Life is more than just living

Liu Jingsheng opened the door gently and came in. He saw Chen Xu still sitting on the sofa and crying silently. Chen Xu didn't even notice that he had gone out. It wasn't until Liu Jingsheng came back that Chen Xu raised his head and looked at him blankly. Liu Jingsheng sat down, took out a tissue and handed it to Chen Xu, "Don't cry anymore! Chen Xu, everyone's life is not so complete. There will always be setbacks and imperfections. What others see is On the outside, I only see how gorgeous I am on the outside, but I can only bear the flaws on the inside. Just like before I met you, I didn’t even have friends. Everyone who met me said I was ‘good-looking’, but they didn’t. You know how lonely I am in my heart and how disgusted I am with the term 'good-looking'. I hate people calling me a sissy, but the first person to say this was my grandfather. He said I was a sissy raised by a loser. I'm not effeminate, but just because I didn't want to climb trees and climb walls with a bunch of naughty boys when I was little, and just because I played with Zihan, I was called a sissy. This is what I said. My grandfather! At that time, I just saw that Zihan had no friends, and I felt sorry for her. Thinking of my loneliness when I was a child, I felt a bit sympathetic to the same problem, and I was more willing to take care of this little sister, but I got this result. You too Same thing, you are good-looking, but you have a bad life. You have suffered a lot that others have not suffered. But do you know? Others may not have a better life than you. You know people like Zihan, Han Yidao, Meng Xiangyu, and Ma Mingchuan. Everyone has unknown suffering. So I can let you cry for a while, but you can't fall into this emotion all the time. Cheer up. If you need help, just ask, but the key is to rely on yourself. Many things cannot be solved by outside forces. The fate between the two of us is very wonderful. I don’t want to be strangers to you in this life. Do you want to be my friend or my sister? It’s up to you. I will always be the one The person who is willing to help you and stands behind you and wants you to be happy the most.”

Chen Xu originally stopped crying. But after listening to Liu Jingsheng's words, his eyes filled with tears again, "You should be my brother. I have no relatives, although my parents are still alive. But they wish I had never existed, and they would not be sad even if I disappeared from this world." Fortunately, I have you. Maybe we were really brother and sister in our previous life. I don’t even have a female friend, but I can be friends with you. You are right, this fate is really wonderful."

Liu Jingsheng smiled and handed her another tissue, "Silly girl, don't cry. You didn't even have a good meal at noon. I'll take you out to eat something good in the evening. You just graduated. You've had a lot of fun these days. Over the years, you Life is too hard and tiring. Let’s relax for a few days. It’s up to you whether you want to continue studying for the public examination or find another job. If you want to find a job, what are your requirements for salary and environment? If you don’t dislike it, you can Go to my company."

Chen Xu shook her head. She pressed her swollen eyes with her hand, "I don't want it anymore. There is no shortage of people in your company. If I go, it will be like getting money for nothing. Don't set up a special position for me. I think it's okay." Consider looking for a lighter job first, even if it doesn’t make much money, so that you can have time and energy to continue studying. I still think that a job within the system is more suitable for me. For someone like me who pursues stability and security, I don’t It’s too aggressive. I feel like my strength has almost been exhausted after studying for 16 years, so...

Liu Jingsheng took over his words, "No matter what choice you make, I will support you. As long as you don't torture yourself with self-pity. I just called Meng Xiangyu, and Meng Xiangyu said she didn't know her mother came to see you. And she said: She has no idea about Han Yidao. It may just be the thoughts of the old people on both sides. As long as Meng Xiangyu is not willing, there is no need for them to continue to match up." Chen Xu was stunned for a moment, but he did not expect that Liu Jingsheng could do anything for him. She did this, and she said sincerely: "Brother, it's great to have you, but you don't have to worry about me anymore. I was just vulnerable for a moment, and I didn't dare to do it in front of others." Liu Jingsheng said: "It doesn't matter. You don't have to be stiff in front of me. You can do whatever you want."

