Life is more than just living

When Chen Xu came out from the exam, she went to where Liu Jingsheng was waiting for her at noon and found Liu Jingsheng and Han Yidao standing together waiting for her. Chen Xu tried hard to smile but failed. Han Yidao and Liu Jingsheng both saw that Chen Xu was not in a good mood, and they quickly took her to find the car. This time Han Yidao sat in the back seat with Chen Xu. He looked at her face and asked with concern: "Are you very tired?"

Chen Xu shook his head, "I didn't do well in the exam, and I feel like I don't have enough time." Liu Jingsheng comforted her while driving, "It doesn't matter, this time it's just a practice. There is also the national exam, and the time given for the "Shen Lun" of the national exam is Long, three hours." Han Yidao also said: "You may not be the only one who feels this way, others may also feel that there is not enough time. Just put it down after the exam. Let's go relax and eat something good today."

Chen Xu was not in high spirits. He pressed his temples and said, "I was supposed to treat Jingsheng to a meal, but I'm not in the mood today. Let's try another day! I want to go back and rest early today." Liu Jingsheng quickly answered, "Why are you being polite to me? What kind of food are you going to have? Wait until you work and make money before treating me to a meal!"

Liu Jingsheng drove the two of them back home. When they were about to get off the car, Chen Xu looked over at Liu Jingsheng and said, "If it's convenient, can I put my luggage at your place first? Grandma's house is not big and there is no storage room. There is a place to put it." Liu Jingsheng said quickly that it was no problem.

When Chen Xu returned home, Wu Sixian asked her how she did in the exam, and Chen Xu said it was not very good. The old man comforted her, "Let nature take its course. You have worked very hard. Maybe everyone is not as good as you." Chen Xu reluctantly smiled and went back to her house. During dinner, she said she was not hungry and did not want to eat. Wu Sixian quietly said to Han Yidao: "Go and persuade him." Han Yidao knocked on the door and walked in. Chen Xu sat in front of the table in a daze. Han Yidao walked over and held her shoulder, "Silly girl, this is nothing. There will be many opportunities in the future." Chen Xu said feebly: "It's not because of the exam." Han Yidao was stunned, "Why is that?" Chen Xu was speechless for a moment. What could she say? Are you saying that Han Yidao's newly promoted mother has made things difficult for her? It cannot be said that Han Yidao had a grudge in the first place. If he was told the truth again, the relationship between mother and son would not be better, and Han Yidao could not be allowed to cause trouble. Chen Xu stood up and said, "It's so boring in the house. Let's go out for a walk."

Han Yidao responded quickly, "Where to go?" Chen Xu suddenly said: "I want to go and see our house again." Han Yidao said, "What's so good about a rough house!" Chen Xu was stubborn, "But I want to go. "Han Yidao had no choice but to get the house key. The two got on the bus and arrived at the place more than 40 minutes later. Many homes in the community were being renovated. Two people opened the door. Chen Xu walked in first. The walls and floor were gray. Chen Xu looked at every place carefully. Originally, this place carried his yearning for a better life in the future, but did he and Han Yidao have a future? It was getting dark, so Han Yidao turned on the light. There were only old-fashioned light bulbs in the room, which were of little use. Han Yidao felt that Chen Xu was a little weird today. He thought it was because he didn't perform well in the exam, which caused him to be in a low mood. So he tentatively said, "I've been a little busy recently. How about you focus on decoration while studying?" Chen Xu said, "But I don't understand this." Han Yidao smiled, "There are a few people who really understand. Look online and check out the decoration styles of your neighbors for reference." Chen Xu was noncommittal, but Han Yidao said: "Your classmate's house upstairs doesn't know how far the decoration is going. I'll go up and see if anyone is there. ." He said and ran out. Chen Xu leaned against the wall and held back the tears that were about to burst out. Within a few minutes, Han Yidao ran back and said, "Chen Xu, come here, your classmates have all moved in. Let's go see their decoration effect." Chen Xu was pulled upstairs by Han Yidao. Fang Jia had already opened the door and was waiting. Watching them.

