell me at any time and I will find the most professional psychological counselor."

Lin Hui looked at him blankly: "Are you going to give me a holiday?"

Xu Qianshan nodded: "You are too tired, go out and relax, and go wherever you want."

"You can go wherever you want, do whatever you want, go see whoever you want, and take advantage of this time to do what you want."

"I'll give you a month to think about it carefully. I'll be waiting for you here, and your soldiers will be waiting for you too."

"The day you come back, I will give you good news."

Lin Hui turned his head blankly, and the voices and looks of the two warriors came to mind again.

And the faces of the family members.

How much he wanted them to survive, how much he wanted his family members to give him a good beating.

In this way, he might feel better.

So at this moment, no matter what kind of good news it is, it doesn't matter to him.

Lin Hui took a deep breath, stood up slowly, and walked aimlessly outside the Martyrs Cemetery.

Xu Qianshan also stood up slowly, looked at his lonely back, and sighed softly: "Lin Hui, you still have to untie this knot in your heart!"