The women I let down in those years

I have no way to object to what Sister Hua has decided.

The next morning, when An An came to call me, her expression was obviously not good-looking. She must have known about Sister Hua's arrangement.

I didn't wait for An An to ask questions and directly raised this topic.

"An'an, you guessed it right, Sister Hua does have some objections to me celebrating your birthday."

"I know, Sister Hua has already told me that she will arrange for another person to come over to assist you in your work."

"An'an, I'm sorry! I...you also know my situation. I can't refuse Sister Hua's arrangement."

I quickly apologized, saying that I was unwilling in my heart, but Sister Hua had arranged it this way, and there was nothing I could do about it.

An An was silent for a few seconds and suddenly asked me another question.

"Sister Hua asked you to marry me, but you didn't agree, did you?"

"……Yes."

"Why? What you told me on my birthday were just lies to me?"

"No! I didn't lie to you, I really like you, but Sister Hua..."

I paused, lowered my voice and asked, "An'an, let me tell you what's in my heart. Will you tell Sister Hua all this?"

An An lowered his head and said, "Speak first."

I pulled An An over and said seriously: "Sister Hua felt that the relationship between the two of us was too close, and she was beginning to be dissatisfied, so she said she wanted us to get married just to test it out, and she wanted to see how good the relationship between the two of us was. How far has it developed?

If I say I like you and you like me, and we have reached the point where we can give up everything for each other, do you think Sister Hua will let you stay with me? "

An An is very smart. It's not that she can't understand what's going on here, it's just that from her perspective, she doesn't want to think about it.

"So you are deceiving Sister Hua by saying all this?"

I didn't answer immediately, but looked into An An's eyes.

"An'an, can I trust you?"

Although An An and I are face to face now, I am still not sure what Sister Hua said to An An, and whether An An is on my side or on Sister Hua's side.

If An An still sides with Sister Hua, then once what I am about to say reaches Sister Hua's ears, I will be in trouble.

But I can't do nothing, because that would be equivalent to completely abandoning An An. When Sister Hua finds someone else, An An will inevitably be replaced, and all my previous efforts will be in vain.

So even though I know it's risky, I still want to try it.

What if it happens?

An An also looked at me, obviously sensing my serious attitude.

"What do you want to say?"

I asked again: "Do you want to be with me? I mean, stay together forever, get married when we get old, and never be separated again."

"I……"

An An hesitated, "Of course I am willing, but... we don't seem to be... good enough."

"Why not? Do you want to talk about Sister Hua?"

I finally addressed the issue directly.

An An is so smart. After experiencing me celebrating her birthday, Sister Hua specifically looking for me, and then looking for her, she should be able to see that there is a conflict between Sister Hua and me.

An An's loyalty to Sister Hua does not affect her objective evaluation of the relationship between Sister Hua and me.

An An subconsciously wanted to shake her head, but after seeing the look in my eyes, she nodded anyway.

I grabbed An An's hand and said, "An An, you can see that Sister Hua doesn't want us to be together or have such a good relationship between us. Do you know why?"

"why?"

An An didn't answer, but threw the question back.

I suspect she knows nothing, but she can't tell.

I said: "Because the purpose of Sister Hua letting you stay with me is to monitor me! Before I met Sister Hua, Sister Hua and I didn't know each other at all. Maybe before Sister Hua contacted me, she had already found someone to investigate I thought my conditions were pretty good, so I was given this opportunity.

But giving a chance does not mean trust, especially the relationship between me and Sister Hua. Everything I do for Sister Hua must be hidden, so Sister Hua must find someone absolutely new and outstanding to monitor me, and you are Someone who monitors me.

It's just that Sister Hua won't tell me directly that your mission is to monitor me, but will use another method, saying that you will assist me in my work and meet all my needs. But in fact, you make the final decision on anything related to Sister Hua. I am more like a puppet. "

"No, that's not the case!"

An An was a little panicked and wanted to explain.

I raised my hand to interrupt her, "It's okay, An An, I know this is not what you want to do, but you have to listen to Sister Hua's arrangements, so you report everything I do to Sister Hua, many things I can only do it after Sister Hua makes a decision, but I don't blame you.

I am a poor boy who knows nothing and knows nothing. Even if Sister Hua trusts me and puts me in this position, I still know nothing. If things don't get done, it will bring trouble to Sister Hua, and I won't be where I am today.

You have been helping me, so I really thank you, and I like you from the bottom of my heart. I want to be with you all the time, and I want to give you the best things, but...but I ignored Sister Hua. feelings. "

An An looked a little touched, "Sister Hua...how does Sister Hua feel?"

I continued: "Do you know that in ancient times, when emperors sent generals to fight, why did they find a trusted confidant to supervise the army? It was to prevent the generals who led the troops from overestimating themselves!

Under such circumstances, the relationship between the supervisor and the general cannot be harmonious. There must be a conflict. The greater the conflict between them, the more relieved the emperor will be. If the emperor knows that the relationship between the supervisor and the general is very harmonious, , then the emperor should have trouble sleeping and eating.

Now my relationship with you is like that of a general and a supervisor.

If we have a good relationship, like each other, and even want to marry each other and spend our lives together, what would Sister Hua think?

You came here to spy on me, but we ended up getting together. So, are you one of Sister Hua’s people or mine?

This is Sister Hua's real concern.

Once you and I get too close, Sister Hua will not be able to completely trust you.

You also have to think about what Sister Hua will do to you after losing her trust.

An'an, I really like you and want to go on with you and have a bright future, but the more I think so, the less I can show it in front of Sister Hua.

When I celebrated your birthday, I was negligent and didn't think of this. So now I can only find a way to remedy it. Tell Sister Hua that I don't like you. You and I are just having fun. I hope this can make Sister Hua relax her vigilance. , I hope Sister Hua can let you continue to stay with me.

An'an, can you understand my painstaking efforts? "