Life is more than just living

Wang Ran said to Chen Xu: "Can you please stop being so active? Do you want to join the party? You are not giving others a way to survive. You are too active and show yourself everywhere, which invisibly crowds out others. In this way, the leader will Using you as a benchmark to hold others accountable will undoubtedly lead to involution. Think carefully about whether what I said is right!"

Chen Xu never expected that she would receive this evaluation because of her serious work. She said helplessly: "I just cherish this job. If I think it is work, I have to do it seriously. How can I have so many ideas." Wang Ran felt cold. Hey, who would believe it?

After Wang Ran finished speaking, he sat back in his seat and ignored Chen Xu. Chen Xu didn't know how to react for a while. She was tangled and confused. Until after get off work time, Wang Ran and others had already left work. Chen Xu sat in the office for a long time before going to the canteen to eat. When she arrived at the cafeteria, no one was eating. Seeing that she came late, Liu Yun asked with concern: "Are you working overtime again today?" Chen Xu forced a smile. Master Dong wanted to reheat the dishes for Chen Xu. Chen Xu She said embarrassedly: "I can just heat it myself. You can do whatever you need to do!" As she said that, she served some food herself, put it together in the pot and stir-fried it, then put it on a plate and brought it to the table. It tastes like chewing gum and eating it. Liu Yun brought her a cup of tea and asked her: "Why are you a little listless today? Are you too tired or someone made you unhappy?" Chen Xu almost impulsively told Liu Yun about Wang Ran, but the words came to his lips. Bian changed his mind again, "I went to participate in the knowledge competition today, and there will be semi-finals tomorrow. The TV station will record the whole process tomorrow, and it will be broadcast on Longcheng TV. I'm afraid that I won't perform well then, and I keep thinking about those questions. , for fear of being embarrassed when the time comes.”

Liu Yun smiled, "Silly boy, there are so many people participating in the competition, and you are not the only one. Don't worry, others will definitely not be as good as you. You believe Aunt Liu. Okay, don't think about it, just eat well now." Then, Liu Yun went into the kitchen and washed a big apple, came out and put it in Chen Xu's hand, "After you finish eating, take it back and eat it later. Chen Xu said embarrassedly: "Aunt Liu, you don't have to always bring me food. I'm so embarrassed." But Liu Yun said: "There is nothing here, and it doesn't cost much. You don't have to buy fruit yourself in the future. If you don't mind, just eat whatever is here." Anyway, we provide fruit for lunch, so I can just cut less. Sometimes if I cut too much, I can’t eat it and it’s all wasted. "

When he returned to the dormitory after dinner, Chen Xu was still a little out of spirits. She suddenly remembered that when the game was about to take place today, she had just taken off her windbreaker and was about to go on stage. Liu Yihui reminded her that there were people taking pictures at the scene, saying that the jade rope inside Chen Xu's collar would be exposed and it would not look good, so she reminded her to take it off. Lose. Chen Xu took it off as instructed and put it in the pocket of his windbreaker.

Thinking about it now, Chen Xu took out the jade plaque from the pocket of his windbreaker and hung it on the bed rail of the upper bunk. She changed out of her suit and hung it on a clothes rack, then reached out to pick up the jade plaque hanging on the railing. . Somehow the jade token suddenly fell out of hand, fell to the ground and broke. Chen Xu quickly picked up the jade plaque that was broken into two parts and was heartbroken. She doesn't understand jade and doesn't know how much this jade token is worth, but this is not a matter of price, but that it carries old man Wu Sixian's best wishes for her. Today, it suddenly broke. Chen Xu suddenly had a bad feeling and felt uncomfortable in his heart.

Chen Xu picked up the two sections of the jade plaque and held it in his hand, looked at it again and again, then carefully wrapped it in a piece of paper and stuffed it back into the pocket of his windbreaker. She hung up her suit and trench coat and put them in dust bags. Chen Xu looked at the pile of competition questions placed on the windowsill. He originally wanted to read them again, but because he had something on his mind, he flipped through them for a long time and couldn't read them at all. Looking at the time, it was already past seven o'clock, and she didn't know what Han Yidao was busy with. She tentatively sent him a message: I went to participate in the knowledge competition today. Our unit ranked first in the group and will be in the semi-finals tomorrow. After holding the phone and waiting for a while, but there was no response, Chen Xu sighed and looked at the threads on the bed ready to be used to knit scarves. After thinking about it, she should knit it for herself first. Since she had never knitted before, she must not be very good at knitting the first one. She should use her own to practice her skills, and then knit one for Liu Jingsheng as a birthday gift. As for Han Yidao, don't rush it, wait. Bring him there during the Spring Festival holiday.

Chen Xu had a good plan and was just about to start knitting a scarf when Liu Jingsheng suddenly sent a message asking her if she was still busy? Chen Xu quickly replied: No, no, no, no overtime today. Chen Xu asked again: Is it convenient for you to video chat now? Liu Jingsheng immediately sent the video, and Chen Xu quickly covered the line with a pillow towel before connecting to the video. Chen Xu looked at Liu Jingsheng and smiled reluctantly. Liu Jingsheng looked at her face on the screen and said, "That smile is really ugly. If you have anything unhappy, just tell me. Don't force yourself to be so fake." He looks happy, but I feel uncomfortable looking at him like this."

