Starting from you are my glory

"In your opinion, is the dream more important, or the so-called work?"

"Didn't you just go to college? Now you have to think about a job?"

Lin Lei'er knew the problem with Ding Yi's family, just like Qiao Yingzi and her mother were destined to die because of where they went to college. This was the inevitable consequence of accumulated habits and thinking, and it would happen no matter what.

So now he plays a high school senior who he doesn't know much about, and tries to let Ding Yi talk as much as possible. In fact, as long as he is not a twisted and perverted person like Zhang Sicheng in the last film and television drama world, he can talk more about other inner problems. Talking more often will be effective.

“Isn’t the point of going to college just to work?”

A sarcastic smile appeared on Ding Yi's lips. Although it was a question, his words must have been filled with meaning.

"Study hard, get into a good university, enter a good university, choose a good major, graduate from a good major, and find a good job."

In just a few words, Ding Yi clarified the inertial thinking and cognition of all parents and children at this stage in their studies and work.

Studying is for the purpose of getting into college, and majoring is for the job after graduation.

"You don't think that's right?"

"How could it be wrong?" Ding Yi put away his sarcastic smile and looked at Lin Lei'er beside him, "There are so many people who have been here like this for so many years, how could it be wrong?!"

"So, it's still wrong." Lin Leier understood the meaning of Ding Yi's words very well. Everyone else is like this, and the whole world is like this. Is this right? Is this right? !

"But what's the use?" Ding Yi raised his head, looked at the clear moon in the sky, and said in a tone that was almost gibbering, "The moon in the water is something you can hope for but not get."

"A dream is just a dream after all!"

"Sometimes I wonder if I would be happier if I immersed myself in dreams, but now I don't even have the ability to dream."

"When I'm awake during the day, I feel the omnipresent reality. After I fall asleep desperately at night, the reality is still in my dream, reminding me all the time that it's just a dream now. Everything in the dream, forget about it and open it. Eyes, we still have to face reality!"

"Reality! Why are these two simple words so scary? I am so oppressed that I can't breathe?!"

Ding Yi tried hard to control his emotions, but tears still inevitably streaked across his cheeks, which were so white that they were unhealthy!

"So I started escaping reality."

Ding Yi wiped his tears and smiled, "Although it is shameful to escape, I still chose to escape. I started dieting, and with insomnia, my physical condition became worse and worse. In the end, I dropped out of school and now I stay at home every day. , I would lock myself in my room during the day, put on headphones, and let the unknown voices cover up my parents’ voices aimlessly. At night, I would go out for a walk. At first, I just walked casually. Recently, I suddenly think."

"If I didn't work so hard to get into college last year, or if my grades didn't meet the cutoff, would I be able to live an easier life now?!"

"Sorry." After venting, Ding Yi calmed down and smiled apologetically at Lin Lei'er, who didn't say much. "I've wasted your time by letting you listen to so much nonsense."

"Remember to apologize to your friend for me. I'll be there later..."

Ding Yi paused for a moment, then gritted his teeth and said, "I'll try not to go!"

"Shouldn't the apology be told to the person involved to appear sincere?"

Lin Lei'er looked at Ding Yi who was about to get up and leave, and said calmly: "You talked a lot just now, how about you listen to my story now?"

Ding Yi, who originally wanted to leave, felt a strange sense of familiarity in his heart the moment he caught Lin Lei'er's gaze. Although it was the first time he had seen the person in front of him, that look in his eyes was so familiar!

"I'm not from Beijing. I was born in Fujian and moved to Beijing from Fujian when I was in my third year of high school."

Before Ding Yi could answer, Lin Leier started talking to himself.

"Why should I come to Beijing to study?"

"Because I can't stay in Fujian anymore."

Ding Yi sat down firmly, because Lin Lei'er's current state was so similar to the person he saw in the mirror!

"I originally had a family that everyone said was happy. My parents had a harmonious relationship, and my grades were good. However, there are three people in our family, and everyone knows that this is a false happiness."

"I don't know why my mom chose my dad, because for as long as I can remember, I was totally raised by my mom and my dad, huh."

