The system asked me, a weak woman, to challenge a saint

After Xiao Yuhan heard Xiao Xuan's reminder, she subconsciously wanted to say some words of resistance. But then her reason stopped her, and she suddenly felt that something was wrong with herself and began to reflect on her behavior.

She realized that she seemed to be acting impulsively and impetuously. She didn't know enough about the entire Asura battlefield, but she rashly broke into the dark side of the sacred tree to investigate.

Xiao Yuhan decisively led You Ye out of the dark side of the sacred tree. Sitting in the cave, she quietly felt the ups and downs in her heart.

She realized that she relied on Xiao Xuan's help along the way and almost never had the experience of independent thinking and making overall decisions. In the past, she always passively accepted Xiao Xuan's guidance. From her first experience in the spiritual world in southern Xuzhou, to entering the small world of Wuchang, and now to exploring Shu, she was all under Xiao Xuan's planning and guidance. Action.

At the beginning, Xiao Yuhan faced a crisis of survival, and she relied entirely on Xiao Xuan's guidance and skills to survive. This strange system used strange methods to help her resolve crises time and time again and establish interpersonal relationships in South Xuzhou. She was grateful for Xiao Xuan's help, but she gradually realized that she had relied too much on the system's capabilities.

As her strength improved, Xiao Yuhan gradually mastered abilities far beyond those of ordinary people, and her state of mind changed somewhat. She began to doubt whether she needed Xiao Xuan's help and whether she should think and make decisions independently. She felt that when she followed Xiao Xuan's advice, it was often not the choice she really wanted. However, this rebellious mentality caused her to frequently make mistakes and make poor judgments on the battlefield.

At this moment, Xiao Yuhan realized a very serious problem. She seemed to have fallen into a misunderstanding of adolescence, and she also realized the real reason why Xiao Xuan no longer gave her frequent guidance.

Previously, Xiao Yuhan had always wondered why Xiao Xuan seemed to deliberately alienate herself at a certain stage. At first, she thought it was because the system was afraid of revealing her existence. Later, she thought it was because the broken system would cause convulsions on a regular basis, but she was happy with it. It was so quiet that she was even a little happy that Xiao Xuan didn't bother her much.

However, when she gradually discovered that she was making many wrong decisions and Xiao Xuan didn't stop her, something was wrong. Fortunately, although it was a mistake, it was not fatal, so Xiao Xuan handed over more and more power to her deputies and those closest to her and trusted her. She was afraid that she would make a major decision-making mistake.

After arriving in Shu, Xiao Xuan suddenly started to talk too much. She thought that the convulsions in her system had ended and she had returned to normal. There was a hint of joy deep in her heart. But after the survival crisis passed, Xiao Xuan became lukewarm again. She should have taken this matter seriously, but her improvement in strength also increased her arrogance. She once again felt relaxed about Xiao Xuan's silence. She didn't even It was clear that Xiao Xuan was sarcastic about her scumbag behavior again and again.

It is already the second year for Xiao Yuhan to come to this troubled world. She has a bystander attitude most of the time. It can be said that with the help of the system, she has always had a relatively safe and comfortable environment. Before entering the land of Bashu, even though she witnessed many big scenes and saw many joys and sorrows, there was always a layer of membrane between Xiao Yuhan and the world, making it difficult for her to truly integrate into this world.

She began to reflect on her pride and prejudice. Although Xiao Xuan kept reminding herself, she always evaluated the spiritual world based on the three views of the material world. She even wanted to use the theory of the material world to influence the spiritual world. This matter Regardless of whether it is right or wrong, it is obviously beyond one's ability, and it affects more than just oneself. This is a kind of arrogance.

I have never been able to truly understand others, or even truly understand Chen Wenruo, who has soul-fused with me. I have always acted as a bystander and used Chen Wenruo's identity to do things. This is a kind of prejudice.

Under this kind of arrogance and prejudice, Xiao Yuhan's actions were not sincere at all, and her heroic words were only an experimental interpretation. Because, from beginning to end, she believed that she was just playing a temporary role in this world. She was always hypnotizing herself, "This is a task given to me by the system." She ignored the fact that she and Chen Wenruo had become one. She was always unwilling to admit that Chen Wenruo's experience would have a strong mental impact on her, and Chen Wenruo's emotions would also affect her, so the system would not issue tasks at all.

She gradually realized that Xiao Xuan's care and guidance for her was not to control her, but to hope that she could grow better and survive in the increasingly difficult environment in the future.

She remembered that Xiao Xuan once said that this world was a "safety level", which meant that this was a novice village. In a novice village, why could she be arrogant and have so many prejudices.

Xiao Yuhan's thinking gradually calmed down, and she now understood that rebellious psychology would only restrict her development. In the process of thinking, she found that there was an emotion in her heart that was always fighting against herself.

She suddenly remembered her inner demons. In the material world, inner demons are almost two-dimensional and attributed to psychological theories. Low-dimensional inner demons can only affect individuals and cannot respond to the world.

But in the spiritual world, the monk's spirit can be embodied, consciousness can affect all things, and spiritual consciousness can gradually separate from the body. In such a world, the inner demons seem to exist in a higher dimension, it is like a four-dimensional world A projection in the three-dimensional world constantly affects everyone in this world, and cannot be eliminated at all.

Xiao Yuhan felt that her inner demon was growing little by little at this moment, which reminded her of her own experience of depression in the material world. She recalled that during that period, her mood was dark and she could not escape from the negative emotions. She had been avoiding that experience. But now, she realizes that this is closely related to her own pride and prejudice.

In the material world, Xiao Yuhan was troubled by depression because he failed to transcend his past. The arrogance and prejudice deep in her heart prevent her from accepting and understanding her inner fragility, and she is unable to truly face and deal with her emotional problems.

In fact, she has very little pressure in life in the material world. She has both parents and no financial pressure. Moreover, her parents never gave up on her until the last moment.

She got sick entirely because her self-centered attitude in life prevented her from taking the initiative to seek help when faced with difficulties.

She always believed that others would eventually discover her difficulties and they should take the initiative to help her, but often others did not have the same insight as You Ye, which caused her to gradually become mentally distorted. She even gave up treatment for depression and chose to confront the truck. Such extreme behavior as collision.

Xiao Yuhan recalled that at the moment before the collision with the truck, she had imagined that a hero would come to save her. The hero appeared, but she turned a blind eye.