Life is more than just living

Zhang Dawei thought about it and realized that what she said was right. As soon as the military training in college ended, Chen Xu went out to work part-time, but no one knew what she was doing. Later, she worked as a substitute teacher in school and as a tour guide, which was indeed obvious to everyone. So Zhang Dawei said in a hoarse voice: "But you have changed! You have become snobbish and vulgar."

When Chen Xu saw Zhang Dawei arguing with him, he felt a little relieved. In this case, he would delay it for as long as possible. Originally, the little brother said he would wait for her at the station, but he would definitely find out if he didn't get off the car by then. With the influence of eldest brother Lin Zhiyuan in Dragon City, it shouldn't be a problem to find him. As long as he doesn't anger Zhang Dawei, even if he can't persuade him to let him go, as long as his life is not in danger for the time being.

Chen Xu said as calmly as possible: "I haven't changed at all. It's you who make me lose hope." Zhang Dawei said angrily: "What do you mean by not being able to see hope? You also said that you are not snobbish or vulgar. I just have no hope." I just passed the examination with you, why are you so contemptuous of others? How did you know that I couldn't pass? There are several people who came ashore in the first battle. Aren't they all hard-working? Why can't you wait? "

Chen Xu bit his lip and said, "What I said is that there is no hope. It's not that you didn't pass the entrance examination, but that you couldn't give me enough sense of security. I was being harassed at the time, and when I said I wanted to quit my job , you always ask me to endure it. If I can endure it, I will definitely suffer. But I am unwilling to sell myself for such a job, and you don’t even have a word of comfort. I submitted my resignation report, and you blamed me. I I don’t expect you to support me, at least you can’t blame me!”

Zhang Dawei became even more angry when he thought about it, "You lied! You said you submitted your resignation report, you said you refused the unspoken rules, why can you still work there safe and sound? Who are you lying to?" Chen Xu took a deep breath, and then said She changed her position, because her legs were really stiff, and she deliberately said angrily: "It doesn't matter to you, believe it or not, what's the use of me telling you lies? When I submitted my resignation report and was desperate, I went to Zhao Yuhan I worked part-time in that corner flower shop. I once moved out of the procuratorate and rented a small dilapidated house. If you want to know, you can go to Zhao Yuhan’s shop and ask if I worked there. You can also You can go to Wanjia Agency and ask, have I ever rented a house there? You don’t know anything! You don’t care about me at all! And you don’t care about me either. When I said we broke up, did you keep me? You Not at all! Don’t you also think that I have no value without this job?”

Zhang Dawei was stunned for a moment and thought about the truth or falsehood of Chen Xu's words. He was not as arrogant as before. He muttered: "It's not like I can't get a wife. Why should a man have no wife? You've already mentioned breaking up, so what am I going to do?" Do you want to keep her? Besides, my mother said that you just hate being poor and love being rich, and our family can't support someone as good-looking as you."

Chen Xu laughed angrily, "Your family really confuses right and wrong. What do you mean that your family can't support me? Did I just become good-looking today? Did I just have a job today? These things mattered when I decided to get along with you. You have everything, okay? When I went to your house, except for the first time I had a ready-made meal, every time I went there I didn’t cook it myself. When your mother broke her arm, you and your father didn’t care. Every time I go there, I help your mother clean the house, sweep the corridors, and wipe the handrails of the stairs. On Saturdays and Sundays, your mother asks me to go to dinner and buy a piece of meat and throw it there. Aren't I the one who chops stuffing and makes dumplings? Her arm is injured and she can't help at all. Are you blind? Can't you see this?" Chen Xu didn't think these words would irritate Zhang Dawei, because they were all facts.

Zhang Dawei also said a little unreasonably: "I admit that you really wanted to get along with me at that time, but why can't you always keep it?" Chen Xu saw that his arrogance had gone down, and he pretended to be angry and said: "Why should I?" Do you want to keep it together? I have been with you for several months. Are we like lovers? We went out to watch a movie and have a meal once, and you gave me a gift once. Then what? Every time I go to your house, you must be You are playing games. You like games so much. Why haven't you played games? Why are you looking for a girlfriend?" Zhang Dawei scratched his head and said: "Don't talk nonsense. I haven't been playing games all the time. I just got tired of studying. Playing for a while is a combination of work and rest.”