Sneering laughter rang out, "In other words, my father in this body is probably dissatisfied with his life and career, and he himself has no way to change it. He can only put everything he has into it out of cowardice, incompetence and hypocrisy. All the anger was directed at my mother."

"He was going to throw it at me, but my mother blocked him."

Lin Lei'er looked directly at Ding Yi with serious eyes, and the dazzling light made it impossible for him to look at Lin Lei'er.

"When I was young, I thought it was just like what he said. My grades were not top-notch and my study was not good enough, which made him lose face with his friends. So in order to make him lose face, he also made me My mother had a better life. I studied hard and gradually moved from the middle to the upper reaches, and finally became No. 1. But I found that no matter how hard I tried, I could not get back his smile and smile."

"Love for my mom."

"It wasn't until that time that I completely realized that my grades, face, and even everything he said were just an excuse to cover himself up."

"He probably didn't like my mother. She loved the house and the house, so I couldn't get his approval. It was too long ago and I don't know why they were together back then."

"I don't even know."

"Why do I, who was born in Fujian, actually have a household registration and student status in Beijing, where my mother grew up?"

"It's funny, right?" Ding Yi didn't laugh, but Lin Lei'er laughed, "I don't believe it's an accident or coincidence, because everything has its traces. It turns out that before I was born, my mother , and arranged all the escape routes for me."

"It's a pity that she helped me arrange a way out, but she didn't arrange it for herself. Just like when she went from Beijing to Fujian, she jumped into this pit of fire without hesitation. In the end, that sunny day in the summer vacation of her sophomore year of high school."

"She passed away due to illness."

"The cause of everything, everything, everything is over."

"The reason why she followed her to Fujian without hesitation was that less than half a month after her death, she brought someone into her home who had been prepared for a long time."

"Tell me, which is more important, dreams or reality?"

"I don't know how many dreams my mother had, but I firmly remember that in that hospital ward, when she was terminally ill, she held my hand and warned me to study hard and get admitted to the Department of Physics of Tsinghua University."

"This was my mother's dream when she was young, and it is also the regret of her short life. I am her son, I have inherited her bloodline, and I am her continuation in this world. I have an obligation to help her realize it. My unfulfilled dream was to walk into the campus as a physics student at Tsinghua University and take a look for my mother at a place she had passed by countless times but never been able to enter."

"What about your own?" Ding Yi finally asked what he had been holding back in his heart, "Department of Physics, Tsinghua University, this is your mother's dream, but what about your dream?"

"My dream?" Lin Lei'er looked at Ding Yi with a serious face, saw the eagerness in his eyes, and smiled.

"Dreams are important because they are one of the driving forces that support us moving forward. Dreams are not important either, because living in this world and surviving is the first step, and the second step is to live well. Only by completing these two steps can we Only then are we qualified to talk about the third step, which is to realize our dreams.”

"Some people are lucky, because their second and third steps overlap, their dreams are combined with reality, and they realize their dreams while living well."

"Some people feel that it is unfortunate because their dreams are out of touch with reality, and they may not be able to realize their dreams throughout their lives."

"But so what?"

“When we were young, we would be happy all day because of a piece of candy. When we were teenagers, we would be so excited that we couldn’t sleep all night because of the affirmation of the person we like. When we reach middle age, we see the joy and happiness of our family members. You will feel satisfied and sigh that happiness is nothing more than this.”

"So, will you be happy again now because of a candy from your childhood? In other words, how much of the things that are still fresh in your memory when you were young can you remember now? Is that thing still with you? ?”

"People are fickle, and luckily, so are dreams. Don't think that the dream you can't get now and that makes you want to live or die is the only value of your life, because only you and only you will abandon your dream. Maybe you I will stick to a dream for a lifetime, but while looking up at the countless stars in the sky, please remember that it is precisely because you are down-to-earth that you can look up, otherwise the moon in the well and the flowers in the water can be seen but not touched."

"So, tell me now, which is more important, dreams or reality?"

After Lin Lei'er finished speaking, he looked at Ding Yi. The same question, the determination at the beginning and the hesitation now, is the best answer.