【HP】I don’t want to fall in love, I just want to mess around

Esther had never felt so regretful.

At that moment, various thoughts flashed through her mind, but there was no solution. She could only comfort herself not to panic. The more panic, the more dangerous it would be.

"Didn't see anything."

She held the textbook in her arms tightly with one hand and held the wand in the other hand, looking at him nervously.

"Why are you nervous without you?"

"Moody" didn't believe her answer at all. He waved his wand again, and the book in her arms flew into his hand uncontrollably.

Esther's heart was in her throat. She quickly recalled the theories she had learned about Occlumency in the past few days, trying to close her feelings and control her emotions.

On the other side, "Moody" has already obtained the Marauder's Map. Fortunately, Esther did not activate the Marauder's Map just now.

The unactivated Marauder's Map was just an ordinary piece of kraft paper. "Moody" looked over it over and over again, but of course he saw nothing.

He put the Marauder's Map together with other textbooks, silently stepped forward and handed it back to Esther.

"Sorry kid, it's always good to be cautious. You have to know that there are many people who want to trip me up."

Esther silently took the textbook and accidentally met his eyes. At that moment, she felt that his eyes wanted to see through her completely.

She had never felt this way before, so she immediately understood that this was "Moody" using Legilimency on her!

He's checking her memories! !

Don't panic.

She tried her best to calm down. It didn't matter if she exposed the Marauder's Map, or even if she exposed her suspicion of "Moody's" identity, as long as she didn't expose her memories of the future.

Must not be exposed! !

She felt her memories come back one after another, and the scene when she had dinner in the Great Hall this morning, the scene where she danced with Draco at the ball... and some other daily things came to mind.

She knew that this was him searching her memory, and she resisted desperately.

Facts have proved that this semester's independent study is actually somewhat useful, or Esther is very talented, because she really successfully resisted Legilimency.

Moody didn't search her mind for anything useful.

Esther silently took the textbook and said to him pretending not to know: "Professor, can I go? Professor Snape is still waiting for me."

"Go child."

Moody nodded to her.

Esther breathed a sigh of relief, feeling that her palms were all sweaty.

But at least I passed the test today.

She turned her head and reached for the door.

However, at this moment, she heard another spell.

"——It's all forgotten."

This time, Esther, who had relaxed her vigilance, was able to escape and was hit instantly. She felt dizzy and fell to the ground uncontrollably.

In a daze, she felt "Moody" walking up to her and reaching out to take away the Marauder's Map.

"Although I don't know why I can't see your related memories, it's a pity that when I was in school, I saw them running around with this thing, so I know what it is."

"I don't know if you noticed it or not, but for the sake of safety, you'd better forget everything. For a girl like you, it's better to be an idiot than to lose your life."

The dizziness became worse and worse, and Esther no longer had the strength to even raise her head.

She didn't last a few seconds before she closed her eyes heavily.

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It was as if a pair of big hands were roughly erasing all her memories.

Esther stood aside in the darkness, watching the light spots carrying memories dissipate little by little. She screamed anxiously and painfully.

No! Don't let her forget all this!

She finally had so many warm memories in this life, met such good parents, and met so many friendly classmates and friends. Every minute and second she spent with them was a happy time, and she didn't want to think about it at all. forget.

But no matter how anxious she was, she couldn't stop these memories from being shattered.

She struggled in vain, but in return she felt more and more painful the more she struggled.

As the light dissipated, the surroundings became colder and colder.

Esther lay shivering in the darkness, watching the memory fade away little by little, feeling extremely desperate.

When she looked up, the small ball floating in front of her eyes kept flashing back to the day in the second grade when all their students slept in the auditorium due to Sirius' invasion.

Draco was chattering beside her, complaining about various things, while she fell asleep beside her.

It was obviously the most normal time to get along, but at this moment Esther was filled with sadness.

Draco...

She didn't want to forget Draco either.

She stretched out her hand tremblingly, and when she was about to reach this memory, there was a "bang" and the memory turned into bubbles and disappeared without a trace.

At this moment she finally couldn't bear it anymore and started sobbing.

If she had known this would happen, she would have been braver to face her heart that day in the Astronomy Tower.

If she had known that this day would come, she would definitely say "I love you" to her parents properly.

I knew earlier...

But I didn't know it earlier.

She closed her eyes in despair, regretting her carelessness.

She messed everything up.

Sorry mom and dad.

Sorry everyone.

Sorry...Draco.

If I don't remember you.

She fell into a deep sleep again.

At the same time, a warm current burst out and slowly flowed into her body, dispelling all the cold.

Those shaky memories were stabilized in the air one by one.

Time seems to be flowing backwards, and the vanished memory points are slowly coming back together.

"Sleep, sleep, my darling."

Gentle nursery rhymes sounded, soothing her emotions.

Then those painful feelings disappeared, and she seemed to be in a baby's cradle, with her mother's gentle palms beside her gently lapping her to sleep, and loving songs lulling her to sleep in her ears.

In a daze, Esther opened her eyes, her vision was hazy, like those dreams she had had many times.

But this time, she heard more clearly.

"We cannot judge whether the prediction is true or false, but we must not take this risk."

"Although the Dark Lord is dead, we know that he will come back one day. Before that, we must sever all ties with the magical world."

"I understand that the tragedy of the Potter family is still before us, and this is really the only way."

"Look, our little star is asleep. She is still laughing in her sleep."

"What a carefree child. I wish I could continue to be carefree like this."

"But... what should Essie do after she turns 11? She is a little witch. She is destined to learn magic. We cannot deprive her of the right to contact the magical world."

"At that time, the right to choose is in her hands. All we have to do is protect her. No matter what choice she makes, we will do our best to protect her."

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