In the afternoon, Han Yidao called and said that he would take Chen Xu to see flowers after get off work. Chen Xu was very happy and asked: "Is it the same place where we went to see cosmos last time?" Han Yidao smiled, "You still remember it, yes, that's the place." Chen Xu said: "But it's only June now. Remember last year we It was August when I went there. Will it bloom now?" Han Yidao smiled, "Trust me, okay? I saw a friend's post on Moments today and they went this morning." Chen Xu immediately became interested when he heard this, "That's great. Now, I'm here with Liu Jingsheng. Let him drive and let's go together." Han Yidao on the other end of the phone muttered, "We're going on a date, why bring a big light bulb?" Liu Jingsheng couldn't hear what Han Yidao said, but he guessed It turned out that Han Yidao was not very happy. So he leaned close to Chen Xu's phone and said loudly: "Han Yidao, I have accepted Chen Xu as my sister. It will be in your favor to be polite in the future. If you make me happy, I can be a driver, a photographer and pay the bills."

At this time, Han Yidao's dogged voice came from the other end of the phone, "Brother, whatever you say will happen." Chen Xu was amused by Han Yidao's words and laughed out loud. Liu Jingsheng drove Chen Xu to pick up Han Yidao from get off work. Han Yidao wanted to sit in the back seat of the car with Chen Xu, but Liu Jingsheng refused, "You brat, do you really think of me as a driver? You are staying with me in the front. , the distinguished seat in the back can only accommodate my sister." Han Yidao didn't argue with him, and sat obediently in the passenger seat.

Arriving at the Wetland Park in the suburbs, Liu Jingsheng parked the car and took out his camera. Sometimes he took pictures of Chen Xu and Han Yidao, sometimes of the scenery. He will not affect Chen Xu and Han Yidao. Chen Xu and Han Yidao held hands and walked around the edge of the artificial lake. At this time, the lotus flowers were responding to the phrase "the little lotus is just showing its sharp corners." There were not many tourists. Liu Jingsheng was walking in front of them. Press the shutter from time to time.

Han Yidao knew that what Chen Xu cared about most was the vast sea of ​​cosmos flowers, so the two of them strolled over. At dusk, there were flowers all over the mountains and fields. As soon as Chen Xu saw the shadow of the flowers, he left the two people behind and ran over excitedly. Both of them laughed behind them. Han Yidao looked at Liu Jingsheng and said: "Jingsheng, Chen Xu and I have been together for a while, but only by bringing her here can I see her most relaxed smile. I really don't know what magic these flowers have? But as long as she is happy, that's fine , I don’t have the ability at the moment. If I can buy a big house with a yard in the future, I must plant all these flowers in the yard." Liu Jingsheng nodded, "I believe you can do what you say." Liu Jingsheng raised his camera and said from time to time Capture a photo of Chen Xu among flowers.

When Han Yidao looked at Chen Xu, she would laugh uncontrollably. He said to Liu Jingsheng: "It was the same last year. After bringing her here, she almost forgot about me and indulged herself in it. These flowers probably really have magic power. I saw that her eyes were a little swollen. Did she cry today?"

Liu Jingsheng nodded, "She is confused and very fragile now. I want to comfort her, but it is of no use. The person who untie the bell must also tie the bell. Maybe you are the only one who can comfort her." Han Yidao, Chen Xu has been alone since he was a child, and he has become very mature. The pain is very painful, don't let her suffer anymore. I know your mother has been strongly opposed to it, but if you can't give her happiness, don't make promises to her. You are a man, do what a man should do, and don't always hurt her. Let her bear it, she is a miserable girl. You should re-examine your relationship and stop causing more harm because of you."

Han Yidao nodded, "I know." He knew that he knew, but now that he had two mothers, everything was messed up. He couldn't handle these emotions. How could he tell Liu Jingsheng?