Chen Xu said with hatred: "You are still stubborn, why don't you say that you have no ambition at all. The most active person in your family is your mother. It's not easy for her! She works so many jobs. Even though my arm was injured, I didn’t miss a day. Why can’t you share more?” Zhang Dawei explained: “It’s because my mother didn’t let me help. Growing up, my mother didn’t let me do housework, saying that I just need to study well. Even now, my mother told me to prepare well for the exam."

Chen Xu didn't know what time it was and didn't dare to ask. She just wanted to have a conversation along this line of thought, as long as she delayed the conversation and succeeded. Zhang Dawei is much calmer now and is not as vulgar as at the beginning.

The two of them didn't talk for a long time. Zhang Dawei suddenly asked again: "My mother said that you live in Shengshi Washington, is it true?" Chen Xu nodded, "Yes! At that time, after I submitted my resignation report from the Procuratorate, I had no place to live. I can't wait for others to kick me out! I rented a house and later met my teacher's son. He said he could help me solve the problem and even lent me a house to live in. He asked someone to get the rent back for me. In order to save rent, I rented his house."

At this time, Zhang Dawei was a little tired, but the room was very dirty and shabby, and there was no place to sit. He took Chen Xu's backpack, opened it, took out a magazine that Chen Xu was going to read in the car, put it on the ground, and sat down by himself Above, he asked again: "Why is your teacher's son so nice to you? The richer the person, the less advantageous he is."

Chen Xu rolled his eyes at him and didn't want to spoil him at all, "Don't think that others are so bad. Teacher Lin is my benefactor. You never understood me. When I was a child, my parents divorced and no one cared about me. I am ten years old and have just entered primary school. Teacher Lin fought hard to enroll me. It is all because of Teacher Lin that I was able to go to school as a child and then to middle school. I often go to Teacher Lin’s house. The teacher's son is also very kind to me. Have you heard of Lin Zhiyuan?" Zhang Dawei nodded, "I've heard people talk about it. Isn't he a gangster?" Chen Xu rolled his eyes at him again. , "What nonsense are you talking about? He is not a gangster, he is a good person. If he hadn't come forward to help, I would have really lost my job. It was only through his mediation that I could go back to work."

Zhang Dawei slowly began to believe Chen Xu's words, but he didn't want to give up just yet. He continued to bluff and accuse, "Well, the last time my mother saw you in the prosperous Washington, she was fired by the housekeeping company. Did you say something in the middle?" Chen Xu smiled, "You are so interesting! That day I saw your aunt taking the initiative to say hello, was it because she ignored me? How can it be my fault? Besides, who am I? Can I still influence other people's housekeeping companies? "

Zhang Dawei was silent for a while and then asked: "You agreed to be friends with me in the first place because that rich colleague of yours beat me and insulted me. Did you take pity on me and that's why you agreed to be friends with me?" Chen Xu glared He looked at him and said: "What do you think I am? Am I someone who just pities others? Why am I so worthless? Just give myself away? I just felt that rich people looked down on us poor people, and poor people should be like us Only when poor people live together can they respect each other.

Zhang Dawei whispered: "Your idea is quite right, why don't you stick to it?" Chen Xu didn't want to get used to him and please him. So Chen Xu said unceremoniously: "Am I not insisting? I have given you so many opportunities, have you worked hard for our future? Have you ever thought about what the future will be like? In addition to playing games, you also What will you do? You pretend to work hard every day, but you haven't tried your best at all, okay?" Zhang Dawei said with a guilty conscience: "You think it's so easy to get into the Civil Service Examination! It's even harder than getting into university. No matter how high your score is, you can go to school. It’s just a difference between better and worse. But it’s much more difficult to take the public exam. It’s like having thousands of troops crossing a single-plank bridge. I almost vomited when I was studying. I suffered so much, you know? ?My mother nags me to study every day, and you force me to study. It’s so annoying!”

Chen Xu was too lazy to pay attention to him and didn't want to talk anymore. Zhang Dawei squatted forward and leaned forward, "Chen Xu, do you believe I can pass the exam?" In fact, Chen Xu knew in his heart that what he wanted to ask was whether it was possible for two people to be together? Chen Xu didn't want to lie to him. She felt conflicted. She wanted to live more than anyone else, but she still didn't want to do anything against her conscience. Chen Xu looked at Zhang Dawei angrily and said, "If you play games every day and study all the time, you will never pass the exam in your life! Others are studying the questions seriously, but you pretending to study here will have an effect?" ? I think you just open your mouth, raise your neck, and wait for the pie to fall from the sky." Zhang Dawei was a little dissatisfied, "That's how you look at me!"

