Life is more than just living

After Chen Xu completed the qualification review, he still returned to the training institution to work there. Candidates who have passed the qualification review and are preparing for interviews have entered various training courses. Chen Xu takes the trouble to receive candidates who come for consultation every day at the front desk. Although Chen Xu's time is fragmented, she still listens to the lecturer giving lectures to the candidates at the classroom door when no one is consulting. There is an older lecturer who likes Chen Xu very much and will give her some advice in private when he has time. Chen Xu would practice by himself in front of a dressing mirror on the table every night before going to bed.

People came to sign up one after another. Because the tuition fees were different, the training class hours were also different. When all the candidates left, the training class had no training business for the time being, and the person in charge paid Chen Xu's salary. Chen Xu felt that she had gained a lot. Although she did not sit in the classroom, she felt that she had not only made money but also learned relevant knowledge, which was very cost-effective. During this period, Chen Xu and Liu Jingsheng also contacted several times. Liu Jingsheng knew that Chen Xu was very busy recently and did not dare to disturb her. After the interview time was arranged, Chen Xu found that he was scheduled for the second day of the interview. Some people feel that the interview was a bit disadvantageous in the first few days because the preparation time was short. But Chen Xu felt that it was good to make a quick decision without having to worry all the time. After the interview time was confirmed, Liu Jingsheng said that he would invite Chen Xu out for dinner alone. After dinner, Liu Jingsheng saw that it was still early, so he said he would go sit at my house because it was a bit hot outside. Chen Xu readily agreed.

At Liu Jingsheng's house, Chen Xu said to Liu Jingsheng: "Brother, I am selfish in this matter. I know that Han Yidao can't let me go, so I pretend not to know his feelings. I can't take care of so many things at the same time. I read the sixteenth Books, just so that I can live an upright life. But here, I have never been recognized. I have to be criticized, insulted and belittled by his mother. If things go on like this, I will slowly lose confidence. Without the self-confidence that I have built up so easily, Then all my efforts will be in vain. I can't let this happen. I'll be sorry for my teacher, Teacher Lin, and even more sorry for myself. I have suffered for more than 20 years and don't want to continue. I don't want to always I have been despised, otherwise what is the point of my efforts? When I returned to Longcheng, I gave up facing difficulties with Han Yidao and pursued the life I wanted. On the other hand, I have withdrawn, but I don’t know How should we face the inevitable result that is about to come? I think the love between the two cities is unlikely to last long, and the relationship will slowly fade away."

Liu Jingsheng looked at Chen Xu distressedly, "Has anyone ever said that you are very sincere?" Chen Xu shook his head, "No! Some people say that I am beautiful; some say that my life is bad; some say that I am despicable; some say that I am scheming... Only no one ever said I was sincere."

Liu Jingsheng sat next to Chen Xu, "Chen Xu, you go back to Longcheng. Although it's a bit far away, I still say the same thing: I will support all the decisions you make. If you come ashore as you wish this time, you can calm down." Think carefully about what kind of life you want, and give Han Yidao a sense of crisis so that he can handle things here as soon as possible."

Chen Xu lowered his head and said: "I suddenly didn't have the confidence to go on with Han Yidao. I know he is very good, but since I decided to be with him, I have felt the same kind of rejection by people before. I don't like such low self-esteem." life. I lived very hard, just to get rid of the fate of being rejected. After a long circle, I jumped into this pit again. This was something I didn’t want to do, but I didn’t have the courage to break up directly. It was very difficult. Cruel. Let's talk about it after we both live and work in different places. I don't know how long I can hold on. Brother, you are really partial. I am obviously a very selfish person, but you say that I am sincere. "

Liu Jingsheng looked at her helplessly, "Silly girl, the so-called sincerity refers to true self-presentation, no pretense, and not asking to be great or holy. You grew up in such an environment, but you never make excuses for yourself, no Complaining about others, you don’t even know how amazing you are. By the way, if you go back to work in Longcheng, can I visit you often? Although you and I are not related by blood, and there is no formal sworn ceremony, but I really regard you as a relative, please don’t refuse my approach, okay?”

Chen Xu nodded, "How could I refuse? It's so easy for someone to be my relative, how could I refuse? This is something I have been craving for more than 20 years. I'm just very embarrassed. You have always been the one to comfort me and take care of me. I I feel like I'm taking advantage of you." Liu Jingsheng pinched her nose with his hand, "That's silly. It's settled, no matter where you are, you can't refuse your brother's visit and concern. No matter whether you can go to the end with Han Yidao, you will She is my sister. You have returned to Dragon City. Just send me an emoticon when you get home from work, telling me that you are home. You are a girl and you must protect yourself."