Chen Xu walked in and saw that the room had been tidied up. There was only a bed in the empty master bedroom, and a half-eaten meal was placed on the dining table. Chen Xu said in surprise: "How come you guys finished the decoration so quickly? It's less than a month." Fang Jia smiled, "In addition to paying the down payment for the house and buying a car, the money our two families collected was less than 10 yuan. , I can only do it briefly. After laying the floor tiles, I installed the bathroom and kitchen. So I only bought a bed and dining table, and then pots and pans. I will slowly add the rest when I earn money. Come on! Now the school allows students to leave school and there is no place to live. So the two of us moved in. Fortunately, it is hot now and we can open the windows to ventilate the formaldehyde." Chen Xu nodded approvingly, and Fang Jia suddenly asked: "How did you do in the exam today? How?" Chen Xu sighed, "Not very good. What about you?" Fang Jia scratched his head, "It's not bad!" Chen Xu knew that she did well in the exam, but because he said that she didn't do well in the exam, he said it modestly. Chen Xu patted her arm, "Not bad." Chen Xu saw that the two people accompanying her and Han Yidao put down the meal after eating halfway, and said, "You guys can eat, let's go back first." The two people said goodbye and came out, Chen Xu returned to the house downstairs and looked around the rooms. Then turn off the lights, lock the door and leave. Chen Xu's abnormality today made Han Yidao very uneasy. He took Chen Xu's hand and said, "Chen Xu, don't lose heart. I'm here! Everything will be fine. Trust me." Chen Xu nodded silently.

The next day, Han Yidao wanted to take Chen Xu to the company to relax, but Chen Xu said that he still wanted to study. After Han Yidao left, Chen Xu called Liu Jingsheng, "What are you busy with?" Liu Jingsheng wiped his sweat with a towel, "Today is Sunday, rest, and I just came back from a run. What plans do you two have today?" Chen Xu asked Han Yidao to go. Got to work. Liu Jingsheng thought for a moment and said, "What about you, where do you want to go? If Han Yidao is not free to accompany you, I can take you there." Chen Xu said, "Liu Jingsheng, can I go to your house now? I want to talk to someone. ." Liu Jingsheng threw the towel away and said, "Wait for me. I'll pick you up. I'll call you when I arrive."

Chen Xu hung up the phone and went downstairs to sit in the park in the middle of the street and wait. Waiting for others always felt that time passed very slowly, so Chen Xu looked at the time on his phone over and over again. More than half an hour later, the phone rang, and Chen Xu quickly ran over and got into Liu Jingsheng's car. Liu Jingsheng came out wearing running sportswear. She was a little embarrassed, "I'm sorry, I've been very upset these past two days. I don't know what to do? I have to come to you." Liu Jingsheng smiled, "Just come to me."

When they arrived at Liu Jingsheng's home, Liu Jingsheng said to change clothes and let Chen Xu sit wherever he wanted. Chen Xu walked to the balcony and looked at the flowers he bought during the New Year. Now the flowers have stopped blooming, leaving only green leaves. Chen Xu tried hard to think about how they bloomed, but his impression was very vague. She slapped her forehead hard, what happened in the past two days?

Liu Jingsheng came out and saw that Chen Xu was abusing him, so he hurried over, "What are you doing? Does it hurt if you use such force?" Chen Xu shook his head and sat on the sofa dejectedly. Liu Jingsheng sat opposite, "What happened? Is it because Did Meng Xiangyu’s mother come to you yesterday?”

Chen Xu avoided his question and said: "Liu Jingsheng, I am very confused now. I don't know if Han Yidao and I have a future. I can't find the direction. I don't know whether I should persist. My feeling of powerlessness has never been as strong as it is today." Pass."