Chen Xu closed his eyes and didn't even want to look at him, but he said: "Otherwise? How should I look at you? I wholeheartedly hope that you will pass the exam, but what have you done? Just tell me how much I bought you. You didn’t finish the test paper until the end, so you have the nerve to say that you almost vomited?”

Zhang Dawei took another step forward, "I know you want me to pass the exam. That time, I went to take the exam and you sent me to the exam room. I know you are very good to me and our family. But why can't you "Stick to the original intention?" Chen Xu said furiously: "What original intention should I stick to? I feel sorry for your mother, you know? In your family, she is the most hard-working and attentive person in life. I am afraid that I will become her in the future. .I am afraid of poverty and hunger, and I don’t want to live a life without hope. Your mother is very good to me, but she loves you more. If I marry you, she will ask me to take care of you like she does. What about you, every day If you don’t seek progress, tell me, where is your hope? It’s better not to have a family than to live like that!”

Chen Xu didn't intend to please Zhang Dawei and said something against his will, but such a justified quarrel made Zhang Dawei feel that the current state of the two was more like a couple quarreling.

Zhang Dawei whispered: "I won't always be like that."

Chen Xu said to Zhang Dawei: "Hurry up and let me go. I have to drive to Beijing. I have to watch the National Day flag-raising tomorrow morning! If it's later, I won't be able to catch up."

Zhang Dawei said: "I went to Beijing with my classmates when I graduated from high school. I got up early to watch the flag raising. There were too many people and it was boring." Chen Xu insisted, "I have never been to Beijing before. I must go to see it this time." Look, let me go quickly."

Zhang Dawei's attitude has softened a lot. At this moment, he doesn't want to let go of Chen Xu immediately, but just wants to talk to her more. He likes this way of speaking, even if he disagrees. He knew that it would be impossible for the two of them to make trouble after this, but he didn't want to break off the contact with Chen Xu from now on.

At this moment, Chen Xu's phone suddenly came to his mind. The phone was in Chen Xu's pants pocket. Zhang Dawei hurried over and took out his phone with difficulty. He pressed it a few times and then kept staring at the phone. The ringtone rang over and over again, and then hung up automatically.

Chen Xu saw Zhang Dawei's expression suddenly changed. She just leaned half of her body to see if it was Liu Jingsheng's call. Zhang Dawei stood up with a gloomy expression, threw Chen Xu's cell phone on the ground, kicked Chen Xu hard and pushed her against the wall. Zhang Dawei suddenly took out his mobile phone and pointed it at her and took a few photos. Then he looked at the photos and said, "It's so disgusting. I wanted to enjoy you first, but seeing how dirty you look now, I really can't stop talking." He bent down and grabbed Chen Xu's hair to lift her up. Chen Xu quickly used his strength to stand up. Zhang Dawei picked her up and threw her to the side. Chen Xu fell to the ground again, kicking up a cloud of dust. Zhang Dawei said with a ferocious expression: "Kneel down on the ground now and say that you, Chen Xu, are my Zhang Dawei's dog. You are willing to be my bitch and my sex slave. Otherwise, this will be your burial place." As he said, he took She picked up her phone and took a picture of Chen Xu, "Hurry up, my patience is limited." Chen Xu didn't want to anger him, but she couldn't say such words even if she was killed. If you want to live in such humiliation, you would rather die.

Zhang Dawei held up the phone for a long time, and when Chen Xu made no move, he suddenly became furious, "Bitch, do you really think I don't dare to do anything to you?" As he said that, he pulled Chen Xu's hair and sat him up, facing her. Face slapped him angrily. Chen Xu tilted his body. Zhang Dawei saw Chen Xu stubbornly looking at him without saying a word. He was furious and suddenly kicked Chen Xu hard in the chest. Chen Xu immediately passed out and knew nothing.

Chen Xu recalled this scene. She didn't understand why Zhang Dawei was suddenly furious. Thinking about it now, she still has lingering fears. She could still lie next to her mother for the rest of her life. Is this true? Isn't it a dream? She raised her arm to her mouth and took a hard bite. She shivered in pain, but she smiled with tears in her eyes.