It was late at night when I got home after dinner. Liu Jingsheng imported the photos he took today to his computer and sent them to Chen Xu using QQ. He was looking forward to Chen Xu's space uploading these photos. But when I clicked on Chen Xu’s QQ for several days in a row, I still kept talking about last year. Liu Jingsheng, like a real brother, is very worried about his sister. He knew that Chen Xu had temporarily forgotten her troubles in the sea of ​​flowers, but the things that troubled her had not changed when she returned to reality.

Chen Xu accompanied Wu Sixian for a walk in the garden in the middle of the street early in the morning. He met Mr. Meng here. The old man was in good spirits. He came over and asked Chen Xu with concern, "Girl, how did you do in the civil service examination?" Chen Xu's mood A little disappointed, "I didn't do too well in the exam." The old man said with his hands behind his back: "It doesn't matter. Don't be arrogant when you win but don't be discouraged when you lose. Keep working hard next time. I'm optimistic about you." Chen Xu forced a smile and said: "Thank you, Grandpa Meng." A five or six-year-old child was playing a ball. The ball suddenly rolled onto the road. The child wanted to pick it up. Chen Xu quickly stopped the child from running towards the road. She said, "Kid, just stand here and don't move. I'll get it for you." Chen Xu looked at the cars on both sides of the road, quickly ran to the other side of the road, picked up the ball, and handed it to the child. The child’s grandmother kept saying thank you. Chen Xu walked towards Wu Sixian and Mr. Meng. Because there were many people in the park in the middle of the street and people were coming and going, the two of them didn't notice Chen Xu coming. I just heard Mr. Meng say: "Well, I don't know what Fanyi's wife is thinking. It is reasonable to say that she is a educated person who teaches and educates people. How can she be so ignorant? Now the child doesn't recognize them at all, and she still She has to interfere in the child's life-long affairs. I feel sorry for the child if I make a mistake. He was not raised by his side, so he should feel guilty. I didn't expect that she still had to meddle in everything. Besides, , what is she talking about? When a child chooses a partner, it mainly depends on his character, not just his family background! Alas, people nowadays are all focused on money. In my opinion, Chen Xu is a good kid. . A few days ago, I met Chen Xu to print out her admission ticket. I specifically asked her what position she applied for. The child said she applied for the procuratorate in our district. I also told Fan Yi and his wife that if this girl really takes the exam, Come on, what else do you have to say? What else is there about Chen Xu that is not worthy of Yidao? Yidao doesn’t even have a serious job now. Alas, when Fanyi’s wife heard this, she simply told me Chen Xu couldn't pass the exam! I was so angry at that time, why would I look down on others like this! That child also graduated from a prestigious university, and I heard that her grades are usually good, so how do you know that she can't pass the exam? I think she is looking forward to having a child. If you can't pass the exam, who are you? This is my daughter-in-law, and there's nothing I can do about it. If you talk about it in a serious way, neither of you will like to hear it. If you talk about it in a superficial way, you won't take it seriously."

Wu Sixian also sighed, "Forget it, we can't control that much. Children and grandchildren will have their own blessings, let them deal with it themselves. No one can be the master of others. I think Chen Xu is a good boy, and Zhilan also I don’t want to, Chen Xu is so good, why can’t they see it? I think they don’t pay attention to people’s character at all now, they just want to focus on money.”

This time Chen Xu was even more convinced of Li Lanfeng's dark conclusion. Li Lanfeng called Chen Xu that morning, and Chen Xu had not yet entered the examination room. But after Chen Xu turned off his phone and was busy looking for an examination room, he forgot about her influence. The "Administrative Vocational Aptitude Test" in the morning was not affected at all, but the unpleasant conversation at noon did play a role and seriously affected the afternoon exam. Wu Sixian looked up and saw Chen Xu, feeling a little unnatural. She didn't want Chen Xu to hear this and become troubled. Wu Sixian stood up and said, "Xiao Xu, let's go for a walk with grandma." Chen Xu smiled and helped Wu Sixian up and said goodbye to Mr. Meng. Mr. Meng sighed from behind, what a good child. How many children today are so sensible? Why don't you like them?