Chen Xu sighed, "My serious work makes my colleagues dissatisfied. My colleagues don't want to work so seriously. Today she told me: I work like this to show that I am crowding out others, and she also said that it will be difficult for others. Do it. If the leader uses me as a benchmark to ask other young people, he will be involuntarily involved, so I am very unhappy. Brother, I have no ambition, and a person with no background like me cannot develop much. I I just want to work seriously in this position and be worthy of the salary I am about to receive. No matter what work you do, shouldn’t you be serious and conscientious? Teacher Lin once said to me: Be honest, upright, and open-minded Dang; work must be diligent, conscientious, and down-to-earth. Why can’t it be done at work? I haven’t provoked anyone. They are unwilling to do it because they are afraid of hardship and tiredness; I am willing to do it, not afraid of hardship or tiredness, No conflict! Why do you still dislike me? What do they want to do? Are we all going on strike? It was so easy for me to get this job. I have been looking forward to this day for many years. For this job, I How can I mess around with Han Yidao when we are so far apart? I am really confused and sad today, and I don’t know what to do next.”

Liu Jingsheng scratched his eyebrows with his hand and said: "Chen Xu, there is an old saying: 'Action is higher than a person, and the public will reject it'. Nowadays, some young people just think about it, because many young people are only children, and their parents are very tolerant to them. , so when they go out into society, they still hope to be as free and relaxed as they are at home. If you do too much, you will inevitably be criticized, but you told me what your director said to you two days ago. What she said is right. Leaders are not blind. They can see your efforts. In the future, you must be a principled person. If others make things difficult for you, then you don’t have to tolerate them. As the saying goes, 'but don't do good deeds. 'Ask for the future', haha, it seems inappropriate to use it here, but that's what it means, just do what you think is right."

Chen Xu nodded repeatedly, "Brother, I listen to you. But I still have something to worry about. When I was celebrating the New Year at my grandma's house during the Spring Festival last year, my grandma gave me a jade sign, saying it was a safe and sound sign. I'm going to compete today. When I was there, I took off the jade medal because I needed to take pictures and put it in my pocket. But when I was trying to put it on, I accidentally dropped it to the ground and broke it. Why are so many bad things happening at the same time today? ?I suddenly had a bad feeling."

Liu Jingsheng laughed at her, "Silly girl, when did you become so superstitious? Jade is something that you are afraid of knocking and touching. It doesn't matter if it breaks. Next time, I will give you a few more. We will take turns bringing them. If they break, we will replace them with new ones." "." Chen Xu quickly said: "Forget it, don't want it. I broke this and it made me feel bad. Oh, I'd better not wear this kind of thing in the future!" After chatting for a while, Chen Xu thought He quickly started knitting a scarf and said he needed to wash up, so he hung up the video. As soon as she picked up the knitting needle, she heard her phone ring. She picked it up and saw that it was Han Yidao's message. When she clicked on it, she would rather Han Yidao didn't reply to his message.

Han Yidao's message was simple: Chen Xu, after careful consideration and painful struggle, I finally made a difficult decision. The two of us should no longer give each other false hopes. The road ahead is too difficult, I can’t hold on anymore, and I don’t want it to be that difficult for you. If you are as cowardly as I am, I am not worthy of you. I wish you all the best in the future, and I hope you can find someone who is truly suitable for you. Chen Xu, if we meet each other, don't hate me. Take good care of it.

Chen Xu held the phone and looked at it for a long time. She didn't cry, but felt relieved. Chen Xu's experience growing up has determined that she is not a stalker and she will not trouble anyone. Chen Xu spent a long time deleting, editing, and replying to Han Yidao: Han Yidao, I have been very happy in the past few years of knowing you. Thank you for appearing in my life and illuminating my life like a ray of warm light. You make me Knowing that there is another possibility for my life. Thanks! You are not a coward. You have worked hard for our future and you have fought hard. I understand. I was selfish. I gave up working with you in the first place. Forgive me for not being able to be alone, because I really want to have a peaceful and peaceful life. The past few years with you have been the happiest times I have had in these years. Thank you for being in my life. I will live a good life and live up to the good wishes of all those who care and love me. Dependences arise, conditions perish, and conditions eventually end. From now on, one parted and the other parted, let each of us live well!

After Chen Xu's message was sent, Han Yidao did not reply. Chen Xu picked up the knitting needle and tried to knit a scarf for herself. She still wanted to finish knitting the scarf for Han Yidao, which would also bring an end to the relationship she had had over the past few years. Chen Xu was surprised at her calmness. She thought, maybe she didn't love her enough. For a person like herself who only wants to live a good life, it would be difficult for her to devote herself wholeheartedly to a relationship. Maybe she is not worthy at all. Go love someone!

Before going to bed, she sent a message to Liu Jingsheng: Brother, Han Yidao and I broke up. I'm fine, but I feel a sense of relief. Although I'm sorry for Han Yidao, this is my true feeling. I don't need comfort. Please comfort Han Yidao more when you have time! He is a person who attaches great importance to love and justice. I know that he must have encountered difficulties and had to break up with me as a last resort. Tell him that I am fine and don't make him feel guilty. Brother, I used to do everything by myself, but after getting to know you, I changed and relied on you for everything. You are a good and competent brother. You are not afraid of having another brother, right? Brother, please help Han Yidao more. Although he is two years older than me, he is simple-minded and acts like a big boy sometimes. Please pay more attention and help him come out.

Liu Jingsheng only replied with a few simple words: OK, I will do it, don’t worry! He looked at the pile of empty beer cans on the coffee table and helplessly lifted Han Yidao to the bed in the guest room. Han Yidao was still chattering drunkenly: "Liu Jingsheng, I will be invincible from now on. I have no weaknesses and no heart." . You will see a heartless, no, Han Yidao who is heartless, hahaha..." Han Yidao laughed and burst into tears. Liu Jingsheng grabbed the pillow towel and wiped it on Han Yidao's face, "Go to sleep! When you wake up, tomorrow is a new day."